.me being me.

29.3.06

oh my. i'm feeling so irritated right now. i just replaced my phone's SIM card coz i damaged my SIM card 2 days ago with the PUK thingy. and now that i've got my SIM card replaced, my screwed up phone is giving me problems. IT JUST WONT STOP HANGING. wttttttthhhh. goodness, i really just feel like getting another phone altogether. i saw this siemens slide phone that i really really really liked, i think i've got a fetish for slide phones. but too bad it hasn't got the memory card feature thing, or else i would seriously consider getting that phone. not that my current phone has the memory card thing, but i realised i was really dumb to get this N6111 that's giving me so much problems. Is it me or what??? but i never had worries with my old trusty samsung. so i dont think its me. but then again, i did dropped this phone a few times before. oops. BUT i've also dropped my old samsung for like a hundred times and its still working perfectly well except for some wear and tear problems.

so what?? should i get a new phone?? heheee. my dad will kill for sure. but i dont care. if i really can find another phone thats worth to change to, i'll get it.

hhhhmmmmm. 4 more weeks before attachment ends. heheeee... so excited. can't wait to get back to the classrooms!!!!! haha. like real. i'm not excited about the modules and projects that is gonna make me tear my hair out, but i'm excited coz i can't wait to go school, study, crap, play, talk, tussle, fight blah blah blah with my polymates. they're more than just polymates!! they're my playmates, studymates, slackermates whatever. and i so have to work hard. medeline WORK HARD pls. its all theory, and its supposed to be good news for me coz i suck at calculations.

hhhm. i know i'm not a patient person. i never was. dont ask me how i teach piano. its a totally different thing. i have different patience level for different people. believe it or not, those kids loves me. i can't stand people who dont face up to reality and i can't stand people who thrives on attention. its your life, so live it well. account to nobody but yourself. what matters are onlly things that matters to me, what matters to others doesnt affect me. i suppose only people i care about would find me nice and caring. or else, you would find me insulting, insensitive and selfish. it doesnt really matter as long as i know who i am, what i live for and what i want.

i miss tracy and kim already!!! i havent seen qian for ages. i miss my sec school peeps too. i really miss the chalets and bbqs we used to have. argggggghhh. those were the days before life changed. oh wells, that was before. now we still can meet up, but i dont know when.

.ruffles off.

27.3.06

32 more days left... heheee. can't waittttttttt.

2 more weeks to my birthday!! hahaaaa.

met up with tracy and kimmy last sunday for dinner. it was fun fun fun. i cant remember when was the last time we actually chatted and gossiped like we did that night =))

more meetups to come right?? now that we're all working near each other.

hhhhmmmmmmm.

my phone bill is kinda high at the moment.. so i'm trying to make less phonecalls, but i ended up sending more sms-es and the sms-es are increasing at a super scary rate. so if i dont reply to your sms-es its because i'm trying not to send so many because i've definitely exceeded the free ones i have, not by a few but by at least a hundred i think. so i think i better not send anymore unless necessary till the start of next mth.

hhmmm. so many thoughts. but its so difficult to pen them down in words.

.ruffles off.

22.3.06

oh no. i have to go back to my office tmr already.

hhmm... just 37 days more. its gonna end soon. soonnnnnnn.

anyways, i love animal planet and green tea soyabean is damn nice!!!!!!

its back to work tomorrow.... then piano after work.

i have to stop being lazy and meet qtk. sorry girls if i hadn't replied to your sms-es. sorrry. are u girls free this sat or sun evening?? dinner???

.ruffles off.

