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30.4.05
happy 18th bithday kailing!! its the 1st of may right now as i blog =) i hope you had fun today~
so i went out with the tkd peeps today to celebrate kl's birthday.
kl, chris, claudia and weiliang came westmall, then we had lunch at BK. kym ng and quan yi feng were there shooting some variety show. they were looking for bachelors. hahaaaa, qian yi feng disturbed weiliang and chris. esp weilaing, then she decided that weiliang looked too young and innocent. hahaaaaa. it was ultra hilarious. then i brought pappy down to meet them for a while. lolx.
met eddy there and then we went ice skating at the JE complex ring. haha, i fell twice or thrice. arrrg. my jeans were totally wet. chris fell thrice too, weiliang fell once. lolx. they all were pretty pro at skating except for me and claudia. well, i got the hang of it in the end with kl's help. hahaaa, but i still need somebody near me, so they can catch me when i fall. haha. i feel more secure that way. well, it was fun. if i'm not wrong, the last time i went ice-skating was when i was still in sec 2 with GB. haha. that was like ages ago. oh btw, there were quite a lot of good looking guys around. and there was this little girl, no more than 5, attracting lotsa attention because she is ultra cute. really very cute. sweetie pie =)
then we went back to westmall, got the cake we pre-ordered for kl in the form of the number '18'. sat in coffee bean, we sang her a birthday song, cut the cakes, then faizal came to meet us. claudia had to leave early because she had to go work.
then we went to the arcade. haha, that's when we all became high. lolx. played photo hunt first then daytona. arrrgg. if i didnt crash near the end, i wouldn't have been the last!! lolx.
then we played pool. hahaaa, it was me and kl against chris. but he still won. -.- but he was good la. so no complains, because i know i suck at pool. hehe.
then we played the space thingy, where its 2 against 2 shooting the discs with some handle thingy into the other team's net or something. waaaah, me and kailing were screaming away. lolx. we had alot alot of fun with that game. played that about 3 or 4 times. lolx. got us so excited. lolx. we were laughing like mad. but it was really fun.
then we went mc. played abit of piano. i get frustrated easily when i play the piano at night. haha. i dunno why. then we went shop and save. bought drinks and tibits and i brought them to the highest level at my home's multi-storey carpark. sat there, chatted. lolx. very serene and calm. my life has been pretty hectic, so it was nice for a change. left the place at about 10:30pm because all of them besides faizal were either staying in the north area or east area or somewhere in between the north and the east area of singapore. and i live in the block right beside the place we were chilling out. haha.
i feel so tired. i can't seem to catch up with whatever sleep i lost recently no matter how much i sleep. haha. anyways, its been a really fun day. =) tata. i hope to meet up the qtk soon next. i really miss them lots.
memories are timeless.
.ruffles off.
28.4.05
11:37am:
woo, theres so much that's going on right now. work is like never ending.
we're also selling 2nd hand txbks to year ones these few days. this morning this group of 6 guys who were buying stats textbooks called my friend and said they needed 6 stats books. they insisted that the price of the stats books be $19 when we were trying to sell it for $20. how idiotic. the market price is around $20 to $25. my friend kept saying no but they kept insisting. so i took the phone and talked to them. the thing that irritated me was that they were not only rude but also ultra insistent that we sell to them at $19 when we keep saying no. and they kept giving some crap like what they're in year one so they have a lot of books to buy, so i told them i also went through year before. whatever. and other crap like they need the $1, then i told them i need the $1 too. then they asked me if i wanna sell the books anot, so i said i'll sell to them if they want it at $20 otherwise i would sell the books to somebody else, then after a while they said they'll buy it at $20 then. arrrgg. i did raise my voice a little over the phone with them la, then my friends say i very fierce. lolx. qian hui also always say i very fierce. hahaa... really very fierce arh? lolx. i know i can be fierce when i'm irritated la. lolx.
anyways, i really feel so tired. theres some politics going on at kl's workplace. ok, i really have no comments, but i just have a problem with the person who tagged on kl's tagboard without leaving his/her name. hhaaa, what's my problem? i have no idea, i just feel damn turned off by this kinda action. especially when he/she bitches sarcasm and start criticizing people's imperfections. whatever.
11:13pm:
i just came back from my classes in mc today. all i can say is............... i need patience. patience. patience. whoa, *patience*... for the 4 year old kid la. i didn't scold him okay!! not at all even when he played around. i even smiled at him aaarrrrrh!! i'm amazed at myself. what to do, i was ready for that before i started teaching. i had a horrible teacher in the past, i will NOT be a horrible teacher to him.
i haven't had much time to play the piano since school started. i wonder how am i gonna have time to practice the wedding songs for florence's friend wedding. and they're gonna increase the songs from 3 to 8?!?!?! jiu ming arh. *faints* the reason for increasing the number of songs is because we have to play for 1/2 hr. one of the songs would be canon-pachelbel in D. one of my favourites, actually its a lot of people's favourite. i love 'ji mo bian jie' by zhang dong liang. one of the songs that i fell in love with the first time i heard it. and a lot of people have been asking if i know the song 'tong hua' by guang liang.
sometimes i wonder if i'm putting my finger in too many pies? hahaa. theres just so much to do everyday. although its still manageble right now, but i hope the pressure won't wear me out one day. i haven't had much time for a lot of things since school started =( and i'm still contemplating if i should go for training tomorrow. hahaaa, one reason because i'm really really tired. the other is because i think i didn't stretch properly on tues and my left thigh feels erm.. sprained? lolx. dunno la, but it hurts even when i cross my legs.
I HAVE A FRIEND CALLED LESTER!! HE DECIDED TO RECEIVE CHRIST RECENTLY!!! WE FELL OUT IN THE PAST AND HAVEN'T TALKED FOR LIKE AGES, AND HE SENT ME A MESSAGE ON FRIENDSTER TODAY AND TOLD ME HE HAS RECEIVED CHRIST!!! AND HE'S A REALLY CHANGED PERSON. I FEEL SO DAMN GUILTY MAN.
