.me being me.

28.2.05

i blogged 2 days ago. i said everything was turning out fine. i didnt know the worst has yet to come.

tracy asked me why is life so unfair? siumei said life's a mystery. everyone says 'treasure every moment you have with the people around you'. someone said 'live everyday as though its your last.'

why is life unfair?
i dont know.

life's a mystery.
indeed it is.

treasure every moment you have with the people around you.
how? how to? if you treasure the moments, the more painful it'll be when its gone. if you dont, you regret. because theres no turning back. tts equally painful.

live everyday as though its your last.
how you know when it'll be your last? it means you cant stop. you cant rest. you cant afford to fall. coz if you fall, you need time to pick yourself up. and theres a thousand things i would wanna do if its my last. it could be my last today. could it have been any better if i knew it was really my last?

so how to live life? theres no guidebook to read. theres no help section to refer to for troubleshooting. nobody knows.

why is life so complicated? what is life? the 4 letter word. l-i-f-e.

someone in the family just left on christmas eve. so sudden. i was shocked.
lesson learnt: life is unpredictable. learnt to treasure the people around me even more.

then the tsunami. we all could have died. could have. it was a close call.
lesson learnt: life is unpredictable. learnt to treasure the people around me even more.

double the lesson.
did i learn anything?

its dejavu. the fear is back again. oh. this feeling sucks. its already too familiar.

triple my fear.

what can you do?
pray, wait, hope and.......cry.

all the time. i waited, i hoped, i prayed. i cried too.

so what? my worst fear still came true.
utter disppointment.

i'm losing my faith. i dont dare hope.

all we want is for you to be fine. to be alright. to wake up. to talk. to recover. to remember. to carry on where you left off in life. your life. like this never happened.

we're waiting.
we're hoping.

please please Lord. answer our prayers.

i'm tired already.
i'm fearful too.
my heartbreaks everytime i hear tracy cry.
my heartbreaks everytime i tell her you'll be fine.
my heartbreaks everytime i look back into the past.

i just stop doing what i do. i have no mood to do anything else. everything can wait.

wake up soon. dont disappoint the people around you. be strong. everyone is praying for you. we're hoping. please dont disppoint us.

Father please, give him strength, i pray with all my heart, all my soul. this is my hope. please Lord, strengthen him with your healing touch, your amazing love.

please please dont break this web of hope we're all falling upon.

.ruffles off.

25.2.05

whoopie!! everything's turning out better than i expected!!! tts so wonderful~ lolx.
first, its my computer. yay~ finally its fixed. except that erm... i need to call pac net to change my password coz i've forgotten it. so i cant receive any mails from pac net now. sadded. nvm, thank goodness i still have a hotmail account. but thats ok, will do the call erm, if i have the time. its not that impt.

then then its my effective proj. because being such a disorganized person, i can't remember where i left my guidelines and i thought i could get it from CMS. but oh my, CMS has NOTHING. i thought i was so dead, then richard, being such a nice person, typed it out for me. hahaaa. he's really so nice. ahhh, i feel so bad for ticking him off today. it wasnt his fault, there were some miscommunication over SMS. sorry!!!!!!!! aaaaahhhhhh. i feel like such an evil person. hai, nvm. i shall make it up to him by being nicer to him. heh. sorry. i was in a super irritable mood in the afternoon. huimin got blasted off by me too. sorry gurl. oh no, i think i need to chill at times. cannot let irritation get the better of me. but anyways, everything's turning out fine.

but i feel kinda stressed out. oh my. i need to prioritize again. i have an access test on monday, which i am so gonna die. wp havent teach me yet!!!!! argggg. i need to ask someone else. i cannot!!! cannot!! die also cannot!!! fail access. so i'm gonna have to do something abt it and ask someone else. hai. and the effective project that weights 30% needs to be completed by next wednesday. but thank God my groupmates are no extreme slackers. i know they'll get it done. and if everything continues to go as planned, we should be able to compile everything and edit the report on monday, hopefully can get the full report in place nicely by tuesday. possible? i'm not sure. we'll try. hai, i'll continue with the proj after blogging. sigh. abit stressed out la. probably tts y my mood wasnt too good. plus some other stuffs. aaaaahhh. nvm, at least it keeps me sane. lolx. better than bumming around wasting my time. lolx. then exams are coming in less than 2 weeks. sigh. scared scared. i'm worried about business software applications. my gawd. i so have to pass access on monday. hai hai.

