.me being me.

28.5.06

omg. i think i just did the stupiest thing an adult can do 10 minutes ago. i closed the window without removing my own thumb from the edge and my poor thumb now has a painful bump on it. oh pls kill me. i feel so stupid. and jiajia had just lost her specs in her own home. now know why we hang out together all the time?? lol.

just finished looking for articles on london bombing for the IB proj. sighs. earthquakes, terrorism, tsunami, volcano eruptions. never ending troubles on earth. when i can go heaven?? hahaaa. dont know if i can or not. from the way things are looking right now. i think i can't.

oh i'm feeling so cold. it was because i was feeling cold thats why i went to close the window!! and then i closed the window on my thumb. SSSTTUUPIDDD.

anyways, went out with jeremy, lijia, samuel, jenwen, daniel, joelyn, charlene and meigee to celebrate jem's birthday yesterday. jen wen was entertaining us as usual. really missed their jokes man. sighs. had so much laughters yesterday. took quite a few pictures. and there was this really really ugly pic of me which i took for fun lah and you guys better not post it up. i will really murder you all.

sighs. jiajia's gone to cook her maigee noodles for dinner. i should log off soon to continue writing notes for my int marketing. theres a test on wed. i so need to study man. last min i knowwwwww. dont nag. hahaaa.

ciaos.

.ruffles off.

25.5.06

me and shihui got caught in the rain on the way back to school after lunch!!! we saw the rain coming towards us and it was twister-ish. so gan chiong!! lolx.

but before that we had so much fun with huimin and jiajia at pool!! couldn't stop laughing man. lolx.

actually after lunch we wanted to head home, but there was this world bank ambassadorial uniform thingy and i also wanted to settle some tkd stuffs. the uniform is like so ugly lah. pink and grey. oh my. and the skirts were either too tight or too loose!!! arggggh. hopefully the world bank thingy would be worth my time spent. went home with shihui after that and we chatted so much in the mrt.

i'm feeling so sleepy right now. but i've still gotta go teach piano soon. sighs. i'll probably be damn busy starting from next week when all tests and projects comes in. and on top of that, theres still tkd and work. oh my. dreads dreads.

well i suppose i'll get through it somehow and soon enough this sem will pass =))

tatas.

.ruffles off.

21.5.06

oh here i am blogging twice a day.

just met up with qian hui and we took A LOT of pics!!!

will upload them laters =))

can't wait to meet her again!! go shopping!! chat chat =))

i thought i suck at handling my love life, but she's worse at it. tsk tsk. haiyooo.

tracy, kimmy... we'll meet again on kimmy's birthday with qian okay?? i miss you girls a lot alot. i wonder if the two of you met up while i met qian today. couldnt find you two online. anyways, i miss you.

LIJIA!! is it possible for us to have a chalet this year?? sighs. i doubt so right? some peeps are in the army and stuffs. i really miss those days leh. i miss you all so much =((

i miss chapel. i miss worship.

through it all
i know
that God is in control
like the sun, after a storm
his love will come shining through

yes i know
his love for me
is greater than all my trials
like a child
in his arms
he'll carry me through it all

i dont wanna move on.

.ruffles off.

just read jia's blog. sighs. i think we're becoming more and more les man. HOW?? argh. we're both staying away from guys till one day we find can somebody who can make us fall in love with them. and i wonder when will that be... sighs.

meeting ho qian hui later. like finally.

nothing comforts me more than chatting or meeting up with old pals. everytime i meet up with them, i'd really feel the person that i am. they'll never misunderstand me, they'll never make me upset without a good reason, and they'll always accept me for the things i say, the things i do. and the best thing is there will be no communication problems among us. we can say anything, do anything, and we'll understand each other perfectly well. i cant really express how much i love them. as in, really love them because i love them. haha.

i miss them alot. lijia, yenping, 2e, kim, tracy, qian hui, charmaine, 6d.. blah blah. i miss them alot alot. esp now i dont know why. probably because i'm so sick and tired of having to explain myself for whatever that i do because people dont understand me, and i dont understand them either.