21.3.06

39 more days to go!!!

i can't explain how much i hate my attachment. i will never apply for an office job if i can help it. drives me crazy man. all the paperwork. GOSH. sickening. and they still owe me my pay.

anyways, i've gotten 2 days of mc from my family doc. i didnt ask for it okk!! he gave it to me before i even asked for a mc. my parents were even more enthu about the mc than i was. they know i'm super tired. i do want a break from work, get all the rest i need to get rid of my panda eye. i think if i have to hear my boss's voice for another day my blood pressure will rise even higher. i totally cannot stand him. puke.

i wanna go back to the classrooms!!!!! i'd rather do projects all my life than stay in that screwed up place. dont get me wrong. my colleuges are nice peeps. but i have a terrible boss.

sighs. going back to dover just now reminded me of all the old times. its MY neighbourhood. its where ALL my childhood memories are. i know every turn and corner in that place. its my home. i used to live in dover anyway. i miss those carefree days soooooo much. but no matter how i miss the life back then. i can never re-live those days. people from pri 6D and 2E are friends i'll keep for life.... not forgetting alot more fairsians i got to know during my time. hhhmmmm.... how fun were those days.... oh no... 2e peeps, i miss you all soo much!!!!! 6D has gotta be the most united primary 6 class ever!!!!!!! oooh oh. memories. those days we used to play catching, whacking the guys, games, UNO.... stupid and fun things.... celebrations.. guys and their soccer..... its just fairfield.

oops. feeling nolstagic going back to dover. that little neighbourhood is gonna change a few more years down the road coz NUS is gonna expand over to that area. sighs. heh. so i took in a few more glances while i was there, tried to remember as much of that area as i could because its not gonna look the same in the future. well well......... time and tide waits for no man. nothing ever stops moving forward. its hard to keep up with it. argh. and i'm only 19!!!! and yet i'm so sick of life already. can't imagine if i have to live till 60?? must be real wise by then......

anyways, i'm off to zzzz. nitessss.

.ruffles off.

15.3.06

attachment still sucks as usual. it has gotten worse actually. i am allergic to my company. it makes me sleepy, grouchy, lethargic and irritated. i drag my feet to the office everyday. SUCHA BORING PLACE!!! and i have a super UNREASONABLE boss. i shan't continue. i have a lot to complain about.

ok anyways, besides ATTACHMENT (i hate that word), i'm getting on fine in life. how boring. but hhhmmm.. life is different having someone else around. but i'm happy. i hope we'll stay happy =))

hhmm... taekwondo. i dont know how to explain. but i'm getting to like that sport more n more although i still suck a lot at it. but after this IVP its like..... hhmm... kinda motivated me to train harder. coz the more i watch the way i spar the more i wanna whack myself for giving her so many chances to score and yet stand there like an idiot letting her score. argh. but anyways, on a happier note, CONGRATS TO PEIJING FOR WINNING THAT FABULOUS LAST BOUT AND GETTING HER GOLD MEDAL!!!! =)) I WOULD NEVER FORGET THAT MOMENT OF GLORY YOU BROUGHT FOR US!!! =)))

my right toe has been numbed since yesterday. kinda irritating but i wonder why is it numb.

anyways, sighs, its back to work tomorrow. hateeeeeeeeeee it. 6 more weeks to go. argh. TORTURE. hate my boss.

right. so nites.

.ruffles off.

11.3.06

its been a hectic week. i dont know what to say about my attachment company. its like... sucks but yet i have to admit i did learn quite a lot. BUT not from the things they throw for me to do, but from what i've observed so far in the company. the people. the bosses. the employees. the business world. whole lot of fakery around - fake pple and fake smiles. its very hypocritical. i dont deny that i am a hypocrite sometimes. but only when i choose to be, to certain pple coz they deserve it.

anywayss.. was at the IT show at suntec on thurs n fri coz my company asked me to be there. cheaaaaaap labour. i wonder if i can claim some hours. but i dont know if i should because they initially wanted me to be there from thurs to sun. and i tell ya, the working hours are from 11am to 9pm. on thurs i was there from 9.15am till 9.30 pm. then fri was from 11am till 9.30pm. its damn long for me considering that i'm only an intern.

wells, i dont know. but just another 6 more weeks to go, i hope they dont give me a B lor. idiot.