i'm alright with the examinable modules. but a little more worried for stats than the rest. there are tons of things to remember and stats alone is enough to fill my brain and i have no idea how am i gonna squeeze econs, marketing and accounts in it too. the sad thing is that i still have to do it. hahaaa. nvm la, just need to persevere for 1 more mth. and hopefully i can go on to year 2 with no problems. hahaa.

oh my. sometimes things get complicated because little mistakes adds up together and create a whole lot of misunderstandings. different people with different perspections and all that crap. well its not crap. but it complicates things. and the more we dwell on the complications, the bigger the problem gets. sometimes theres no need to dwell on anything too much i realised. but well, tts life. i do get fan nao over nothing as well. i hope i made sense. i'm not as stupid or innocent or a shallow thinker as some people think i am. well maybe sometimes i am. but dont take me as a fool. i'm simple-minded? i dont know. i might disappoint you if you think i am or maybe you might be right? who knows. i dont give a damn. but just dont be too sure of what you think. what you see is only half what you get.

.ruffles off.

23.2.05

heh heh. my ankle hurts so badly. actually it wasn't so bad in the morning. actually i didnt even feel anything much in the morning, just abit of numbness. now its hurting so like crazy. madness. its hurts even to stand!!!!!!!! aaaahhhhh. sob sob. haha.. i crazy already. hope it gets better tomorrow. maybe i walked too much today.

anyways, had effective writing presentation the first thing in the morning. went pretty well i can say. phewwwww.. so another project down!! haha. left econs tomorrow. oh shhoooooottttt!!!!!!! have to wear formal wear again. plus heels. hai. i was planning to wear flats tomorrow. sigh, its so mafan to bring change. have to carry everything around, plus the shoes. haha. haiya nvm la, see how.

hhhmmmmm..... then went to do econs proj in the e-plaza. we were almost done, just some editing of layouts and stuffs. so i machiam like wasted my time there. then walk around.. go kpo other groups. haha. help abit here and there. then ended up playing around again with jiajia they all. haha, i never fail to have my dose of laughter eevryday with them around!!! everyday theres just so much to laugh about, to play about, to joke about. and counting how many times i growl and stuck my tongue out has become a joyful and entertaining habit for them. so idoit. nvm, but i control myself. hahaa. i know when they'll start counting. but sometimes i let slip. lolx. then they'll be so happy. hahaa. madness. lolx.

well, exams are coming soon!!!!! aaaaaarggggggg. scared scared. gonna have access test next mon. i have no idea what's access about. but i'll find out man. i cannot afford to retake this module. can go kill myself if i retake this module man. sickening. hahaaa. aaaahhhh... access. oops. havent been paying attention in class la, i noe. hehe. nvm, i'll find out. hahaa.

ok, this post is so full so craps. haha. but nvm...... i'm bored. lolx. sigh, my ankel really hurts. sobs. lolx. anyways, huimin is much happier today. haha... see her like that, i also fang xin. but sigh. i learnt that happiness isnt forever. lolx. ok. before i get sappy......... ciao~ ;)

.ruffles off.