LOVE YOUR ENEMIES. THIS IS SOMETHING I HAVE TO LEARN.
GOD IS ALWAYS SO AMAZING. THE LIFE-GIVER, THE LIFE-CHANGER. HEHE, I'M JUST SO HAPPY, I HAVE TO TYPE THIS IN CAPS.. PAISEH. =)
.ruffles off.
25.4.05
whoa, heh heh, i have alot of updates since afternoon!! 3 good news for me!! hahaa, okays, so erm, be happy for me okays? hahaaa.. my good friends would be glad for me, those who dun, i dont really care, so shoo!!!!
okays, the first good news is that i've been given a chance to do one of the the external client project with 4 other pple!! yeah, so they regrouped us again. but this time round, i had already knew 2 of my groupmates, so i only needed to know 2 new people. hahaaa, sorry, i know i sound a little anti-social. but i really have no interest in knowing new friends, unless neccessary. i've met my puny fair share of friends already, i mean true blue friends. but i just thank God that the people i've met in my life.. till now.. even in TEP, they're all just so wonderful. i mean it. hahaa. ok, anyways, my group people are really nice people, we're only grouped today, but we've got good mo qi. so i'm as happy as a lark with them!! haha.. hope we can stay this way. anyways, its gonna be a real good exprience for us. i was half hoping i would get to do any one of the two projects actually. haha. so that explains why i'm happy. our group would be working on comfort's project, the other group for ck tangs. hm... we'll be doing elearning websites for these two companies respectively, and erm, i think they mentioned that we've collaborated with SIT, and they're also doing something, but i cant rem what. but we'll going over occasionally to SIT block for presentation or to comfort's office for presentations? haha.. tt'll be interesting. hm.. i know its not gonna be easy, but at the end... i know the fruits of our work will be able to make up for everything.
second good news is that, i've finally got my mp3 repaired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! praise the lord!!! haha... thanks chris!! he helped me bring the mp3 to creative since he was on the way to JE area. hehe. thanks a million!! it would have been extremely troublesome for me. hahaaa, whatever it is.. thanks! hahaa.. so i'm re-paying him by teaching theory. hopefully he and kailing can go for this oct's grade 3 theory exam and pass with distinction!! haha, but that's too far fetched. they're doing well anyways, kl's a fast learner, chris has been reading up on the books. simply great!! hahaa, okays, i realised i digressed. lolx.
finally, the third good news is that, florence's friend is getting married in july and they needed instrumentalist to play for them. so florence asked me, najif, janet and yang yang and a couple more to play at her friend's wedding.. and we'll be given good rates, or so she said la. but its not just the money, its also being able to perfrom? plus najif, janet and yangyang are people i'm familiar with, so playing together with them aint a prob. i'm comfortable with it. that explains why i'm happy!! hahaa. but the headache thing is that we need to make quite a major change to the score. but that'll be florence's job coz she's the planner. lolx. i just need to practice. haha.
so, my life is good. its only the tip of the iceberg. more's gonna come. of course i'm prepared to face the downs that will come together with all these opportunities in my life. lolx. anyways, i really really miss you qian...!! and i finally had the chance to catch up with dan who's in aus now. and sean!! hahaa, i really love them loads. lolx. and tracy, i do miss you alot, kim too!! sighs, its weird that so much's happening and qtk's not involved. but all in all, i'm a happy girl with a blessed life.. haha. take care my friends~
.ruffles off.
11:30am:
was working on a group hygiene proj till i got pek chek, half the reason was because i'm kinda depressed today. lolx. and the other half was because its hell boring doing flash the entire morning, and my throat hurts. so i took a break and went down to look for jieying and huimin.
sighs. i was thinking about lotsa stuffs last night. tracy's right, sometimes things has changed. sighs, in fact, things have already changed. this change took place since blen passed away. this change affecting qtmk such that its becoming difficult for us to be in each other's presence without having some dark depressing emotions hanging around. sighs. changes. i know there are more changes that has yet to come, but i'm prepared for more changes already..!! sighs, this is depressing. but sadly, this is life.
2:42pm
i just came back from lunch with my classmates. sighs, i miss them la. i feel bad leaving early, leaving my teammates slogging at the proj, while i sneak out for my early lunch. but of course, i come back when they go for their lunch.. although sometimes i do return a bit late. hehes. anyways, i realised i'm multi-tasking as i blog. chatting with sean, blogging and doing flash at the same time. hahaas. okays. i have a feeling i'm gonna hear good news soon. what kind of good news, i have no idea. just something good to make my day brighter. flash is both entertaining and boring at the same time. its entertaining because the end products are always so beautiful, but its ultra boring working on it the entire day. especially when it comes to editing it, adding on the finishing touches. ok whatever, i'm off to chatting with sean and continue with the proj.
.ruffles off.
22.4.05
9:17am:
sigh, i feel so tired. kenna squashed in between by 2 guys in the train just now. their shoulders so broad, i have no space to rest mine on the seat already. haha. but i didnt care la, i continued sleeping. haha. then saw chi ho and we walked to school feeling damn warm in our formal wear.. and i'm skipping tkd today again. haaa, feel bad about it man. told kl i'll go for training today, then i decided to skip again. ooops. i sent her a sms in the morning, don't know if she received, she didnt reply.
i'm so bored. so tired. wanna sleep but dont dare, anyways, its not comfortable enough for me to fall asleep. they're gonna view our resume later at 11am... 1hr and a half to go.............. then maybe i'll secretly go at12pm for lunch again today so i can join my mk0402 classmates!! i miss them. i'm so not used to seeing them around in school. i miss their laughters. sighs, when i've finally adapted to this new environment, they have to split us up =( then i have to make new friends again. but thank God theres this group of familiar-but-not-close faces from mk0403 lecturemates with me. guess its good enough, must be contented already. lolx. because i feel comfortable hanging out with them, but i'm not used to it. haha. ok la, enough of crap. i think i'll go see what i can add to my resume..haha.
