.me being me.

29.6.05

i'm bored.

i did nothing since the day started. all i did was to go for breaks, play online games and freeze in this centre.

went for training last night. Sir peter took training. thank God it wasnt tough or else i would be aching worse than now because i havent been exercising for a long long time. haha. learnt my pattern for the upcoming grading and sir arvind taught me backthurst!! i'm kinda worried about the basic kicks part of the grading. i can't do a backthrust properly without feeling unbalanced and i always end up on the wrong way. and i can't do a proper side kick with my left leg. feels weird lehs??? hais. i kinda wished there was training everyday coz i wont practice on my own when i'm at home coz it feels damn weird lah. and one funny thing is that i sprained my toe yesterday. haha. few more weeks to grading. hope i'll have enough determination to go for trainings and learn my pattern and kicks well.

desmond just brought currypuffs back for us from the seminar! haha.. and he koped a lot of paper cups also. lolx.

i'm tired. i have no idea why. maybe boredness stiffled me.

anyways, its 5.06pm. another 54 mins to end this boring day.

.ruffles off.

28.6.05

in my centre playing songs right now. we've simply got NOTHING to do. been slacking the entire day, chatting and crapping with my teammates and going for breaks. lolx.

its tuesday already. time flies. met up with sean and angeline last sunday. went orchard to walk walk. i did a second piercing on my left earlobe!! i've been wanting to pierce it for a long time already but i didnt have the guts to do it. haha. then after much 'go lah, go pierce lah, not pain one.." from the two of them and angeline agreeing to have a third piercing, then i finally mustered enough courage to do it. hahaa. it didnt hurt as much as i thought it would. actually it didnt really hurt at all, just for a short while only. angeline did it first and her gun got stucked. but thank God they managed to get it out. angeline said it didnt hurt but was kinda freaked out lah. but it was okay after a while. then it was my turn already. i think injections hurt more. lolx. and i think i'm pretty contented with my piercings already. i might do a second piercing on my right ear. might only. lolx. i dont think girls should do too many piercings lahs. lolx. plus i dont look good with too many piercings.

then went for tkd's bbq after that. was okay, but it wasn't as fun as i expected it to be. then went back with the usual people. its funny how dennis, zhenliang and me always have a lot to laugh about whenever we're in the train. most of the time over my blurness. i think i'm used to having embrassing moments happening to me already. but its nice to have a good laugh over stupid things when they're still bearable. haha.

anyways, my fingers are feeling too cold to type properly. cyasss.

p.s: qian hui, tracy and kim................................. I MISS YOU GIRLS TONSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.ruffles off.

27.6.05

i suppose school's started for everyone. including the primary and secondary schools. i miss those days back in secondary school. the early morning assembly.... chapels....classes. i miss chapel.

anyways, its back to a week of mundanity. have i mentioned that i actually invited ms lim to give a talk in my school? yeah.. ms elaine lim. haha. i thought her motivational talks were good and i thought of her when we were coming up with events to organize. so i emailed her and she agreed to it. i've done the proposal and flyers already. just some major details to confrim before we start advertising. i hope people will actually turn up for it.. if not it'll be so maluating.

hm.. i just sent a wrong sms AGAIN. is it me or is it my phone?!?! and my dad just spoiled my plans for the day. he's always like that. he expects me to be avaliable whenever he calls or asks me out. if i say i'm not free, he'll start saying that i'll rather be out with my friends. irritating. he alway tell me last minute stuffs and expects me to agree. whatever. but anyways, we came to a conclusion peacefully...... he doesnt want me to meet him with a black face either. so... i'll be meeting shihui later. humph.

hais. today has been quite busy. managed to complete the proposal and some other stuffs.

actually i'm feeling pretty irritated at the moment. hais. i feel abit suffocated by my parents expectations at times. sighs. whatever. theres nothing i can do, except to ren. right? lolx. hais.

.ruffles off.

24.6.05

BPOS is fun and boring at the same time. hm...

happy birthday blenheim.

.ruffles off.