22.2.05

had a very very long day. got woken up before 10am by wp!!!! argggggg. tt guy arh. dunno whether to thank him or kill him. hahaa. my phone's clock is already set 7 mins earlier than the school's clock, and he actually woke me up before my alarm rang. which means that his timing is much much earlier than the school's. lolx. but i was still late. dont ask me why. i have no idea. well actually i went back to sleep after he woke me up. hahaaa. but i still woke up around 10:15am. but i have no idea why i'm still late. hehe.

well anyways, was late, so i decided to take cab again. aaaaaaaaarrrrrrggggggg. so i walked super fast and i sprained my ankle and almost fell. luckily i didnt fall. so maluated already. there were 2 person walking behind and i could hear their gasp. aahhhh. so paiseh. this is not my first time spraining my ankle while rushing to school. the stupid pathway that i have to cross is not flat. i dont understand why they dont wanna make it flat. think i'm gonna learn my lesson soon. CANNOT BE LATE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! late = waste money + sprain ankle. hai nvm.

then went to westmall's taxi stand and there were alot of taxis in the Q. the first one was the president cab or something. and i had to take tt one la, coz its the first cab in line. hahaa. at first i thought there would be some extra charge or something, but no leh. same pricing. haaaa. so i had a very enjoyable ride because i didnt get carsick!!!!!!!! hahaaa. so happy. i was quite a happy girl in the taxi. hahaa. no motion sickness at all. haha. super comfy and nice. feels exactly like the family car. the engines and tyres are smooth. doesnt jerk like the normal taxis. the taxi driver is nice too. lolx.

met jieying, jiajia and karkit at the atirum. huimin wasnt feeling well and the rest were doing proj. skipped stats tut, coz we didnt do hw and didnt wanna go there to waste time either. so we went to have our lunch at fj. shihui joined us after her proj coz she wanna skip stats too. haha. then the rest joined us later. as usual was playing and crapping around, taking photos. haha. then went for maketing lec. shes amazing man, skipped alot of slides and let us off very early at 3 plus. however!!!!!!!!!!!!! we had to wait till 5pm for the stupid counselling session with our PEM and JOWENAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaarrrrgggggggggggg.

stupid jowena neo. she's a proven nutcase. we felt so sorry for our PEM. poor woman. she's the softest person i've ever seen.. or heard. haha. well anyways, we were having lots of fun outside the staff room while both tutors so called counselled us one by one. hahaaa. damn funny la. laughed like mad. bth them. lolx. then we were complaining to whichever teacher we knew who walked past. hahaaa. seriously lor!!!!!!!!! its proven that every lecturer loves us except for jowena neo. she is the one with a prob. not us. teddy puar said his PEM class got into trouble with jowena neo too, but worse than us. they kenna director. oops. tts bad. count ourselves lucky. we played scissors paper stone to help us decide who is to go in first. karkit was the first. he isnt the type who would entertain her unreasonable assumptions, so he talked back and almost had the disciplinary form. gosh. tt woman is mad. if its not for our PEM and for the sake that he didnt wanna get debarment he wouldnt have given a damn. then next was zhihong, then huimin then jiajia. they went through practically the same thing. the usual stuffs. we learnt not to talk back. just agree with whatever she says and it get over and done with. that stupid woman talk so long till me and jieying had to wait till anothery day to hear her talk. aaaaarggggg. so irritating. qi si wo le. but not as qi si as jieying. she was real pissed.

then went for accounts tut. we complained to the tutor also. hahaa. told her we were traumatized. hahaa. stupid la. hai. nvm. hm.. had the usual tutorial. huimin went off first coz she had something on. tt gurl. hope everything will be fine soon.

then went for supper with the rest. stupid la they all. first they were counting how many times i stuck out my tongue last sem... then zhihong started the count how many times i growl. wha piang then they were ci ji-ing me to stick out my tongue and growl. hahahaa. so when i didnt fall for their trick, they started counting everything i did. shrugging my shoulders, hitting the table, laughing, coughing, my actions. hahahaa. they so evil la. idoits. but have to admit, i was very tempted to stick out my tongue and growl. but have to control hahaa. damn funny. lolx.

but i'm so tired already. came back and completed effective writing proj. my goodness, its so last min work, but luckily still managed to get it done with richard online. haha. been doing projects online most of the time. but it works pretty well for us. haha.

life's good at times, sometimes it isnt. life's ok for me. but i have moodswings recently. so terrible. nvm. think is pms. haha. but life's not too good for some of my friends. sigh, hope things will turn better soon. hai so sleepy. i have to go sleep before i fall real sick. the haze isnt helping much. its getting worse. aaaahh headache man.

