.me being me.

31.8.06

when your world crumbles, it just crumbles. and you will wonder what is life about? do you give up or carry on? to give up is forgoing all hope of a better life. to keep trying is just so tiring. so do you give up or just keep trying?

.ruffles off.

23.8.06

shihui and me met up with min, jia and ying to study in the library today. but my goodness the library was like a refugee camp lah. it was sooo crowded, but we booked a room anyway. the room was occupied by a couple, then huimin gave a super yaya face when she was chasing them out. hahaa.

anyways, was chatting with a tkd friend from SP. i msged her coz i thought she was gonna fight nationals this weekend, and indeed she is. i found out theres only 5 people fighting for my weight category. i think tuna should have signed up!!! now they're only fighting 2 bouts to gold. ARGH. soo good arh. if tuna had signed up, they would then need to fight 3 bouts for gold. i wonder whos the sway one who would kenna 2 bouts for bronze. haaha. i wonder if the ntu girl is fighting fly or fin now..? hahaha. argh. i wanna watch the nationals!!!! but too bad i dont think i can make it this weekend. sadded. good luck to all whos fighting!! dont get injured too badly..!! hehes.

hmmm.. i miss tkd. lolx. sighs. trainings would only resume next week. i'll turn up for every training from next week onwards because firstly, i'm like so free after the exams, secondly, i'm getting fat. hahaha. well.. i'll try to lah. unless theres something more important to do. otherwise i'm all geared up and looking forward to trainings!! =)) besides, theres still the training camp coming up in sept. it would be fun!! =))

anyways, last paper this thursday!! good luck to all. and good luck to YOU. and i mean it.

okay.. heres a quiz i took given by huimin.. some colour quiz

med took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!

"Needs a peaceful environment. Wants release from s..."

Click here to read the rest of the results.

.ruffles off.

20.8.06

ooohh.. had the greatest night out with jia, ying and our dearest. =)) so tired huh... been out the entire day.

so lazy to blog the entire event, but those who are interested esp ee gong can refer to jia's blog for more details yaa!! =)) heheheeeeheeee...

oh sweets dreams to all!!!

sweetest to me and jia!! =))

hahahahahahahahahahaha.
oops. sorrrrrrry. i just can't stop laughing =))

p.s. its the MJ twins at work =)) *hint hint*

.ruffles off.

18.8.06

i've lost count of how many times i mistook bukit gombak for bukit batok and got off at the wrong station. i am so pissed with myself sometimes.

i'm like so sleepy really.

2 down. 2 more to go.

then here the holidays come!! heheees.

till then......... me and jia, the mj twins (lame i know) will look forward to this sunday!! hehe!! (ARGH)

.ruffles off.

16.8.06

oh man. i think should show ee gong the private conversation between me and jiajia. HAHAHA. they'll confrim siam far far away. especially jieying a.k.a -W- hor?? hahahahaa. right -S-?? hahahahaha.

faints.

exam is just a day away and we're still dreaming. but its alright la, its like 2.17am now. its ok to dream at night right jia??

hahahaha. can destress. make ourselves happy for a while also good what right?? haha...we'll go eat, shop and catch the lastest movies with our ai ai in our dreams right?? hahahaha. ok i shall stop DREAMING. LOLS.

YAWNS.

i'm really sleepy.

sweet dreams to me and my lovelies ;))

its another day devoted to books again tomorrow!! good luck pple!! jia you!!

.ruffles off.

13.8.06

had a great evening out with my beloved ee gong family celebrating zhihong's birthday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you!!!

took lotsa pics~ will upload them tomorrow. heheees.

hhmm. i really really need to get my piano repaired ASAP. its getting worse. its such a spoiler when i'm feeling all-so musical and then the bloody sustain pedal dies on me. spoils my day really. i wont get a new piano because i love my piano to bits!!!!! i'm so attached to this samick baby. its been with me since i was like 5 or 6??

anyways, i need some time ALONE with a piano. give me any piano. i get really fed up with constant interruptions when i'm on the piano. i need i need i need!!! and i wish i wish i wish!!! to play on a nicely tuned piano alone. i just want to be alone with my piano cause i'm bursting with emotions. i sooooo need to get it all OUT.

.ruffles off.

11.8.06

we're living in such a hectic world where theres really no time for us to stop and smell the roses. you just gotta keep moving or else you'll just lag behind.

one final presentation tomorrow before the horrid exams start.

watched the ndp fireworks yesterday with huimin + shihui + shihui bf. but it was a waste of time there lah. the fireworks were like so short!! idiot. after that we went for some desserts at bugis and saw weisiang there with his handsome friends. hahaa.

and yes.. i'm still very much 'in love' with nic from milubing. coz he's just so darrrrrnnn cute man. faints. he has a really nice smile.... reallyyyy.

hhmm... theres like sooooo many things to do.

.ruffles off.

9.8.06

i am sorta in love with a stranger?

man. i feel like a little girl you know. but i know its just a silly crush. LET ME GET OVER IT SOON PLSSSSS.

hahaha.

argggggghhhhh.

my goodness. he's like so cute.

