.me being me.

29.4.06

yeah! yesterday was our last day of attachment. i dont know if its me or the excitement before the long weekend OR was it because our CEO is not in town, everyone seemed to be in a chirpy mood. hahaaa.

i'm gonna miss my colleagues. those 2 accountants i've been working with for the past 2 months. all the gossips, jokes and teasings.

how time flies man. i still remember feeling pathetic on the first day of work. and now, its all over!!!

meeting my clan later for dinner. hahaaa.

i think life is as simple as good and evil, light and darkness, virtue and vice and then finally God and Satan. extreme poles and we're living in the grey area.

.ruffles off.

26.4.06

oh just another 2 days before attachment ends!!! i am ultra excited!! =))) i'll definitely miss some of the people there tho. just 2 more days!! weeeetttt! but i can feel a sore throat and cold coming soon. NO! i'll have these 2 days over and done with!! I SHALL NOT TAKE MC. cannot take mc cannot take mc cannot take mc. i wish it would just bugger off.

the alarm doesnt seem to work for me anymore. omg its just 2 more days. SOMEONE PLS GET ME TO WAKE UP IN THE MORNING. i've been oversleeping for 2 days. i keep waking up at 8.30 when i'm supposed to have woken up at 7.15.

was supposed to meet kimmy for lunch today. but i had to go to the bank, so i bought lunch back to the office in the end. i kinda enjoy having lunch back in the office actually coz i would normally surf the net and eat my lunch at the same time.

and i'm so freaking bored at work. the work i'm given is damn easy but its always so bloody tedious to complete. i can spend hours doing something simple like photocoping. they want me to take out the stapler, pick out invoices, photocopy and then stapler back. and they have like hundreds of invoices to pick out and photocopy. and not to mention there are whole lots of data keying and verification stuffs to do. geez. i'm always bored to death.

bruises and bruises. oh my. how i hate sparring. butt bruise, hand bruise, leg bruise. people would think that i got abused. my instep hurts like shit. that particular bruise just wont heal. its been there before ivp and its still there. think i shd go tan myself so bruises wouldnt be so obvious.

i'm so sleepy right now. can't think properly for nuts.

nites.

.ruffles off.

22.4.06

ooooooohh its been a week since i was desperate to go shopping! hahaha. and i did go shopping in the end with jiajia and jieying =))

anyways, HAHA, ONE MORE WEEK BEFORE ATTACHMENT ENDS!! i've been working on mondays and tuesdays and wednesdays and thursdays and fridays and saturdays and sundays since attachment started.

meeting kimmy and tracy for a movie later!!!! actually i didnt want to watch eight below coz its proven that its a sad show, especially when 2 dogs died in the end. was supposed to watch take the lead, but bugis didnt have the timeslot we wanted. so no choice, we're watching eight below. wah so sad.

JIAMIN!! are u reading this!?!? hahahaa. can't believe we're gonna go back to school soon!!!! hahaha. so excited!!!!!!

aites. i'm off to bang away on my piano. ciaos.

.ruffles off.

15.4.06

i'm wanna go shopping desperately.

i wanna catch eight below desperately.

i want my attachment to end ASAP

i want school to start ASAP.

i wanna get a new handphone ASAP

i wanna play my piano right now.

all i wanna do now is SHOP.

i wanna visit pasir ris's pet shops.

i wanna go swimming.

i wanna go to the beach.

i wanna get a new piano.

i want a license and a car.

i dont want to grow up.

i need to go church.

4 things that occupies my mind all the time:
1. family
2. friends
3. my dog
4. school/tkd
5. myself
and its all that i think of. its all that i wanna focus on right now.
oh. wheres GOD??

i need to adjust my priorities.

no wonder i'm a lost sheep.

oh medeline. stop dreaming. dont be lazy. do something.

anyways, love my girls.

I NEED TO GET OUT OF MY HOUSE RIGHT NOW BEFORE I GO MADDDD.

coz i really really really wanna shop.

