.me being me.

31.12.05

time really really flies.

what can i say? 2005 has been a mountain of memories.

a lot of people came and went and left their footprints.

to my dearest huimin, shihi, lishi, jiajia, jieying and zhihong in poly:
its been a quick 2 years for us. i really thank God with all my heart that you guys came into my life. i love you all alot alot and i hope we'll be able to graduate together, and then continue to have meetups to catch up in our lives okk!! and to dearest huimin, thanks for being so patient with me, putting up with my pms and my temper. thank you darling... happy birthday to you too!! =))

to nyptkd people:
i never really expected myself to join tkd either. but i'm glad i did, else i wouldnt have been able to meet a bunch of crazy people like you all. =)) we'll train together and everything okk. good luck to those taking your black belts!! and to myself for my own grading. hahaa.

to my fmss friends:
oh gosh. 2 years just passed by like that. hahaaa. can't really belive it man. but you guys know where you stand in my heart... forever my dearest through all the years we've seen each other grow and all the silly stuffs we all had to go through in fairfield. i love you all.. may we have more years to come and more meetups!!!! LOVE YOU ALL ALOT!! =))

to qtmk:
hey angels, though its been a rough 2005 for us, i still love and miss you girls a lot. we've really drifted a lot actually. lets hope 2006 will be a better year for us. =))

to many other friends:
you guys know who you are... especially from mc- sean, angeline and florence... heh.. wad can i say... all i know is i love you all the max man... =))

from the bottom of my heart, i wish you all a happy new year =))
sighs. goodbye 2005. memories of everything and everyone stays.

.ruffles off.

30.12.05

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOTH JIEYING AND HUIMIN!!

tidied and clean my room today coz my dad's been nagging at me for a few months already. then went to meet my clique in town at about 8 plus.

met them outside cine then we went to take neoprints, went swensens to have their birthday cake, took pics, then took a merc cab home with shihui. hahaaa..

it was just a simple nightout. but being able to spend it together and have fun is enough i suppose.

knowing them was the greatest thing that happened to me in poly.
love ya hunnies.

met angeline and sean yesterday at swensens again. its been ages long since i last saw angeline and i'm glad both of them are doing fine and well... then went up to mc and sean was entertaining us with some songs =))

will meet aaron for dinner tomorrow to get my long waited daily bread from him!!!! i think i've been wanting to meet him to get the book since like oct?? nov?? gosh.

now.. when will i get to meet qian and the rest??? QIAN HUI!! WE MUST MEET SOON. I ALSO HAVE TONS TO TELL YOU.

what a day. i'm so tired.

.ruffles off.

27.12.05

the fun is overrr!! projects, ICAs, tests and everything are coming back. totally sianed to the max. sighs.

supposed to meet sean for our long waited lunch meetup but i er.. had to change it to dinner instead coz i have to go back sch to a discuss a proj. sighs. sorry seannnn.. =((

sighs, i need a new file. just tidied my lovely doggy file, but realised i have too many things inside and the bottom is becoming detached. i should get another file. hope i can find another doggy file as lovely as the one i have now. hahaaa.

sighs. its back to sch work again. all the pending work to do. 3 projs, 2 ICAs and a graded assignment on the list. tell me who would still enjoy the rest of their hols after seeing the list of things to do?

i nearly forgot how to log into cms. its taking such a long time to load as usual and its not because my com is slow. its the system, i'm very sure of it.

anyhows, i'm still waiting for cms to load, which i think i will not be able to access it by tonight.

i wish hols would stay longer.

.ruffles off.

25.12.05

This is a night full of surpirses. This is a christmas i wont forget. Because i met many of my dearest whom i've not seen for a long time.

And my brother wished me merry christmas. He sent me an sms. I was like shocked to the max. I really didnt expect him to send me a greeting. Its been like 2 year plus since i last saw him??? much less spoke to him. Time really flies. He called me sis. that sounds damn weird to me. i have a lot of people taking care and treating me like their younger sis, but this one. i just cant put my finger to whats so weird about it. i feel nothing, although i'm kinda intrigued. frankly speaking, he's a stranger to me. whether i like it or not, he is my brother and whether he likes it or not, i am his sister. its not like friendship where u can choose if you want to maintain the relationship or not. but i know my dad will be happy if we do.

its a weird night because i also met tracy and jiaen outside westmall at 3am, and met qing shun, kien tat and another friend by coincidence. so the bunch of us stood out the closed westmall at 3am in the morning. the night was cold and quiet. it was just so weird. and nutcase tracy said she'll walk home. we all went seperate ways soon after while jiaen walked me back to my block and he took a cab home across the street, and kien tat they all made sure tracy gets home in a cab.

and i met so many people yesterday. it'll take a while for me to list everybody down. and i'm too lazy to do that. but i did enjoy all their company..

friends... what would i do without them?? i'll probably feel damn lonely.

merry christmas people~ be blessed, be loved.

i'm off to meet florence now and i might just pop by to meet huimin for a while too. supposed to meet qian for dinner, but she's got a friend with her and i'm not really in the mood to meet new people and mingle around with them, so probably i'll meet her another day =)) and i really want to meet her soon. just the two of us.