10:50am:
waaah so sad. i was complaining of boredom so my friend intro-ed me this website: http://kokoro.com they have very touching flash movies there. its very sad. watch until i wanna cry already. i watched 'lian yu -rain and tears'. she said the rest are equally sad. i would love to watch the rest, but i dont wanna upset myself for nothing. hahaaa. i'm itching to play the piano. i havent touched my piano since monday. and the song in that flash movie is really nicee... i wanna try it out on the piano, haha.. hope i'll still remember the tune when i get back, its playing non-stop in my head right now. lolx.
10:10pm:
hehe.. i have no idea why i blog so much. i haven't repair my mp3 yet. hehe, i regretted not bothering to repair it earlier, now i'm badly deprieved of music. hai, so i called creative up on my way home in the train. i might go down to repair it tomorrow if i can find somebody to go with me. hehe. i'm quite exhausted actually. i've got a heavy head and i'm running a little bit of temperature, all thanks to the air conditioning in nyp. its the north pole in there lor. and the weather outside is so warm. one moment i can freeze to death with my sweater on, the next moment i step outside i feel so warm. jiajia is also falling sick with a runny nose. hai.
theres a 6D gathering tomorrow!! haha, i've been bugging yenping to organize one then she said she lost the class tele no. then she found it recently again!! hahaaa... great, its been a while since we had a gathering.. think it was last year? lolx. but anyways, the response is good!! haha.. 6D rocks man. tell me which primary 6 class can be as united as us till now?? hahaaa.. kidding. hehe. but its been almost 8 years already since pri 5 ok!!! 8 years and we still can gather with such good response!!! i have fond memories of them man. lolx. ok, i'm getting a headache. tata~
.ruffles off.
21.4.05
Went to school for TEP as usual. by the way sean, TEP is this Teaching Enterprise Programme thingy that makes use of free labour from us to get a lot of work done for them. haha. they do clinch deals from clients outside and we basically help them get those work done for them, some for the school la.
anyways, i'm a tired but happy girl. haha. clarance said it sounds weird. lolx. ELDC is not that boring actually. flash is fun!!!! i've done my e-resume and i'm quite happy with it. although i almost dieded from editing the thing to make it work properly. i used quite alot of pinkish colours. the entire thing was 90% in different shades of pink other than the black background that i choose. ahh, i dunno why i choose pink. i thought blue was my colour?? pink so girly. haha, why am i complaining.. as long as my resume looks great. and my group managed to finish the storyboard in the morning. haha. not bad. lolx.
jingle called me at around 5 plus and asked if i could take over her till closing after my work. madness arh!! i'm so tired already. can hardly open my eyes at this moment actually. have to wear formal tomorrow. actually we have to be in formal wear every friday... arg. alright i'm gonna zzz... lolx.
.ruffles off.
20.4.05
11:45am:
whoa.. i've been busy doing flash since monday. hahaa.. i sound so hardworking, but actually no la, was just learning flash on monday and tuesday. work was pretty boring for the past 2 days, but we're getting busy with our e-resume today. urrrggg. headache. so complicated. but its quite interesing actually if you know how the thing works. quite fun. haha. getting the hang of it, but not quite there yet. lolx.
sighx, so tired. my eyes are dry and hurting. no matter how i change the brightness, its still very bright. haha. makes me feel so sleepy. my work area is pretty cosy actually. its very cold in here. lolx. i think my eyesight is gonna detioriate. i think it already did. urrrrgg. sighx.. i have nothing to blog. so i guess i'll get back to work after i walk around and go kpo my friend's work. haha.
4:30pm:
arggg. its 4:30pm and i've only got my e-resume halfdone!!! but i'm definitely getting the hang of it. definately. that's good news because i still have another group project to complete. feeling so pek chek now. my eyes feel so tired and i think my degree just increased like a lot more because the things in the room looks blurer than before! even my neighbour's screen looks blur. sighs, i'm so sad. hahaa. ok la, actually theres nothing to bo sad about. lolx... except my eyesight perharps. although i'm feeling pek chek, but i kinda like it. lolx. at least i'm learning something. and its kinda fun having the programme work out the way you want it to be, but extremely pek chek-ing when it doesn't work the way its supposed to work. so yah lo, i just got stucked somewhere again for like the billionth time since morning. sighs. if i ever forget how to use flash, i'm gonna kill myself man. alrighty~ i'll get back working on my resume again... hopefully can get it done with today.
9:39pm:
hahaa.. i didnt get the resume done today, but its almost finished. i think another hour on it and it'll be nicely!! and i'm happy with it. and i've finally understood how flash works. hahaa. but sad i only got it figured out at 5:30pm and i end work at 6pm. haha.. i was doing it happily for the last half hour. haha., ok la, i'm insane already. what did you expect?? i spent the entire day today since 9am just trying to figure the thing out. since i'm enjoying myself, its not that boring afterall la. lolx. but its tiring tho, mentally. lolx. its a strain to our eyes especially. the only thing i can complain about is the e messenger that i use there. totally lousy man. sometimes i dont receive anything when people message me. haha, but today i was too busy to bother much.
and i just realised one funny thing. my lecture groupmates saw their classmate working in cheers and commented that he's a good catch because he's rich, not bad looking and i'm not sure if they mentioned smart. they jokingly said that they can jie shao to me. then i realised i knew him already and i even have him in my msn because he just msn-ed me, probably my nick, which i put 'TEP", got his attention. hahaaa. interesting huh. i thought he was a stranger, but in fact that stranger is somebody i already know. life is full of surprises huh don't you think? anyways, i think i changed my mind, i might get a pair of specs again if i really cannot see. sadded.