ok anyways, had IVP today!!!! and i got whacked yet again BY THE SAME GIRL i fought with during friendly match!!!! i knew it was her man!! hais. she won 4 points and i didnt even manage to score a single point. although i thought i did when i watched the video they took. ONE point. but i supposed it wasnt loud enough and i probably kicked her arm lah. argh. and i thought i saw her pushing me which is foul lah! but no kiong go?? argh. nvm. the only thing i can find to comfort myself is that she won gold in the end. so hhmmm... can't deny she's damn good. but anyways, have to thank weiliang for coaching me for this ivp lah. although i got trashed and whacked on my arms till siao, i have to say i did learn something... some fighting skills. maybe next year... i'll try again?? will think twice about it. but for now... i'll have to hide my injuries from my parents for as long as possible till my blueblacks clear. argh damn pain.

hhmmm. its been a year. and i've grown a lot wiser since a year ago. sorry qian!!!! woke up late today... sorrrry dear... sorrrryy...

happy birthday fazli!!! hahaaaa =))

nites pple. damn sleepy.

love,
med

.ruffles off.

4.3.06

PASSION

its not something that can be described with words. its something that is felt. felt only by individuals. its a motivation that comes from within, from the heart, the soul, to spur you on to take action, to do something.

i live my life the way i want it to. sometimes hurting others in the process, sometimes getting hurt in the process myself. physically, mentally and emotionally. i'm sorry if i did hurt anyone with words or whatsoever.

hhhmm.. its a quiet sunday today. hhhmmm...

wo hen xiang ni. bu yao wen wo wei she mo. wo bu zhi dao dui bu dui. mei yi ci he ni zai yi qi dou hen kai xin. hen jiu dou mei you zhe yang de gan jue. hen xiang gen ni shuo zhen xin hua, ke shi wo hai pa ni hui li kai, ying wei wo bu zhi dao jie guo hui zheng yang. xin li hen luan. zhi dao is bu dui de, ke shi wo mei you ban fa, mei yi tian dou hui xiang dao ni. xie xie ni zai wo de sheng ming li chu xian. bu xiang ni zou kai. zhe me ban??? wo can le. bu zhi dao ying gai zhuo she me. bu yao xiang le. yue xiang yue luan. fa fong le.

.ruffles off.

3.3.06

oh. its been a busy day in the company. i've been watching them bustle around since morning.

hhmmm... i'm getting used to this environment and mundane attachment life.

the dates for IVP just gets closer and closer everyday. i have to admit i havent been training hard, so serve me right if i get whacked on saturday next week. i am so dead. sighs. i'm definitely going for training after attachment today. somebody slap me if i dont train hard okayy.. haha. just kidding. dont need to slap me, just keep reminding me that i'm only left with 4 trainings to pull up my socks, it'll be good enough. argh.

anyways, the 3rd week of attachment is gonna end in another day's time!!! 3 down, 8 more to go!!!!

i've been meeting ee gong clan every now and then except for lishi and huimin and zhihong!!! stupid. but anyways, we did have fun last saturday =))

i'm reserving wednesday 8th of march for qtmk. PLS PLS PLS. lets meet. keep that day free for dinner!!

i still wanna meet up with TEP peeps like jiamin and val!! rem our date on the 14th march week okk!!! its been a long time since we caught up. miss them lah. miss those horrible days in ELDC where we had lotsa tears and laughters, and not forgetting the big big drama. those were the most memorable days i had in TEP. ohhh, memories.

its also been ages long since i saw people like angeline, sean and jeremy!! i miss those days we had duets in MC. hahaaa. canon in D, marriage d'amour and forbidden love. i used to play them by memory, but sad to say i can't now coz i havent been practicing them. =(( the only time i get to play the piano is only when i'm teaching at mc. i dont exactly practice either. my coordination is detioriating and my fingers are getting stiff. i really needa spend more time with my piano. come to think of it, i dont think i can play any pieces by memory right now. oopsie.

OH GREAT!!! its 5.30pm!!!! HEHEEEEE.. i'm soo happy. okay!!

gosh, i miss my friends so much right now!! and i think i'm pretty much back to the usual me.

CIAO~

LOVE,
medeline.

.ruffles off.