.ruffles off.

20.2.05

haha, i'm surprised its only 10:40pm now. its such a long day. woke up with a sorethroat and abit of a temperature. hai. had a headache the entire day. i'm not gonna stay up so late already. cannot take it.

eileen asked me out for lunch, and i really dont wanna disppoint her again. she say i bo xim already. so sad lor. not that i dont wanna meet her, but really no fate with her. arggg, nvm. so i went to meet her at westmall. at first was a bit awkward because we really havent met for like a million light years since her panick attack at mc. plus i'm kinda disappointed with her over something else. we went foodcourt to have our lunch and the place was super packed. well anyways, we warmed up a little more, and chatted like the old times. talked about her work and... other stuffs. heh. her darling is going NS soon. then walked around westmall, and we looked for colour straws because i wanna fold hearts. haha. i have to stop stealing straws from mcdonalds. so paiseh. lolx. then time flew past, and i had to go. i needed to complete my projects. didnt do much yesterday coz i was chatting with somebody online yesterday night thats why i slept so darn late. but its worth it. so i had to make up the time lost today by completing everything today. went to my aunt's house for visiting. borrowed my cousin's computer and did my proj there. haha. my cuzzie was studying for an exam too. came home and completed the rest. my brain juice are drained to the last drop. i changed my mind. i dont like to do projects. urg. but i feel accomplished and satisfied when everything's done and in place. well, who doesnt right? lolx. anyways, hehe.. i wrote a poem. reason being.. i cant say.

hearing the truths
is like a slap in the face
my head is spinning
my hands are trembling

is this the way
to clear the mess
my heart once made?

the time is ripe
but i'm not prepared
unexpectedly
it came like a wave
toppling me over
and guilt drenches me
but now i know
its a life lesson learnt

counting my blessings
i got lost in them
the rainbow appears
the barrier destroyed

so freely now
back into the past
a heavy load
off the heart

communication's soft and sweet
a friendship
no more no less
like a fire
once almost extinguished
is now roaring
with happiness dancing in its flame

righting the wrong
in this game of love
is never a mistake
for both to make

.ruffles off.

19.2.05

haha... its a happy day~ i'm pretty much back to the old me!!!!!!!! and i'm so happy. lolx. you know what, i think i love doing projects. haha. not love la. thats alittle crazy. lolx. i just dont hate doing projects. lolx.

anyways, went to do proj in the morning at e-plaza. haha.. but i didnt really do alot of work. machiam like waste my time there. did alot of stupid quizzes with jieying and karkit. hahahaa. tt kk so gay lor, did some 'what kind of bra are you' quizz. bwhahahaa. super hilarious. he's supposed to be er....sexy. everything a guy lusts for. bwhahaha. funny idoit la. the worst one was 'what kind of panties are you' quizz. wha piang. its so stupid la. kk's one was ultra sexy and sensual, then me and jy kenna some old lace undies. so unromantic. wth?? lolx.

ok enough of crap. lolx. we have a presentation on monday ahhh. guess it wouldnt be as maluating as last sem, coz now at least we all got used to each other already. some teachers bth our class..especially our econs tutor. hahaaa.. she looks like she gave up on us already. the accounts lecturer too!! lolx. but she trust that we wont fail. lolx. so she more lax abit. hehe.

well i went to JP to meet florence there today. before that i met the tkd pple la, coz they had dunno wad weight thing at ntu lolx. anyways, so shocked with the things she told me la. to cut the long post short: guys cannot be trusted too much.

.ruffles off.