.ruffles off.
19.4.05
8:45am:
heh, i'm in school already. hahaaa. everyone's banging away on their keyboards while waiting for 9am to come so we all can go for the workshop. i'm not saying it'll be interesting, but it beats sitting at my workplace, doing nothing but stare at my computer.
anyways, i think this TEP thingy is gonna be interesting. learnt a teeny weeny bit of flash yesterday. hahaaa. its so amazing lor, but its so complicated. i got lost somewhere halfway through. anyways, it was a boring day yesterday. we didnt have anything to do from 8:30am to 4pm. made some new friends tho. the ones i hang out with are from my lecture group, so they're not really new. hahaa. but they're really nice people, ultra friendly and bubbly, and i feel quite comfortable with them. but i still miss my classmates :(
we're splited up into teams tho. arrrggg. so i have to make new friends again. i'm teamed with 3 other people. yvonne, jeanne and val. they're gonna be the people i'm gonna work with this 3 months. they're very nice people, very friendly, but i'm feeling abit anti-social. maybe i'll warm up soon enough.
argg gtg. bbl.
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11:30am:
okies, i'm back. just had a 2 hr workshop with mr fuan. he's super longwinded and the place was damn cold as well even with our sweater on. but its kinda interesting tho, showed us alot of e-learning websites created using flash. cool. we're given a group project to do already, with the storyboard due this thurs, our e-resumes due this friday. all using flash!! arggg, i wonder when i will have no problems using flash. haha, i'll probably be busy figuring how to use flash most of the time these few days.. sighs.
sighx, then at 4pm, we're having another flash workshop. i think i'll probably blog and edit my blogs during different intervals throughout the entire day because i dont think i can concentrate doing flash the entire day. so it explains the time i put at each paragraphs. 1 more hour to lunch break. sighx, meanwhile i'll start on my resume after blogging. hope i can figure something out, then i can at least get part of the stuffs done. tata!
.ruffles off.
17.4.05
yay!! school's starting tomorrow......... finally!!!! i would rather complain about a busy life than complain about having nothing to do, coz i'm just wasting my life away seriously.
went queensway with florence today because she wanted to get a bag for her trip to hk. that girl is travelling all the time. hahaa.. rich gurl. lolx. we walked around the mall and she finally got this orange nike bag. i think the entire queensway shopping centre's having sale. then we went anchorpoint and had icecream. hahaa. chatted about some mc stuffs. its all fated that we all meet in mc. lolx.
then we shared a cab and i alighted at clementi and met qian. we went snookerium and played pool. lolx. qian's not bad at pool actually. while i was still trying to aim properly, she shot in almost all her balls already. haha. nevermind, we shall play more often and i will improve okays!! haha. played for an hour. when we walked out of the place, this guy who looked like sam asked for her number. hahahaaa. i think she gave her email instead la. lolx. but becareful arh qian, some of them might have complicated backgrounds arh. not that i discriminate people, but its good to be cautious. hehe.
then we decided to go IMM to have dinner. i wanted to take cab there, but qian wanted to take the shuttle bus, but we're not sure if there is still the shuttle bus service. but i ended up psychoing her to take cab anyways, partly because we waited for quite some time for the bus and it didnt come. haha. then when we reached, i couldnt decide at where we should have dinner. hahaaa. nothing looked appetizing enough. haha. still we settled down at the malay stall in the end. lolx. ate and chatted at the same time. haha. theres just so much for us to yak about. hehe. then we stayed there and chatted for awhile more before we left. i scolded her for playing with the leftover food, but i still joined in later. hahaa. then we walked from IMM to bukit batok mrt station. hahaaa. actually she didnt want to, but i erm... psychoed her again to walk. hahaa. it was my first try walking from IMM to bukit batok. lolx. i walked by instinct. hahaaa, so we ended up walking one big round. hahaaa. think she wanna kill me already. but nevermind, we had had fun walking la hor.. hahaa. chatted about school, boyfriends, work and other stuffs. haha.. qian rem our promises okays!! hahaa.. anyways, thanks for qian-jiuing me most of the time. lolx. love you so much!! muahs!!
anyways, i'm a happy girl with a great life right now. although the road is never smooth, but i'm thankful enough for the things God has granted me with... hehe. =)
alrighty, i have to wake up so early tomorrow!! urggg. lolx. but i'm looking forward to it actually. hahaa. so nites! qian....... i love you!! hahaaaaa. (eee, so er xin, but eh, you should be glad!! hahaaaa.. =P)
.ruffles off.
15.4.05
2 more days before school starts. sean's leaving for aus in 6 more hours. lolx. was bloggin in some foreign language yesterday because there were some deep thoughts running through my mind that i just gotta blog down, but i dont want anybody to know either. hahaaa. so i got the entry translated by some online translator. lolx. i'm not worried if anyone would go and translate it back in english again because it wont make any sense coz the sentence structure and grammar are all direct translations. but that would be if anyone bothers to try to translate my entry back to english la. lolx. =P
anyways, enough of craps. basically life's pretty good for me although there are a few minor stuffs that upsets me. but i'm thankful for such a blessed life God has given me =) anyways, i came across this sentence that i wrote in one of the fmss diaries we had.. lolx.. think i got it from cheryl - "if you're wondering why do you have so many problems - just tell yourself... you're not in heaven... that's why". its true isn't it? it kinda enlightened me to see the bright side of life.
went to teach in the evening today. hee, i kinda enjoy teaching piano, although its kinda tiring to put on a smile every minute in order not to scare the kid. hahaa. anyways, so far they've been good!!!!! i have smart students!! hahaa. kinda impressed actually. lolx. now i have 2 students, but since my commission is only a mere 45%, my pay is still pretty pathetic. lolx. anyways, its good enough for me la, so i'm not complaining. haha.. =) i need to hunt for stickers lolx. they loveeeeeee stickers like dunno wad. lolx. yeah they're kinda cute. lolx.
then i stayed back in mc to watch the 9pm drama series- a life of hope. lolx. the ah beng is really so cute!!! actually he doesnt fall under the category of cute, he's more manly than cute. lolx. ma tian tian is cute, the ah beng is manly. lolx. i'm nuts. lolx.
actually in each and everybody's life. we all have a few lives to lead. our career life, family life, social life and love life. all these makes up the entire life that we have. prioritizing makes life easier. =)
.ruffles off.