22.6.05

time in BPOS crawls.

my com at home sucks. its working and not working. i unplucked the modem hoping that i could somehow connect it to angeline's laptop so i can access the internet at home. but it didnt work. then i tried to fixed everything back to the desktop. then i switched on my com, hoping that it'll work. and it amazingly did. i was so happy lors. but i must have connected some cables wrongly coz my stupid modem cant be detected!!!!! sighs. help.

hais. dont wanna talk about my com already. its so exasperating. hmmm... actually i just came back from the piano esemble club's audition. I think i would have backed out if ying ying wasnt there with me. I was so nervous coz i totally didnt prepare for this audition thingy. I havent even touched my piano for 2 weeks. everybody looked so prepared and ready. i just went in there with my phone and wallet coz i left my bag in the centre. i requested to be the first to play coz firstly, i didnt want to watch the rest and get demoralized. secondly, i sneaked out to go for this audtion, so i didnt have much time to wait. but anyways, its over and done with. played canon and forbidden love. made tons of mistakes with canon, but i hope its not major enough to spoil the song. oops. so paiseh. hais. i went for this thingy coz i wanna be able to use the piano room whenever i feel like it - that is, if the rooms are avaliable for booking. but if i dont get in, its alright. even if i do get in, i'll probably need to worry about performing for them coz they stated that they'll choose 15 people to perform for their upcoming lunchtime concert. so either way, both can be good news i suppose?? haha.

anyways, so bored. me and my teammates are getting to know each other better already. had an illegal gathering outside my centre at one of the staircases in the morning. haha. quite crappy lah. i'm so bored, i think i could fall asleep anytime. bye. =)

.ruffles off.

20.6.05

okies, this is my first day in BPOS. i have so much to say. so much has happened last week.

MY COM CRASHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha. hais. expected lahs. but sweet sweet angeline is lending me her laptop till i fix my com. hehe.. thanks gal. i really wouldnt know what to do without you. you're always there for me no matter what. thanks for everything... not just the lending me the lappy.. but everything!!! you know it!!! lolx. thanks gal. =)

had a splendid week last week. i think it was seriously the happiest week i ever had since TEP started. sorta had a mini farewell party last friday in ELDC/KM. feel abit sad lahs actually even though i've been complaining so much. hahaa. but i did have a lot of memories over there. good and bad ones. esp with jiamin, christine, val and joana. every stupid thing that we did. haha. but at least i've got memories to keep that makes me smile. hahaaa.

then went out with jiamin and co. and yongquan on saturday. went to sing kbox at cine, then we went to have dinner and went esplanade to chill after that. chatted about stuffs. lolx.

wanted to stay home yesterday to finish up my reports, but alas!!! my stupid com crashed. idiot. lolx. then i ended up spending the entire day at coffee bean with angeline. thanks sweetie!! haha. i seriously can't thank you enough. lolx. we chatted alot too. lolx.

anyways, i'm having fun in this stopover. my teammates are great people to communicate with. lolx. they're pretty fun to be with. so tata~ =)

.ruffles off.

16.6.05

today is thursday already. woohoo.. time flies mans. everything happens so quickly that the days seem to be passing like the minutes. i still thought it was monday yesterday. so tired. had the freshies orientation on tuesday for tkd on tues !!! hahaaa. it was kinda fun. learnt unarmed combat. but i bet i'll probably forget them soon. but it was fun anyways. lolx.

this stopover is FINALLY coming to an end!!! yay!! just 2 more days. finally completed the damn comfort proj this morning. we were rushing like mad in the morning coz my supervisor's meeting the CEO!!!! aaaahh. we didn't know. and he also kept stressing us like mad lah. how die-able. but we finally completed it at 10:12am. haha. but the contents were kinda messy. hais. i think we're gonna get it from my supervisor when he comes back. uh-oh. but anyways, the biggest burden has been lifted off our shoulders and i feel lighter!! hahaa. but our team has yet to complete this stopover's ICA proj. not to mention we still have 2 more reports to write on our own. i'll probably edit my e-resume by today so i'll have one thing less to do. sighs. but luckily our supervisor gave us a week more to work on everything. i've been sitting on my chair for too long. it feels damn hot. sighs.

just came back from lunch break. think we're gonna start on the ICA when everyone comes back. oh yeah.. it was val's birthday yesterday.. happy birthday gal!!! haha. we bought her this 12 second toy recording player thingy and recorded our bithday wish. haha. but the toy distorted our voices. anyways, sadded she wont be moving on to the same stopover as us.

theres phlegm stucked in my chest. haha disgusting. but i never seem to be able to clear it. hais. anyways, i miss my stuff toy. lolx. the doggie i bought the other day. i've been carrying it around the house with it. pappy's getting jealous. haha. because i dont hug pappy to sleep anymore.. i hug my doggie. haha. i hate it when i see pappy feeling dejected whenever she comes to me to bao bao because i'm too tired and busy to cuddle and fuss over her like i used to. she looks so... poor thing. and i dont take her out for walks anymore. oops. all she does is sleep and feel happy and wag her tail at us whenever we come home. heheee.. she's such a sweetie. i love her tons tons tons!! she's already 7 years old. i'm dreading..................*CHOY!!!!!* but i'm really scared. lolx.

okies. i have work to do. can't wait for next week!!!! =)

.ruffles off.