.ruffles off.

14.4.06

i actually feel OLD. i'm serious!! i met this bunch of secondary school girls in the lift today. they were just so secondary school-ish. i actually look somewhat their age, but i dont feel their age. 16 was aeons ago man!!! i'm 19!!!!! 3 years had certainly changed me much. life was very very very very very different 3 years ago. definitely.

sometimes because of the sudden change of culture in the school, i dont exactly quite fit in where i belong to now. people are not used to me being me, and i'm definitely not used to them being them. talk about meeting different kind of people, i've met quite a few interesting characters over the 3 years.

tomorrow is good friday which means no work tomorrow!! haha. but of course good friday isnt just a holiday. for many who have no idea what good friday is, its a day when Jesus was cruxified and died on the cross for us and cleansed us of sins. and on the 3rd day he was resurrected and we celebrate easter!!

i should be at church tomorrow. to reflect and stuffs. i cant even remember when was the last time i went church. but i'm meeting peijing at yck tmr at 2pm.

yes yes. feel guilty. its all i seem to feel. feel guilty for everything. tracy, kim..... go church one day??

qian you MIA-ed. i dont even know if you REMEMBER us.

anyways... if anyone took notice, it always rains on good friday. i miss God's touch so much.

.ruffles off.

8.4.06

HAHA.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!! =))

FINALLY 19!!!! =)))

OH NO. I FEEL OLD.

nvm. i'm excited!!! especially when i took a look at my bank statement today! WHOA. working 7 days a week does help to improve my bank status. haha. i suddenly have the urge to just keep working, so i can afford all that i want....

which is...

this:

a new piano!!! i want a yamaha piano!!! especially if its a grand piano!!! i love the samick one that i currently have, but its getting old (like me!!) and not just old, its super old, i think my piano's older than me. and its not working as fine as it should be anymore =((

A NEW HANDPHONE!!! yes yes i know i just changed my phone, but it sucks. and so i'm on a lookout for new phones!! and this particular D820 is really a darling!! its THE ONE that i've been looking for (or so i think), but its super expensive, i dont think i can afford it right now, and given the fact that my dad just sponsored 70% of my current phone, he is not gonna get me a new one. but i'll WAIT, and in the meantime search for other phones as well. heheeee.

and lastly,

hahaha. the new volkswagen beetle!!! i love the way its so compact and everything. i dont really fancy BIG cars. i prefer small and cute ones. and this beetle is in my dream colour, BLUE!!!!! gosh, its just so lovely.

i know this sounds stupid, but i'm not just gonna dream those. i'll get them ONE DAY. its my drive to WORK. so, nth's really my concern right now, except that i'm gonna have to work hard, study hard and i'm gonna be able to get what i want. and of course, stay in God's light. and as what lionel had wished me, i'm gonna love life and love God.

oh yes. a big thank you to all who sent me their greetings, wished me a happy birthday~ thank you =))

.ruffles off.

6.4.06

i'm feeling so hyper right now!! i could almost feel the old me. the old nutcase instead of the half dead person that i am nearly everyday. i dont know what brought about the change, but after teaching piano today, i found some life in me. it could be because i finally managed to teach my student without making him cry today!!!! lolx. if you didnt know, my student cried last week coz he made me so pissed. and i was so shocked after that, i nearly cried myself. but its ok, i managed to cultivate some patience today, and well it works!! lolx. najif, this super pro guitar teacher was giving me some advices last week coz he saw how exasperated i was. he's the best guitar mentor one could ever have. i've never ever heard him raise his voice at his students before and he has his student looking forward, loving every minute of his class every week. i'm learning from him kk... i'm trying NOT to raise my voice. BUT its so difficult. lolx. oops.

anyways, one thing that lifted my mood at MC today was that some of my colleauges remembered my birthday!! ros bought cookies and a mini cake for me and janet bought a pair of earrings. not that it was the presents that made me happy, but its their thoughts that did. i would still be equally happy even if they just bought a card and signed their names on it!! i was quite surprised coz i dont remembering mentioning my birthday to them recently although i know i have the tendency to remind people of my birthday. lol. but i do that to irritate people. lolx.