.ruffles off.

24.12.05

oohh... so finally today its christmas eve already!!! how fast time flies. sighs. i still can remember the events that happened last year during this season.

and happy birthday florence!!! may you have a very very happy dinner with ahemmmmm. hahaa.. and of course stay sweet and YOUNG!!!! hahaaa..

these two day's weather has been ultra rainy and cool. kinda lifted my spirits alot.

spent my day reading an old vampire book i had yesterday. i remember it was a gift from my tution teachers many years back. lol... then met florence in the evening today to go town.

oh yeahh.. tai ma a.k.a ah bu a.k.a huimin is back from thailand!! yay!! lets meet next week can?? we go walk walk.. heheee.

its nearly 2am and i'm not tired yet. i've been sleeping at very odd hours recently since my hols started. still chatting w jiajia and huimin on msn. jieying MIA. heheee. my ee gong clan. LOL.

sighss. another day of my hols has passed. one more week left. hhmm... actually i nearly forgot its christmas. i can't really feel the festive mood. wheres the peace and joy that christmas is supposed to bring?? its not supposed to be just another season... but a season where people share their love with one another. its supposed to be a season of joy and celebration. so while you guys have fun during christmas dont forget to share a little love to make this place a warmer place... heheee.

love ya my friends... take care~ be loved and have a blessed christmas!

.ruffles off.

22.12.05

its been ages since i blogged. blogs are sucha superfical thingy. you cant say the things you really wanna say and you can't blog about your displeasure over anything in case someone finds it insulting and decides to sue or whatever. although maybe a few years back there were still some privacy, but now its like, so exposed and everything. some people blog to get attention, some people blog to gain symphathy, some people blog to show how great they are through the things that they proclaim they did, some people blog because they're bored, some people blog because everybody else is blogging. so why do i blog? simply because its become a habit.

life is like so boring. having to expect the same things over and over again. school is sucha bore. marketing is delusional. marketeers are LIARS. tkd sucks because there are a whole lot of shitte thingy happening and i sprained my ankle yet again and I HATE SPARRING. but what is the point of joining tkd if i dont spar?? and my pattern for the grading sucks and i've yet to manage a back hook for grading simply because I CANT BE BOTHERED TO LEARN. everything is sucha chore. tkd is BECOMING a chore. it drains the joy outta the art. and i just wish those people i dont feel like seeing would just vanish. ohh myyy. what the hell is my problem?? but so what if i have a problem. i can't be bothered. i so need to shop for pressies, but my funds are low and i have absoutely zero mood to see so many people walking on the streets of orchard road. ohh gosh. it makes me dizzy to see so many people. i just wanna sleep. BUT i want to go shopping!! if only everyone can just stay home for a day so i can have then entire orchard road to myself with shihui, jiajia, jieying, huimin and lishi for company only. i'd then have the mood to shop =)) oh yeah right. i should just stop dreaming.

but anyways, i did met shihui, jiajia and jieying on monday. and we had fun. they bought alot of things whereas i was in my no-mood for things mood plus i was feeling unwell, ended up i only bought a lipgloss the entire day. we took stupid neoprints at cine and made friends with the girl working over there and saw this taiwanese star whose name i cant be bothered to remember, patronized the neoprint shop and jiajia was like fawning over him. ok lah, he was kinda cute.

sent pappy for vaccination on tuesday and she made a whole lot of noise in the car lah. irritating. the vet was damn young, super cheerful and very very patient, very nice. but pappy was trying her best to run away from her, scratching me in the process throughout the entire consultation because she simply hates going for jabs.

and i just stayed home today. rotted and played games with janson in ther afternoon. lol. i was stucked at diner dash after he went off. then my aunt came and i brought her to the music shop to look at some violin for my nephew and she brought along this neighbour of hers selling some supplymentary items. then claudia came to pick up some stuffs from me. chatted with her for a while before she went off.

3 days just passed by like that. i shudder to think how many days we have till 2006 comes. i'm so not ready for a new year. yet.

.ruffles off.