poly life is really different, and so are the people. i'm so tired of people misunderstanding me. and then i have to tell them gently that its not what they think. sometimes i dont even feel like explaining myself. like why should i? i do what i am supposed to do. if you dont get it, that is your problem.

sometimes i feel so lost till i dont know if i did the right things, said the right stuffs, and i'm not even sure of whats right and wrong. i can't really care about everything can i? i can't make sure that everyone feels fair and happy. i can't please everybody at the same time.

for the people in nyptkd reading this, think about what you can do for the club instead of what the club can do for you. both me and peijing are trying our best to change the old habits in the club. and what we do beneath the surface of things is a fold more than what you have seen with your eyes. tkd for us is not just a tuesday and friday thingy. dont complain that we're not doing enough, why dont you start doing something for the club.

dont assume anything. theres more to the things i do then meets the eye. what is not seen does not mean that it does not exist. want anything, ask. i account to myself, you account to yourself. if your conscience is clear, so be it. i know mine is.

.ruffles off.

20.5.06

chatting with florence and gossiping online right now. we're both worried about not being able to get married in the future. HOW??

hai anyways, life's kinda sucky.

i have like so many projects on hand, but i dont know where to start.

i'm gonna say it again. i hate attention seekers. get a life. get away from me. i have no compassion. no patience.

and some people just enjoy making things difficult for me. dont try to spite me or whatever shite. you'll just irritate the hell out of me.

i do what i have to do to get things done and make things right. if you're not gonna cooperate, fine by me. dont help then. i dont beg.

oh gawd. headache.

.ruffles off.

17.5.06

sometimes...

just sometimes...

i feel like screaming my lungs out. for whatever reason, i dont know. ha ha. just like sometimes you'd just feel like crying without knowing why.

flutter flutter
the waves
the water
the birds
gone were the worries with the wind.

but it'll still come back.

my eyes are shutting and i ought to be asleep now because my class starts at 8am tomorrow.

gdnites.

.ruffles off.

14.5.06

happy mothers day to mummy!!! bought a recipe book for mummy with 2 fifty dollar notes slotted in between the pages. my cousins brought a cake and a rose for her in the morning.
so yeah, she's a contented mother today =))

one thing i absolutely hate is having to read chunks of chinese words. especially websites.

i have no idea why is neopets and blogspot in chinese. argh.

i've tried changing the encoding but it doesnt help!!

now can somebody tell me WHY?!?! and how to change it back to english??

hai hai.

HO QIAN HUI. u better keep your promise and meet me next sunday.

.ruffles off.

13.5.06

hhmm.. you know what. i've not taken a single step out of the house since thursday night. hahaa. can't believe it man. i spent 2 days bumming about at home. all i do is wake up at 3pm, have lunch, read books, play on the piano, disturb pappy once in a while, surf net then sleep again till the next afternoon.

i feel like a pig.

anyways, theres this strong baby ointment smell wafting through the window at this moment. and i kinda like it.

sighs. so bored. i'm gonna go watch tv now. the gong li show. kinda nice.

byee.

.ruffles off.

11.5.06

i've been feeling snappish recently. and everything simply feels irritating to watch/see/look or whatever.

i think i'll write about 10 things that irritates the hell outta me:
1. guys who are not gentlemanly
2. people who uses swear words in every sentence that they speak (i feel like pouring dettol into their mouths, choke them or whatever.)
3. couples (i'm weird i know. sorry.)
4. guys (i have no idea why the sight of them just turns me off TOTALLY)
5. irresponsible pple
6. pple who messges me on msn when i've already put away or busy
7. ah lians/ah bengs
8. pple who hog the mrt poles
9. guys (i think i've mentioned that before. but who cares)
10. pple who call me by my pet name meant for friends and family only (which is med. so dont call me med unless i know you well. else buzz off. call me medeline)
11. smart alecks
12. pple who are not humble
13. pple i dont know
14. sbm students (some sbm pple act like they're really big shot or something. oh pls. getting into sbm is peanuts. stop walking around with your noses in the air. if you're so smart, get into a jc or something. get lost.)

ok. i feel like i'm getting unreasonable. but certain things like couples, guys who are not gentlemanly, guys who uses swear words all the time and smart alecks really really pisses me.

hhmmm.. but come to think of it, i might have pissed others off with my 'ungentlemanly' attitude, or i might have been the smart aleck sometimes. i dont know. but one thing for sure, i would never piss anyone off using vulgarities or dirty language. its so uncivillised.

i am so irritated. i feel like hitting somebody.