*faints*

while waiting for my 4 in 1 to appear.... sighs.. let me just go gaga over this stranger for a while kays? lolx. i think i'll get over it later. its so stupid really.

.ruffles off.

7.8.06

ohhh. i had a pretty long day today. went to teach piano at 10.30am. why did i ever agree to take up such an early class man!! gossh. i need a longer sleeping time.

anyways, my student cried today coz i scolded her for not practicing and for not doing the homework i gave her.

Before anyone starts to point fingers at me for being too fierce, i'm not okay. i didnt even raise my voice. i only reprimanded her. the homework i gave was only half a page of colouring. not more than 10 questions. and i've given her 3 weeks = 3 chances to practice a particular song.

i dont think i was very demanding okay! i have my limits as well okay. if you're not gonna do my homework, not gonna practice, whats the point of coming to class?? plus her learning attitude is kinda sucky although still bearable, but it kinda sparked me off to reprimand her. what happened was, i told her to hold a note for longer count and she can tell me she dont like to hold the count, so she dont hold. that is so not the way man!! so in the end she cry lor. kinda expected anyways, coz i was kinda fierce i admit, but tell me whos not fierce when they start scolding pple?

sighs. kinda dampened my mood for the entire day. coz i'm not used to making kids cry la! kinda scary okay. although she's not the first student who cried, but i did intended to scold her, so i'm not surprised she cried. but for the previous one, i remembered speaking a little more harshly, then he started sniffing already. WAH TT ONE WAS SCARY I TELL YA! i had no intention to scold him, but i suppose my frustration was starting to get the better of me. so poor thing. sorrrry.

after she left, i had such a long break time coz 2 of students didnt come today. argh. there goes my thursday coz i have to make up for them. anyways, spent a longggg time in the room practicing some songs till my fingers went numbed. oooh. theres like so much i still wanna play, but my fingers were trembling and sweating coz of the cold and everything. hahaha. tired leh.

then went to sakae to have lunch + dinner with florence at 5pm. after that we went back to mc for our duet! hahaha. gggooossh. i love duets. canon's still our fav!! we can like duet with any scores we have on hand. we were like banging away on the keys and it was like so LOUD man. nearly went deaf. but it was beautiful music. HAHA.

then went to meet qtk + q's bf. met kim at JE and met the rest later. bought Godiva's chocos for qian on the way before meeting them at newyork newyork. not gonna reveal the price, but it wasnt cheap okay! so ho qian hui, you better eat it with love. haha. kidding. anyways, happy belated birthday darling~

then her bf sent us home although i suppose unwillingly?? haahha. got points for sending us home okay! but marks were still deducted when he teased tracy for being fat. hahaa. damn funny. but i suppose he didnt mean it la! was just joking. then i nearly brought home the stupid pink penguine kim was so obsessed with in the car. haha.

okay, i'm so sleepy. nites.

.ruffles off.

5.8.06

rui-en has gotta be the luckiest girl on earth!! she had like an affair in the show with 2 of the best looking guys in that show la!! wha piang!! elvin ng is reaaalllllyyy damn cute laaa! faints man.

anyways, 4 down for 6 projects. 2 more weeks to exams and i'm having the itch to shop!!!! like so.. duh.

saw some hermit crabs for sale as pets in junction 8 with shihui today!! hahahaha!! so cute okkaaays!!!!!!!! $75 bucks for a cage with 2 crabs!!! they're damn cute laaah! i dont know how to describe, but the crabs dont just live in those sea shells kinda shells. those pple actually painted cartoons, designed shells for the crabs to change into. daaammnnn cute. didnt dare take pictures coz the uncles look so fierce. anyways, i'm really so tempted to get 2 of those!!!!! they can live up to 15 years.. i think pappy will die before them man!!! CHOY!!!!! but they're really cute man! oh yeahh.. the company is called Ha Ha hermit or something. they've got a website but i cant rem the url.. lolx. cute..!!

damn sleepy. skipped tkd today coz..............

anyways, i kinda miss those days when neyton or weiping would offer to carry my bag for me after trainings while we walked out of school.. those days when there are still people taking the train with me after trainings.. pple like dennis, janson, zhenliang, fazli, marcus etc etc... those days when they actually take charge of things and take care of us as well.... they would be the ones carrying those targets down, carrying all the heavy stuffs... now the freshies dont do that anymore. i feel like their mama sometimes when they come and ask me for help. it gets a bit tiring have to care for things and everybody. dont get me wrong, i'm all willing to help them, but i just hate the feeling of getting old. i hate being depended on actually. really. i mean everyone wants to be taken care of right?? being depended on makes me feel so argh and everything. i'd rather depend on someone and be taken care of. or i dont mind just having take care of me, myself only. haha. oh my, that sounds so selfish. argh.

anyways, its late. i'm gonna sleep.

.ruffles off.

3.8.06

i'm in a bad mood.

like always,

as usual.

i'm going to sleep.

iamnothappyandidontknowwhy.helltoexpectationsandgrowingup.iwanttocry.butiwont.
itsastupidthingtodo.

.ruffles off.