13.4.05
giornale più caro, non ho idea perchè gli i così infelice io crying mólto quando sono solo. non posso definire esattamente che cosa sta facendolo in modo da il upset. ma io realmente ritiene così giù. non sono stato felice recentemente parzialmente a causa di blen. perché era qualcuno che il mio amico amasse una volta così profondamente ed ancora realmente. lo rattrista per vedere il suo così infelice e ci è niente che possa fare per rendere al suo tatto il sigh migliore, io lo manca troppo che tutto realmente. se può ritornare, quindi tutto sarà allora tracy fine non sarebbe così infelice. realmente ci ha insegnato che come essere lo ha incitato a vedere la vita in un modo completamente differente niente in questo mondo è buoni periodi permanente non dura la felicità è inoltre temporale là è quite.a.lot delle cose avrebbero voluto dirgli realmente. mi domando come è nel cielo deve rejoicing nella presenza che del signore verremo a contatto ancora del mio caro amico nel frattempo, io prego il signore conforterò i miei amici.
il sigh, come ho desiderato le cose può essere come prima con qtmk. ma il relativo possibile non accennare nulla circa blen perché quasi tutto che facciamo o diciamo, noi può riferirsi sempre in qualche modo a lui che la sua partenza non è la ragione per la quale principale sono in modo da rovesc, ma più dei cambiamenti che i happenes dopo che la sua partenza che lo rattrista qtmk sia ora destra così differente anche se gli riteniamo il tempo felice di spending con, ma noi non riteniamo felici perché ci sono memorie tristi che li rattrista quando siamo insieme. realmente mi domando noi potrò appendere prima fuori come senza ritenere così giù quando veniamo a contatto di ma sarò sempre là per loro qualunque cosa accada perché realmente le amo un sigh del lotto, abbia visto quanto perfetto la mia vita era dopo che abbia andato, perché la sua partenza ha lasciato un foro nel mio cerchio degli amici. spero che il tempo lavi via tutto la tristezza particolarmente i miei tracy più cari, i suoi fratelli e famiglia perché il dolore ritengono è così tanto più grande di c'è ne di noi ha confrontato. prego che il dio lo conforterà .
realmente ci è questa persona gli ho sensibilità non so che non molta gente sa che gli ho alcune sensibilità per speranza di i non sviluppa il relativo più forte a causa di lui che sto compromettendosi di a.lot delle probabilità con la gente questo è così stupid. se mi conosco il relativo impossibile che e lui, in modo da perchè alambicco sto tenendo su esso? so che ci sarà e ci sono tipi migliori che lo aspettano realmente sigh, io sto ritenendo in modo da irritato. se soltanto mi dicesse che cosa pensa. se soltanto conoscesse che cosa è nel mio cuore ma non sta andando sapere, perché non avrò mai le budella per dirgli la speranza lo dimenticherò presto.
ho letto le mie entrate passate del blog ed ho realizzato ero una persona molto più felice più non colpevole ora io ritengo che alterato come qualcuno lo ha rubato del mio innocence. la mia vita è buona. ho gli amici, la famiglia, il lavoro e tutto sulla pista ma ancora ritengo così vuoto. indovino che gli esseri umani possono non essere soddisfatti mai perché non siamo perfetti e possiamo essere io dobbiamo imparare lasciamo per andare con garbo dei theres di cose niente possiamo tenere per sempre sul relativo facile, ma dovrò provare in modo da posso vivere più meglio questa vita.
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12.4.05
woke up at 6am today. i dont like my alarm tone, but it wakes me up effectively, so i will stick with it to make sure i wont be late for school.
anyways, went for TEP orientation today. was strolling to school but still reached school very early. saw karkit and geoff. then the rest came later. went for briefing in ltc 2. had to wait for our sexy bunny (our director) to come before they started the powerpoint. crapped alot in the lecture hall. sighx. so sad, me and my classmates will be seperated for 6 mths for TEP =(
i have to admit i'm pretty excited about TEP. but i have a feeling the excitement will wear off after a while. anyways, i'll be attached to ELDC for 9 weeks, and then get attached to another stopover for another 9 weeks and then finally another last stopover for 8 weeks. totals up to 26 weeks with 2 weeks block leave, which leaves me exactly 6 mths of attachment. lolx. from what they briefed today, i'll learn how to use flash, dreamweaver and photoshop, and then we'll be given projects to complete. we'll be assigned a computer each throughout this 9 weeks. i wonder what will happen to my eyesight. lolx. i hope it wont detioriate. i dont think i wanna get a new pair of specs since i still can make out 90% of the stuffs around without straining my eyes.
talk about attachments, year 3s are gonna be attached outside school. marcus's attached overseas to china for 3 months. interesting. and alot of people are attached to jurong area like fazli and faizal and a few more people. i wonder where will my attachment be. lolx. but that's still a long way to go lolx. well, i wish all of them all the best.
sighx, i really will miss my classmates. lolx. i seriously have no interest in meeting new people or making any new friends. lolx. i'm kinda sianed of meeting people, like i just want people to leave me alone. hahaa. i think i'm siao la. sighx. but i really feel so less hyper recently. super sianed of alot of things in life. haha.
i'm tired. havent woke up so early since holidays started. hm... alot of people seem to be leaving. sean's leaving this fri, marcus's going for attachment soon too, 2 from qtk might leave for aus to study within this year and the next. plus i wont get to be with my classmates this entire sem. haha.. sadded. lolx. feel abit sad when i think of the stuffs that i did with them. i know good times dont last. they never do anyway right? lolx. so have to live with it. lolx.
haiya, just cant wait for TEP to start so i have stuffs to keep myself occupied. the lizard's back cackling again. irritating. now its hiding behind the tv set near my computer. lolx. stay behind the tv set. hope it doenst come anywhere near. lolx. i'm fine with lizards as long as i know where they're hiding, but i absolutely detest cockroaches. i dont know what's so scary about cockroches, but maybe because they look a little disgusting thats why they scare alot of people. haha. so bad. anyways. so sleepy.