.ruffles off.

8.5.06

today was just a day spent for myself.

no school, no work and the best thing was i had the whole house to myself with only pappy for company.

ok lah. i admit i skipped an hour of makeup lecture because i figured its a total waste of my time going to school, then back again for just an hour of lecture (which i dont think i'll be paying attention anyway)

and it was time well spent at home =))

hhmmm... i can't wait for the long waited 2 months sept/oct hols. i MUST travel somewhere. anywhere. get out of singapore.

i need to get:
1. highlighters
2. kitty/doggy file from taka
3. a new pencil box

haha

i needa log off now. oh did i mention there are exchange students from france in my school now and those french guys (most of them anyways) are damn cute. HAHA.

.ruffles off.

3.5.06

OH MY. watching this Never Say Die show on chn 8 right now. i think that programe is stupid. its a total music disaster. if they have no talent in singing or performing, they should just drop it, i'm sure they can excel in something else. the entire program is just pure mockery of their less than talented singing 'talents'. ok, say i'm mean or what. but do you really think they can make it as one of those big superstars?? i think not. i could be wrong, but from they way they're singing, they're just a group william hungs. i'm not talking about their looks or what, i think some of them are pretty cute and personally i like tt young kid, he's got gut. but back to point, they all sing out of tune BADLY. its really really really bad. 70% of the time its OUT OF TUNE. i'm sorry i have to bold that because its possibly the main highlight that keeps pple from watching it and then LAUGH at them. I CAN'T STAND IT MAN. but i can't turn off the tv coz my mom is watching it. if they wanna sing, at least get the tune right first pls. if its like normal ktv and you sing out of tune, i suppose thats ok because nobody is pitch perfect, but to stand on stage, by which the song should have been practiced and sang over and over again, and still they can sing so badly, i dont know what else is appropriate except to use the word 'disaster' to describe. i somehow feel its an insult to music. music is something so soulful, so beautiful, but yet it sounds so twisted on them. so un-music. basically the sight of that steven guy just makes me wanna puke. i'm fine with the rest. but pls dont sing anymore.

ok i'm so mean. but its really a stupid show. trust mediacorp to air and come up with such a competition, they should be airing better programes than such craps that mocks at pple's weaknesses. that Never Say Die show is CRAP. i think mediacorp can come up with better stuffs than that.

k. enough about the show. i'm kinda fuming. anyways, went back to my IPP place to return my supervisor some stuffs. yucks. i hate that place, and i'm glad i'm outta it. went to queenstown to fix jieying's phone before going to bugis to return the things. had desserts, then went to meet tracy wan. idled a little before we went over to the street to look for jiajia and jieying. then jieying had her fake nails fixed and tracy had her manicure. jieying, pls dont so chor lor hor, your artificial nails will drop off one ok..

anyways, i'm gonna start on my IPP report after this. i hope my supervisor doesnt change my grades.

.ruffles off.

1.5.06

heh heh. =))

its back to school tomorrow!! hhaha. i'm feeling studious. can't wait to hit the books and i mean it!!! hahaaa.

i can't wait for the holidays actually. i'll probably be going hong kong or bangkok with MC peeps or to beijing with my parents.

just had dinner with my relative at some chinese dim sum restaurant. havent had those for a damn long time. i heard its one of those food that makes pple fat. i think my nephew should learn taekwondo. hahahaa.

anyways, i'm gonna go change my blogskin. ciaos~

.ruffles off.