18.2.05

woke up at 6:30am and i thought i was gonna be late. haha. jiajia gave me a morning call at 6am tho. but i was still very much in lala land. haha. but luckily my brain didnt fail me. jolted up when i remembered that i've got a 8am lecture. then rushed la. almost forgot to bring my hp. wanted to take a cab, but since its still early and i might make it to school on time, i banished that thought. i've been taking cabs to school recently, because i keep waking up late. haha. take sumore cabs and i'm gonna go broke soon. not cheap leh. 12 to 13 bucks from bukit batok to yio chu kang. lolx.

then saw the peeps still waiting for the rest to come. whoa.. was so sleepy. i almost fell asleep on the train also.

then went for accounts lecture. for the first time in my entire life that i wasn't late for accounts lecture, something bad had to happen. haha. actually it was our own fault la, but the way she handled it made us so pissed. haha. actually she gave us a 10 mins break but we gave ourselves a 25 mins break at mcdonalds. oops. then we were comtemplating whether to return to the lecture hall or not. then we decided to slip in quietly. bad choice. then while we were doing lecture exercise, she came over and you know what la. gosh. she's damn drama lor. say what, she's deeply grieved that we were late. my goodness. we're so NOT dead, she didnt have to grieve for us. and she used alot of BIG words too. my gawd, question marks were floating above our heads. then she nag nag nag nag nag nag and nag. bth. then she took our name and admin no. and complained to our PEM la. aaaaaarggg. my PEM called us to see her on tuesday. hope the stupid accounts lecturer wont be around. my PEM is nicer to talk to. haha. if not we're gonna get to hear more naggings and hear her talk about her 'dao lis'.

she said dont care what other lecturers do when we go to their lectures late, but she has to do something.. blah blah. whatever. for your information, we dont take long breaks in other lecturers class. we do it in her lecture only. thats because her class is total bore. accounts isn't a very interesting subject on its own, then plus the way she teach, gosh, frankly speaking, i haven't paid attention since the first lecture. i was even trying to write poems today while she was teaching. imagine how boring her class can get when i can shut myself off totally and try to get inspirations. ok, back to point..whenever we have tests, we study on our own, and still can understand and PASS and with FLYING COLOURS summore. well, thats for the first test la. havent gotten back the 2nd ICA so i have no idea. but basically whether we go for accounts lecture or not. it doesnt matter. and i dont mean that we're smart people. its just that accounting for assests is damn simple. anyone can do it, not just us.

ok. enough of complaining. seeing red already. lolx. but the rest of the day went pretty well. haha. after accounts was econs. the teacher is so sweet lor. comparing the two of them, they are like total opposites. like a princess and a witch? haha. oops. ok then went to access lab to compile our marketing project. phew. the tough part is finally done!!! just need to tidy up the presentation tomorrow. and we have to go school early coz the stupid labs closes early on saturdays. then then rushed off to e-plaza to do econs project. heh heh. its almost done too!!! haha. then went for dinner cum lunch with huimin, jieying and jiajia at northpoint. and naturally the topic of the day was the accounts lecturer la. lolx.

i feel so ultra satisfied. contented. fulfilled. whatever you call it right now. haha. its been ages since i last slogged so hard. oh my, and i'm really really really really really glad that i did. i'm happy that i feel so tired. heh? sounds weird. but nvm, i've never had such a fullfilling day since last semester?? stress but so what, at least i know its normal and i'm not slacking. and the best part is it occupies my mind totally. coz i dont have time to get lost in my own thoughts, and at the end of the day, i'm just so freakishly tired. but happy. and i like it this way. but i know if it happens all the time, i'll probably be zombified everday. haha. but for now, its what i need. its what i need to stay happy and contented. and perharps, thoughts free. ;) so nites...

.ruffles off.

17.2.05

i feel so physically drained. but yet, i'm feeling happier and more satisfied than before. haha. that sounds like madness, but its true. haha, now i know why some people bury themselves with work when they're unhappy. it takes their minds off things. maybe i should do that too. then i wont waste my time away doing nothing but thinking of uneccessary rubbish and killing my own mood and then add fuel onto the already complicated things that we have to face everyday and then miss out the joy in life. hahaa.. smart theory heh? hahaa.. lolx, kidding. but its better this way that i'm physically drained than emotionally drained. haha. at least i feel like i'm back in control of myself, not letting emotions control me instead. haha. i realised when my heart is in control of me, everything's blurred, emotions pretty much controls my mood, my character, my thinking, the way i carry myself. makes me temperamental, emotional and unhappy. urrrrrg. tt sucks. now that my head is in control instead, everything seems clear, i can think properly, reasonably and logically, and i feel more confident? haha. and i really feel happier. lolx. haha.. i feel like the old me. phewwww. like somewhat back in place of where i should be. haha.. dont really care if it makes sense or not.