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11.4.05
time just flew past again. gonna be in school for TEP orientation from 8:30 to 6pm for this entire week till friday. then i'll be having my attachments in school once this semester starts from 8:30 to 6pm again. long eh? my attachment had better be good. if i'm not wrong, i'll be attached to ELDC, the elearning development centre. haha, i called my PEM the other day and she said i'll probably be assigned a computer and do dreamweaver and learn some web based stuffs? hopefully i'll be taught photoshop. hahaaa. i wanna learn how to beautify pictures. lolx. ;)
hm... had tkd grading yesterday. the thought of taekwondo makes me sighx so i wont talk about it laa. lolx. but grading was just okay. went to catch the pacifier in westmall with florence, najif and reyner again. haha, its a really funny show, worth watching. wanted to go swensens after that actually, but the queue was ultra long. thank goodness we didnt. i've had enough of pasta actually. but i had pasta for lunch again today. hm.. so stupid. lolx.
went to mc in the afternoon to meet sean, jeremy and janet for lunch because sean's going back to aus on friday already. time flies man, it feels like he's been back for a while only. florence was supposed to come with us but she had to teach. played abit of piano there. i really like to duet or erm.. triuet (haha.. dont think theres such a word) canon with sean and jeremy. its nice.. its fun!! haha. then we went foodcourt to have lunch, then me and jeremy decided to make this thingy where you fill the templetes with some colour liquid thingy. haha.. the tables and chairs we so teeny weeny lor!! we didnt dare sit on the mini chairs meant for the kids because it might just break if we sit on it, so we sat on the stools instead. muahaha. i feel like some giant man. lolx. its quite fun actually. sean was helping me do mine. hahaa. janet said i have alot of patience. hahaa. depends la huh, i only have patience for something that i enjoy doing. lolx. jeremy made one for his gf.. so sweet of him. lolx.
lemme intro you to bambi.... hahaa.. ;)
cute right?? lolx..
then we went back to mc. played a bit of piano again. i'm falling in love with the song, music of the night. its stucked in my head. hopefully i can photcopy the score and master that piece soon~
my uncle and nephews came my house after that. i feel that i have better control over my dog than my nephews. whoa, kids are not easy to handle. seriously. they're really damn active. whoa.. busy busy. i can take care of kids for an hour or two, but not the entire day. i'll probably die of exhaustion. but they're really adorable!!!!! i can't help but laugh at some of the way they do stuffs. and the younger brother- jing hao bit me while i fed him sweets. hahaaa.. pain pain. i told him to bite the sweet to chew off bits of it and showed him the chewing motion. then he...... bit my finger. lolx. but he's so so so so so cute!!!!
haha.. okays, i better go sleep soon~ ;)
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10.4.05
another day has passed. life is so boring which is why i can't wait for school to start. i've been enjoying myself way to much. life's like that isnt it? if you're stressed up, you're stressed to the max, when you're not, you become extremely bored till you go nutty.
anyways, it should be the 10th now... happy 18th birthday to yenping~!!! happy 18th birthday to david~!!! and a happy 20th birthday to kenneth kueh~!!!
hahaaa.. alot of people's birthday on the 10th i realised. lolx. but they're special individuals to me!! hahaa.. =)
met yenping, lijia, jeremy and samuel today in the evening to have a mini celebration for yen's and my birthday. lolx. supposed to meet outside holland's BK at 6pm. met lijia first at bb, then i went to get yen's birthday pressie. then we took a cab down to holland because we were already late plus i felt lazy to take bus. hehe. then yen the late queen reached even later than us- as usual la hor.. but jeremy and sam reached the latest!!! wait until i wanna murder the two of them already. so they got wacked by my bag. haha, but not pain la huh... wait till i start pinching. sam, jeremy and lijia knows how powerful my pinch is.. hahaa.. they tried my pinch b4. hahaaa. lolx. ;)
then we went to nydc to have dinner, then we went gelare to have dessert!!! hahaaa.. die la. i seriously need to go on diet already. give me another week of dinners and celebrations and i confirm without fail, sure will put on at least 2kg. whoa.. the seats in gelare is like so comfortable... lolx. we were joking, crapping and taking pics there... had quite a good time there. then we went clementi's snookerium to play pool. whoaaa, the snookerium in clementi is exactly like the snookerium in ang mo kio!!! i felt like was in ang mo kio playing pool actually. haha. the lady there checked my ID. hm.. do i look like i'm under 16?? i'm already 18. -.- lolx.
had a really good time there. we had 5 people, so we splited the numbers and i took 7,8,9 as usual. lolx. you get kicked out of the game when all the balls carrying your number gets hit into the hole. and if the white ball gets in, each player except the one who hit the white ball in, can pick a ball out and put it back onto the table. so its kinda like never ending especially when the white ball keeps getting in. so we decided to change the rule a little after we realised we can never finish the game. lolx. so when the player hits the white ball in, he'll take away one ball. sam was the first to die, followed by me, then jeremy. yen and lijia left one ball each on the table. yenping could have won if she didnt hit the white ball into the hole after she finished lijia off. lolx. it was so funny, they were trying so hard to finish me off at first and yenping was protecting hers like siao. lolx. it was really fun la. then we made our way home. lolx.
i have tkd grading tomorrow. wish me luck. =)
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9.4.05
okay... firstly, a very happy birthday to myself!! hahaaa... =P okay.. secondly, a big THANK YOU to all who remembered and wished me a happy birthday, i did have a very happy birthday this year ;). Thirdly, another big THANK YOU to all who spent these few days with me.... ;)
whoa.. 18. i can't believe how time flies man. everything felt like it happened only yesterday. growing up is scary. i remember somebody told me that, if you can blow the candles out on your birthday cake with only one breathe, your birthday wish will come true. but it gets harder to blow the candles out with only one breathe as you get older because the candle increases every year la... i dont remember blowing out the candles with one breathe only in my entire life, not even when i was younger lolx. anyways, that was just a passing thought.