13.6.05

woohoo~ today is turning out to be good although i was feeling kinda grumpy in the morning. had my briefing for the next stop over. all of us got into human link but got seperated into different departments tho. but its okay, i've got yingying and christine for company!! lolx. i guess it wouldnt be as stressful as work here in ELDC. we're administrators for BPOS, so i guess its just the coming early part to take attendence and stuffs that i might have a prob with. haha. besides that, we would be organizing workshops or inviting speakers to our school or something like tt lah. the workload is definitely less mundane than doing flash here in ELDC. i know its not like its gonna be a perfect or what, but i suppose a change is good. but anyways, i'm glad this stopover is gonna end soon. just one more week before i say goodbye to comfort. HAHA. can't wait. but before i get too excited, i need to complete my projects for this stopover first!!!!!!! nevermind. i'll get through it. lolx. i'm happy today partly because i'm back in school!!!! yay!!!! my group members are back too. except for evonne. she sprained her ankle so she's not in school today. and and and..... our work is on track, i'm certain we would be able to complete by wednesday!! yay!! lolx. seems like everything's looking good~ lolx. and i miss qtk!!!!!!!! had a good chat with kim the other night. i'm glad kimmy liked the pressie we bought for her. she was so touched. haha. =) i'm feeling happpy today. haha. oh yeah... btw, i bought a doggie from the MSC outlet during break. its just too cute for me not to own it. haha. and jiajia, shi hui and lishi are back from their block leave!!!! haha. okay lah. i'm too happy already. so many good news, how can i not be happy? lolx. HAHAHA. and my teacher is kinda funny. lolx. he's quite nice when he's not in a grumpy mood. i'm having a great day. gonna meet my parents later at cityhall to celebrate father's day. hehe. tata~ hope everyone had a great day too. =)

.ruffles off.

11.6.05

hm...... went back to school today to do proj. i've never seen the campus this deserted before. yi ge ren ying dou mei you. i didn't even see the security guard when i went to school. stayed till 6pm. i feel like i'm immuned to anger already. lolx. i feel so angry till i have nothing to say. hais. next week. everything should be over after next week. should be lah.

then went amk to play pool with jieying and her cousin after that. took the wrong train which i realised when i reached khatib. so i sent a sms to her. but i sent to the wrong person i realised only when she didnt reply. oops. i've been sending a lot of wrong smses recently. or issit my phone is going cranky too?? i've been dropping my phone a lot recently too. everywhere, in the train, at home, in school. sighs. jieying was laughing at me and called me sotong. so evil. why is sotong always associated with blurness?? huh huh?? i have no idea why i'm so blur. its just in the genes. but i'm just too tired today. my mood is sapped by my grouchiness. lolx. last night i was so pissed with my com and everything till i woke up and cry. a little lah. all thanks to my dog. she woke me up and i just felt like slapping her. but i took one look at her and my anger melted away under her stare. cant stand her at times. i had a hard time falling asleep then she had to wake me up. but i fell asleep soon after anyway. then i had some muscle cramp on my back. all my muscles felt so tensed. it was damn painful and i couldnt move my fingers or open my eyes. then everything blurred after that and i woke up in the morning. i was wondering if its a dream or was it real until i told andrew about it. he said it happens to him when he feels damn stressed or damn tired lah. so i guess this is normal. but its kinda scary. its the first time i can't differentiate my dreams and reality. yeah. i dream everynight. it felt like a nightmare last night. but anyways, its over. but its a really awful feeling. i'm sleepy. i still have to feed pappy before i go to bed.

.ruffles off.

10.6.05

hell. i'm tired. i'm seriously damn pissed with the damned project. i'm pissed with the management and the freaking school. screw TEP.

hais. actually everything was okay till i received a call from jiamin. she said the client wants us to complete the damn proj by this week. interfaced and details all edited by this week. wth does he want man. he freaking knows that its impossible to do that by this week. he and his freaking demands. he and his freaking changes. he's taking my supervisor's kindness for granted. damn it. slavery. ok, i know its natural for a new management in a company to make changes, but he has to freaking give us time what!!!!!!!!!!! the ENTIRE team is supposed to go back to school tomorrow to complete it. but alas, 3 cant make it. so that leaves me and jiamin again. i seriously have a urge to not go tomorrow either. but i wont leave jiamin to face the shit alone again. so i'll go. if we dont try to complete it tomorrow, we might have to go back to the damn office again. i'm so gonna cry. it feels like we're serving a jailterm while we were there. slavery. shits. i cant stop whining. i am annoyed.

hais. had club crawl today. it was good actually. at least i had some fun. met jiajia, shi hui, li shi and zhi hong for lunch. they came back to school from their block leave because they have a presentation to do. and talk abt presentation, our group havent done ours. thank God our supervisor promised that he would delay our presentation for us. hais.

and my com sucks. its already half dead. i'm lucky to be able to write this chuck before it reboots itself and not save anything. hais.