15.12.05

ok, i love my blog song. its a piano version of Tears by x-japan by the way.

finally we're done with projects and reports and icas although we're still left with a few more, but that'll be after the 2 weeks break. i feel so free man. finally our long waited break is coming!!

i know i have been rather moody for the past few days, its not because of sch work and its not because of the tiff i had with a somebody. its mainly because of some stuffs that i've been trying to work out for a long time, which i kinda neglected it, and sometimes its just beyond my control to do certain things, and sometimes i just dont understand and i just keep wishing and wishing for the impossible. and if you're thinking its bgr problem, you're wrong! i have no wish to get a bf right now because there are just so many things in my life right now that i need to set it straight first. and i just wish i've got more time to really spend with qtk. girls, i really you 3 so much. its just not the same anymore.

anyways, i'm done with blabbering. christmas is just round the corner, and i've not yet done my christmas shopping. supposed to go town with florence yesterday, but i sprained my ankle during tues training, so i dun wanna walk around the entire orchard with her coz i know my feet will probably break before i get home.

anyways, westmall invited music concerto to perform last fri, sat and sun, and so i got a few of my students to perform on sun, and it was really good although i was like damn stress for the entire thing because i had classes before the performance and i was damn gan chiong for my students also, and everything was just squashed together. but everything turned out well in the end. and then i met a friend to talk about some serious stuffs and i went to look for qian in the evening and helped her with her project till like 9 plus??

qian hui, pls thank me, i'm such a nice friend okk. hahaa. kidding. love you still~

today was the best day i had this entire week now that i'm less moody and grouchy. i really dont know what am i gonna do without my clique in school. they are the craziest, kiddest, noisest, smartest and lovliest people i've met in poly.

2 weeks is all i've got to do the things i really wanna do, meet the people i wanna meet, and sleep all i want because my dark eye rings are so obvious now.

at least i've gotten my sanity back now. but i still wish to have a nice and quiet getaway for as long as i want.

.ruffles off.

14.12.05

hhmm.... i'm looking forward to next week coz it'll be the start of my 2 weeks hols then!!

life is like so...... i dunno. a mixture of everything. as in really everything. sometimes i feel like my brain is gonna explode anytime with so many thousand and one things to remember and do. and i really dont feel like doing anything at all. i wanna do NOTHING. i dont wanna need to talk to people, i dont wanna need to go to school, i dont wanna need to write this write that, i dont wanna need to listen to anybody, i dont need to care two hoots about anybody or anything.

i know i sound angry, but i'm not. i'm just showing how much i dont wanna do anything tts all.

i know i've also neglected many many people. especially people close to my heart, people i depend on to keep me sane and happy.

i love it when i can just sit somewhere and just watch people pass me by.

there are people who will either love you or hate you. i've got my fair share of these two. but all that matters to me are the ones who loves me. and i love them too, although i may not show it. but i do.

.ruffles off.

9.12.05

oohh. i'm so addicted to the song bad day by daniel powter.

i've been damn busy this entire week with projects, piano and tkd. i'm reallyyy drained to the max. damnnnn tireddd. i still have so many things to do and i really dont wanna think about it. i'm so sick of school. give us a break pls.

anyways, its dear tracy's birthday today!! happy birthday darling~ stay sweet, young, lovely and happy always okk~ love ya. =))

i want a getaway!! away from everything in singapore!! take a break, enjoy myself and RELAX!! i want to be away from people, i dont want to see anybody, meet anybody, i want to be ALONE. just myself. gather myself, pick up the pieces before i move on.

i'm really just too exhausted to type anymore.

ciaos.

.ruffles off.

4.12.05

so boreddd. i wished the weekends wouldnt pass so quickly. so tireddd. really feel like zzz-ing till tomorrow morning, but i've yet to complete my retail project questions, and i wanna watch my date with a vampire later at 11pm. hahaaaaa. i really dont wanna start another new week tomorrowww!! but time wont stop. sigggh.

went tkd on friday and missed lishi's bday celebration. felt kinda sad when i hugged her and told her to enjoy herself with the rest of the peeps. it was really a tough choice to make. but since i havent been attending tkd for a damn long time, i decided to go in order to shut some pple up. sir peter made us do some intensive kicking nonstop for like say abt 20 mins in total?? and now my thighs are aching and twitching occasionally. PAIN.

i really need to get my lazy ass off this blogspot and work on my retail now because some gan chiong spider wants to compile it by this weekend.

sometimes i really dont understand why people do the things that they do. is it all for pride's sake or is it because they're just plain stubborn. pls. if you jolly well know that you're in a deep rut and havent been able to get out of it for as long as you can remember, pls! for goodness gracious sake, make WISER choices to make ur life better for the sake of your own good. stop acting like you can handle when you obviously CAN'T. dont you EVER learn from past mistakes?? changing anything about you wont change the past. its still there. unless you're willing to admit your faults, you're gonna stay in that rut forever.

oh gosh. why do i even care?? its just a waste of my time. better mind my own business. i've had ENOUGH of YOU.

oh yes, i've got my mp3 fixed already. chris got it replaced for me. THANK YOUUUU!!! its blue in colour now.. but at least i've got songs to accompany me on the way to school again!! but anyways, thank you soo muchh!! all the best when you go back to myanmar. 10 days are gonna pass very quickly one okk!! just look forward to christmas, it'll be over before you know it!!

.ruffles off.