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7th April:
went mc for my first class with the 4 yr old kid. he's called sandeep, he's indian. quite cute. chubby chubby one. hahaa. anyways, first lesson was okay, its a good chance to cultivate patience. then went orchard swensens to meet my polymates to celebrate my birthday. they're still the same, crappy peeps. lolx. pictures are with huimin, waiting for her to upload acutally. lolx..
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8th April:
had a mini celebration with my family in the afternoon. took some pics. then met QTK at city mrt station and we went for dinner at Ollie in suntec. ordered some cocktails and a carona because tracy wants it. 2 of my darlings ended up semi drunk. alamak, then after dinner we went up to the open air and watched the fountain. they actually have some message thingy. quite cool. sat there.. said nothings, tracy and qian fell half asleep on me and kim.
it was a quiet evening. somethings just surfaces no matter how hard we try to ignore. but its ok. being able to spend the evening with them was more than enough for me. i love u 3 okays... there are more changes to come, but i know nothing will break us up so easily. we'll be meet soon yah?? i did enjoy myself... take care dearies.... you should know how much you guys means to me.... =) muahs~ see you guys soon~ =)
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6.4.05
i'm happy~ lolx. i feel no burden, i feel so totally carefree right now. i'll just enjoy the remaining holidays that i have, wait for school to start and do some serious work. i'm living a life full of leisure, friends and play. even working in mc is joyous, minus away all the stupid politics and people that i dont really give a damn about. its irritating having two-faced bootlickers in mc. wait till i've had enough of her bootlicking and her i'm-oh-so-innocent two-face attitude, she's a goner. d.i.s.g.u.s.t.i.n.g.
anyways, i really had fun meeting sean, angeline, jeremy and his gf. i had fun irritating sean with some stupid tune that he so stupidly taught me. hahaha. kidding~ lolx. 'laa la la laaaaaaaaaaaaa la, laa la la laaaaaaaaaaaaa la' hahaa.. sean, sing it. lolx. fit in the words yourself.. you can use the original version lolx. nvm, i'll sing it again when i meet you muhahaa =P lalaa..
i went inside yamaha today!! found a piano that i really liked. Yamaha U10H. *dreams*. its not very expensive, but its not cheap either. $7,970.00. just 30 bucks short of $8,000. sighx, so not screamable huh. its really nice. anyways, i had fun playing on that piano dueting canon with sean and jeremy. hahaa. its just so beautiful, the entire place was melo-dized with 3 versions of canon harmonized. it feels so waltz-able. lolx. haha, that sentence kinda rhymes. lolx. hehe, i feel cranky. the weather really rocks. if only the weather would stay this cooling always.
i really had fun today learning words in different languages, singing the stupid tune, not having a single woe at all. lolx. =)
somebody from NYP called while i was out and my dad picked up the call.she didnt leave a clear message. something about next semester. it should be about the TEP's orientation on the 12th. but she mentioned some orientation about ELDC instead? or are they the same? my dad seemed to be excited about it heh??? haha... i'll call my PEM tomorrow to clarify lolx. i dont know what's wrong with me, but i'm looking forward to the new semester. i'm on cloud nine. i was so worried for my results that i was quite moody the past few days, but now that its finally over i feel so relieved. i think i know why i'm in such a good mood. i have parents who are extremely loving although my mom pms-ses at times, i have a family who fusses over my adorable dog and i have friends who makes me happy, and i'm glad i have nothing to do with last semester anymore.
hahaaa.. if i'm gonna ask huimin one more time what has ELDC gotta do with TEP one more time, she's gonna murder me. but i really can't wait to find out. i have a feeling my dad heard wrong. lolx. hm.. tomorrow..
tomorrow's gonna be another exciting day!! lolx.. i'll start teaching in MC tomorrow. my student is only 4 years old. *faints*. i tried teaching janet's student who's 4 too. haha.. cuteeeeeeee, but i need patience....... and alot of 'por-ing' plus stickers and praising. lolx. and then i'll be off to meet my polymates. lalaaa.. i feel so happy, so blessed. lolx =)
and qian just came up with a crazy and a erm.... very expensive idea to celebrate my birthday.. hahaa. but i have to admit, its a good idea. lolx. =)
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PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!! huimin just helped me check my results. i am surprised. i really am. I AM VERY SURPRISED ACTUALLY. i keep asking huimin if she checked the correct account, if she didnt check the wrong name. i hope she didnt. tell me i am not dreaming.
i am so ready for next semester. i vow i will study really really really really really hard next semester. sigh.. i feel so... i dont know. i'm not exactly happy.
i just feel so relieved. makes me wanna cry. lolx.
i feel like.... this is another chapter closed in my life. finally i can put a full stop to everything. like i can start life anew. i was so afraid that i will retake any modules because the exam was crap. my heart wasnt in it due to some unhappy stuffs going on. i thought it was gonecase for this exam. i was more than prepared to fail. i was prepared to get the sup papers over and done with. like everything was just so wrong. so upside down. i was so unhappy. but.... God just turned it around again. i just wanna praise the Lord. God has never failed me. He pulls me through everytime i think i can't do it. He is just so amazing. thank you Jesus. i didnt get through this semester by my own abilities, but through God's.
i just want a peaceful life from now. i just want to start life anew. i just want the people i love and care for to be fine, to be around. that's all i ask for. that's all i really ask for. that's all i want. i know life can never be like the past anymore. but i just hope things will fade soon. i hope time will pass quickly. i hope for a better tomorrow for everyone. i want the people i love to know i cannot live without them, theres so much more to life. so stay strong.