.ruffles off.

9.6.05

i am annoyed. i am tired.

annoyed with my computer. i just blogged a huge paragraph and my stupid com auto restarted itself. its gonna die soon. it said " primary hardware failed" last night. and its making a lot of noise. sounds like something is falling apart inside??? hais. i'm dead. i bought 2 boxes of diskette to save some precious stuffs tho. but my mp3s and pics will be gone once my com crashes because the files are too huge to save in diskettes. hais.

me and jiamin are stationed at comfort HQ this entire week. the office has no interenet connection. so all that we can do there is flash. and theres like never ending work to be done. theres new management, and the new management wants a new interfaced with our proj. i am annoyed that the interface that we've been working on for the past 2 months are useless. and they want us to get the new interface done before we move over to the next stop over. are they mad??? we spent 2 mths working on the old interface. and the stupid manual keeps changing. so we keep editing all the time. the stupid place is so ulu that i have to wake up at 5:30am everyday. sighs. i am damn tired. club crawl saved me from going back to that office tomorrow. sorry jiamin. poor girl, she'll be alone. theres still ICA to be done and my personal report. hm.............. i foresee a very busy week next week. but thank God we'll be back to school!!! =) nites.

.ruffles off.

6.6.05

11:15am:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIMMY DARLING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! may we have lots and lots of meet ups every year till we're old grannies!! stay happy, stay loved, be blessed and i wish you the best in life!!! God bless ya~ =)

can't wait to meet qtk later!!!!!!!!! heheeeee... so excited. lolx. me and qian wanted to give kim a special birthday wish at 12am last night, but it kinda flopped because kim's connection CMI. actually we planned a birthday script for her, but she got dc-ed while we were halfway through our script. then we had to wait for her to get connected again and start from where we left off, and she kept getting dc-ed again and never came back. it was so aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrggggggggggg, but it was kinda funny lah. hahaa. so i sent her an sms which she replied at 2am and woke me up!!! hahaaa.. but its okay lah. i still love ya kimmy. may qtmk stay connected always =)

anyways, in my centre now. am so bored. super bored. sighs. jiajia, lishi, shi hui are on block leave this week. huimin's in tradewinds. i wonder how is she over there. huimin, if you're reading this.... we miss u lah. seriously. so dont say we nv miss u okay!!! haha. anyways its just me, jieying and zhihong left in school. sighs, jieying's feeling depressed so she's not in school again. hais. i've got some burning questions that i've been trying to understand and find answers to, but arg, it just drives me crazy.

anyways, its gonna be 12 soon!! yay~ finally. its irritatingly cold in here. makes me extra extra sleepy. haha. me and jiamin promised each other we will have to start working on the proj after lunch break. and we WILL. we MUST. hais. but for now........ we're gonna go for our lunch break first!! haha =)

.ruffles off.

4.6.05

i'm feeling grumpy. because i read jeremy's blog, yenping's blog or any fairsian's blog in NP, i get so jealous alrights!!!! =(

NP is infested with fairsians, familiar faces. people that i miss tons.

the only familiar faces that i see in NYP is jed ho and chua junxiong's face. they are the ONLY fairsians besides myself. that's like damn pathetic. i feel so happy whenever i see them around you know. sighs, the place, the building, the people............ it feels super alien.

the feeling i get studying in NYP is like studying overseas. away from home. the feeling lah. i'm like an idiot in ang mo kio, yishun, bishan, katib....blah blah blah. wth. i only know clementi, dover road, jurong blah blah.. THAT is where i grew up in. suddenly its all changed. i dont even go there anymore. sighs. suddenly i dont see the same old familiar faces that i see for 10 years in fairfield anymore. this is something i wasnt prepared for. which is why i'm still grumbling so much after 1 1/2 years in NYP because i can't seem to get used to it lah. so let me grumble for now then i'll be returning to face those unfamiliar walls on monday already.

so come visit me in NYP lah. hahahaaaa.. think i siao right. try getting stucked in some ulu place first then you'll know.

haha.. just a reply to hh's tag: maybe because i'm good at complaining. either that or i miss lit or eng classes too much. too long nv write compo already lah........ haha...

.ruffles off.