oh gosh. i just received a friendster msg from abbas wishing me a sweet 19. i havent spoken to tt guy for like YEARS i think. peeps from fairfield should remember whos abbas?? he said he'll be going into army this fri. sometimes i really miss those days in fairfield. both pri and sec school days. i dont think anything could beat the familarity we have with one another. everyone just knows everybody.

hhhmmm. was looking at the date today. and it never cease to amaze me how time flies. i kinda miss those days when i was younger. the 7 year old me. the days when my parents would sayang me when i sa-jiao. something happened last night and i just whined and whined and whined, then they sayang-ed me the way they did in the past. goodness. i just felt like a 7 year old all over again. wished i could be 7 again.

i can't believe i just spent an hour typing that whole chunk thats gonna go into my archive. but oh wells. for memories sake.

.ruffles off.

5.4.06

23 days more. 23 days. 23 days.

wooot!!!! can't wait.. =)) jiajia.... dont worrry, its gonna be over soon. soon you'll leave that horrible hospital, leave that horrible workplace. and me!!! i'm gonna stay away from photocopying machines after my attachment ends. in case you have no idea, i've been at the photocopying machine the entire day both yesterday and today from 9.30am to 6pm photocopying invoices. I AM SO SICK OF P-H-O-T-O-C-O-P-Y-I-N-G!!!

now i know how the aunties at the photocopying shop feels. how could i ever blame them for being in a bad mood all the time. not that the aunties at the SBM block are always in a foul mood, but the ones at SHS are.

went out with sweets after work today.. had dinner.. and found someplace to cut the cake he bought. thanks sweets.. thanks for the efforts put in.. thanks for the pressie =))

its gonna be hectic for the rest of the week.

work
piano
grading
MY BIRTHDAY!!

hahaaaa. ok. i miss qtk truckloads. qian's gone missing. MIA-ed.

and i've not seen those sec sch peeps like yen, lijia and co. for like months!!!!! probably even half a year??? not too sure.. time flies!!!!!

gonna meet my ee gong clan on sunday. and i've only seen some of them twice eversince attachment started. TWICE!! can't believe it man. we used to hang around everywhere when we were in school. anyways, we've still got 2 sems left to monkey around =))

ok anyways, i've found a good author to read from. Jane Green. i've read one of her books, and i'm halfway thru another of her books. and i'm gonna read the da vinci codes next! =)) i realised i have a lot of time to read actually. i read on the way to work, read on the way from work, read while i'm queuing at banks, read before i go to bed, read while i wait for people. the only problem is that, i tend to forget the page number coz i dont use a bookmark although i have a lot of those.

anyways, i'm gonna sleep soon. my muscle ache is getting worse. nites!!

love,
med

.ruffles off.

1.4.06

in my office right now. my supervisor's away and everyone else is busy doing their own stuffs. hehee. saturdays are usually very very slack around here anyways. hai i would still be sleeping if i didnt have to work on saturdays. its a waste of my time here man. i need sleep.

3 more weeks!!! and i've FINALLY gotten my pay!!! haha.

i'm gonna look for a good book to read, play on my piano, and just slack about at home today. its been a long time since i read a book. what's nice??? seriously... i think i should start reading. my english is like shit now.

yawns. 15 more mins to go before i knock off, go home and have my lunch. i'm hungry now.

oh yes. i wanna go shopping now that i've gotten my pay!!

gosh cant believe i'm turning 19 in a week's time!!! argggggh. getting old. oh no. and yessssss... lijia i'll get to meet up with you guys right?? yen?? jeremy?? samuel?? the usuals???

you know sometimes when i'm excited about something i usually end up disappointed, but if i dread it, it will turn out to be surpirsingly good.

i'm kinda excited about my birthday this year... so hhhhmmmmm??

.ruffles off.