.ruffles off.
4.4.05
these few days had been fun!! lolx.. caught miss congenality with eric on saturday at PS and the eye 10 with florence, najif and reyner on sunday. lolx. sandra bullocks is like.. wow. lolx. the eye 10 is good. scary but yet funny. haahaa.. =) the weather's good these few days. the rain's cool and calming. i wish it wouldnt stop raining. i really like it this way. lolx.
oh yeah..the yamaha in PS is selling baby grands!! ooh~ but they're so expensive, least 30k. *faints*. my piano is going nutty, it needs repair. lolx. actually i dont mind getting a new piano, but the one i have now carries alot of sentimental values. so i've been searching for baby grands..
and i came across this baby grand in white...
and sean found this: its made with glass~!!
and i found this antique baby grand.. lolx..
i'm falling in love with baby grands...lolx. i might go back to PS to take a look at the pianos again on wed. hahaa.. ;)
well i went back to mc to work today but it was a super last minute decision. lolx. there is really alot of politics going on in that place. some people turns me off totally. i heard some shocking news and some confessions today. but i dont really care. as long as they dont step on my tail for as long as i'm around. but other than that, work was fun!! the tables, the computer, the pianos, the receipts, the students, the teachers... haha.. all so familiar. i actually enjoyed working. lolx. if cheah's selling mc i would consider buying it over, although i dont think i have the capital la huh. lolx. its almost become medeline's concerto instead of music concerto. lolx. kidding. =P
sighx, i'm dead beat. i think i've got short term memory. abit forgetful nowdays, probably due to the fact that i've been sleeping rather late recently. i have no idea why. lolx. something funny happened when i counted cash today. i counted the notes and the coins in the boxes and i was short of $4.50. then i started grumbling and reyner helped me count the cash again, then we were still short of $4.50. then when i looked at the cash box again, i realised i forgot to count the coins not in the box. lolx. so paiseh. if i were him i'd kill me. haha.
lotsa people asked if i'm looking forward to next week. actually.. not really. not really excited. i'm in no mood for celebration. i just want to enjoy spending time with people i wanna spend with over dinners. no crowds, just us and us alone, with the usual laughters. lolx. peace.... ;)
.ruffles off.
3.4.05
i got this picture from aliff's blog... sorry buddy.. hope u dont mind..
what would you do?
i would have thought this was sweet and touching in the past...
now i see it in a different light...
its more than just sweet and touching...
its totally true...
this is learning how to cherish the present...
cherish
we never know how to cherish until its gone
its not easy to cherish, because we dont know how it feels like to lose what we have...
we will only know what it means to cherish when we know how it feels like to lose something...
that's when a lesson is learnt... sometimes it can be quite painful i guess...
but that is what makes it so precious...
sighx. i love you all my dear friends... and i mean it. i really do.
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1.4.05
happy april's fool. i hope no one got tricked.. lolx.
hmm.. qian smsed me around 6am in the morning and woke me up. somehow i managed to register what was her sms saying and replied her. lolx. so sleepy. then i went back to sleep and then florence smsed me at around 10 plus i think and i woke up again. so sleepy. but i still went back to sleep.. haha. then woke up at around 1 plus. lolx. was supposed to meet qian after the run, but my mother was pms-ing at home so i decided not to meet her. florence's classes ended early so she asked if i was free to go out. since i thought i was meeting qian, so i didnt meet her. aarrgg. so in the end i went nowhere. sighx, then slacked at home till 5 plus and got ready for tkd. i was quite moody actually and then kl told me she didnt felt like training, but heck, i went anyway. reached the training ground and saw 3 people there only. pathetic. and i was so moodless that i decided not to train. then more people started to come. wei liang took training as usual. watched them train for a while till they started to do patterns and then i went off.
then i met qian and her sis at chinese gardens mrt station. they went for a swim at the JE complex. she said i looked very small and very secondary school-ish. haha, probably because i was wearing my hairband and the fmss funfair shirt with shorts. lolx. kinda like the dressing we would wear during camps. lolx. my hair looks so horrible and i will never step out of my house without my hairband until my hair grows again. najif asked me what happened to my hair lo!!! -.- lolx. then we went JP and had dinner at long john. saw sarah and zhenle there!! hahaa... its been a long while since i last saw them. almost a year a think?!? they still look pretty much the same except that sarah cut her hair. lolx. actually i've been seeing alot of people i havent met in ages recently. saw rachel teo a few days ago, saw jian min 2 days ago, saw joel cheong and wen xun today. lolx. quite a lot of fairsians staying at bukit batok i suppose. anyways, the 3 of us had so much fun laughing and crapping. haha.. really funny. and we were teaching her sis how to flirt?? whahaha. madness la. but her sis is really growing up sia... i can see the fairfield person she is growing up to be. haha. kinda reminds me of the days we had back then...lolx. but it was really fun because we were bursting into fits of laughter every now and then. lolx. =) really made my day. haha. i love qian so much. lolx. we promised we will meet whenever we can and as often as we can. hahaa.
anyways, we went liang seng after that because i remembered i needed to help wei liang buy his gee and 2 targets. but i bought the targets only because i didnt have enough money plus they didnt have his gee size. and i bought my yellow belt. lolx. since grading is next sunday and i have no belt, i might as well get it now since theres not much difference in the pricing either.
msn has gone crazy again. i cant log in. lolx. or does the problem lies with my computer? its been rather kuku too. sighx, i shall try again. =)
.ruffles off.