3.6.05

hahaa... so much has been happening. this week has been great i can say while yesterday was the best day of the week so far. =)

went back to school around 3 plus yesterday to discuss our group's ICA proj. time flies man. it was almost 6pm before we knew it. then shi hui called and asked me if i wanna join them because they are going chomp chomp for dinner. i thought it was just jiajia, lishi, shihui and jieying. then i found out it was with ARDC's peeps. whoa, they're really nice and fun people!! cracking jokes all the way......... playing family and stuffs. somehow i became part of their family and got myself a husband??? and shihi became my ah ma. haha. they're mad!! they're fun!! and i'm happy. lolx. it was benny's birthday and they bought him a cake from 7-eleven nearby and we sang a bday song for him. haha. and that wasn't the end. after dinner, they wanted to hangout at some playground to talk rubbish, but we took the wrong bus and ended up at some void deck. then jasper, a 3rd yr DBI guy who's having his attachment in TEP, bought beer and we all ended up playing games, and as usual, loser drinks lah. my goodness. we had a lot of fun!!!

somehow, i'm all geared up to move on to the next stopover because i'm all excited to meet new people again. hm... i think i've gone nutty. but come to think of it, i'm always making new friends, just that i didnt realise. when i'm with huimin, i made friends with her SU people. when i'm with jiajia, lishi and shihui, i made friends with their centre people... and on both occasions, i had good laughs, had a great time hanging out with them, and the best thing was that i feel absoultely comfortable being around with them. whatever it is, i'm happy and it probably is one of the rare brighter side of life that i'm seeing. =)

life has just gotten better because i've been posted to human link together with joana, christine and jiamin!!!!!! yay!!!!!!. val got into MRC. =( i think she's gonna appeal tho. she didnt choose MRC in any of her choices anyways. hope her appeal will get through!!!! if she did appeal lah. i think she will. haha... it'll be great!! i'm looking forward to getting over to the next stopover now!! haha... i'm just soooooooooooooo excited........... lolx.

just 2 more days before i get back to ELDC and 2 more weeks before we start working in BPOS-human link. =) i'm glad we'll finally be able to have a change of....... view, scenery.. whatever you call your working place. but i'll miss the computers there tho. hahaaa. =P

.ruffles off.

1.6.05

its only wednesday. time crawls when theres no work. but i've got a few things done tho. haha. tidied my room, got my personal selling done with kailing's help - thanks gurl.. and finally got started on my personal report, although its progressing at snail's rate lah. me and jiamin are gonna go back to school tomorrow to discuss our ICA. sighs. i have a feeling that next 2 week is gonna be pretty hectic. hm..... or maybe it wouldnt. haha. no idea, but i'm not looking forward to moving onto the next stopover actually. sadded. i'll definitely miss my groupmates. hope we can move on to the same stopover, then at least we still can stay together. hahaaa. fat hope. =(

anyways, i've always loved reading those letters and postcards that qtk has written during our sec school days. i still have those written during our pri school days okays!! haha. but those that were written during our pri school days were seriously really lame and erm.... they dont really make sense. those kiddo talks. my gosh. very faint-able. those sec school days ones were more readable, and they obviously make more sense. but still very kiddo actually, but it really perked my day up. i had a few good laughs too.

tracy wrote in one of the letters: "....... wah laos, that zhong han just farted, damn idiotic leh he!!"

my gosh. i still can remember. hahaaaaa. our farting king. lolx. i miss those days...

another one.. kim wrote in another one of the letters: "............ i hate that yao liang!!! keep kbkb me..........."

haha. yah. we had a few people who we were constantly at loggerheads with. but we've all grown up already okays!! now we're all at peace with each other. those were harmless bickerings that warms me heart thinking back actually. haha. oops. abit er xin. but true. hehes.

anyways, just another one about zhong han that kim wrote... "........that zhong han go toilet go so long, wonder what he doing inside. that yao liang so poor thing, have to go toilet find him....."

HAHA. and there were a lot more others that were hilarious. i think qtk should come over to my house one day and we can re-read those stuffs. my gosh. trust me, you girls would definitely have had a good tummy exercise after that. and of course.. there were a lot of nice and sweet letters too. =)

lolx. is there anyway to relief those letters exchanging days not??? i havent written one in like dunno how many thousand years already. its good memories to keep. anyways, i really miss qtk so much so much!!!!!!! its beyond description. qian, tracy and kim!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ni men zai na li?? i wanna give you hugs!!! talk to me soon. haha. so sad man, i dont wanna just talk to you girls online.. I.WANT.TO.MEET. haha. good that kimmy's bday is coming soon. we must have fun okays!! love, med. =)

.ruffles off.