i'm tired. physically. emotionally i feel recharged. haha. then what about spiritually? erm. not doing well at all. i backslided again.

well i just spent my entire day doing work. well almost entire la. but its a nice change. haha. quite exciting huh. except when it comes to doing the reports. wah, big headaches man. need to think think think and think. even worse when i got mental block. lolx. but nvm la, put a few heads together and we get things done. yay~! lolx. haha.. i quite like doing project with richard!!! hahahaa.. he helps me ALOT man. wonderful~ lolx.

ok, i'm too lazy to type anymore. and i think i'm gonna get cock eye soon from staring too much into the computer screen. haha.

.ruffles off.

16.2.05

hm...... realised i've been blogging faithfully everyday since the 10th of feb. dont know why either. madness la. gosh, having quite a day today. actually i blogged in the afternoon while idling in school. but i decided to reblog, coz i'm feeling so aaarrrgggg right now.

first, i mixed up my timetable. thought my class starts at 11am. so i set my alarm at 9am. then huimin called me at 9am and asked me where am i. gosh. then i realised my class ends at 11am, not starting at 11am. aaarrgggggg. my gawd. when can i not be so blur? pple always say i'm blur. think i wanna be blur also huh.. no lor. sometimes i get myself into alot of trouble too coz of my blurness you know?!? aaaarggg. the stupid rigid SBM rules aint helping either.

nvm..... then i went school around 11am to do project. was doing report with richard. haha. tt guy funny la. crappy king sia. haha.. but i no mood to blog what he did. lolx. but realised he's quite a cutie. BUT dont let your thoughts stray. he's a cutie because of his crappiness and his erm.. cute tootness. i'm not mocking.. i'm serious. lolx. well, then we somehow managed to analyse some of the survey questions. having some metal block these few weeks. cant seem to think of anything to write whenever i'm required to. but can think of a lot of rubbish when i'm not required to la. grrrr..

then took the train with jy around 3 plus. tt gurl went to meet her bf for lunch. lucky gurl la, not many people can see their dears dears as often as she does, and so convieniently summore. lolx. saw this couple on the way back. cute couple la. the girl very cute. lolx.

came home.. continued doing the analysis for a while, then i went to play the piano. haha. cannot stand the temptation. my piano also gonna spoil already la!!!!!!!!!!! argggggggg. actually spoiled already. some keys sound muffled. need more than just tuning already. arrrrg. idoit. the tuner recommended me to get a new piano. but i like my piano. its been with me for 10 over years already. i like the touch too!! not too light, not too heavy either. the sound is not the best, but i'm used to it already. dont care la, i'll take whatever it is to repair it -that is- when i have enough $$$. the tuner says it would cost as much as a new one. my parents dont want to send it for repair coz they say its still playable and sounds normal. but its distracting when certain keys sound muffled. oh wells, for now, i can only settle with a less than perfect piano. till i bth one day.. we'll see.

then someone came to fix my computer today. wah piang. took so long. but that's because my computer is totally screwed already. my dad's one too. both kenna virus. alamak. so irritating. he took my dad's com back to repair first coz i still have projects to complete!!!!! oh my goodness. my computer better better not die out on me this 2 weeks!!! argggggg. and i've been at the report almost the entire afternoon and i havent got it done yet. arg. qi si wo le!!! so what am i doing here???? taking a breather from the word mcdonalds. and i realised mcdonalds is spelt as McDonald's when i did this project. not MacDonald's. i've always thought its MacDonald's. haha.

my gawd. my eyes are so tired. i swear i could have slept on the sofa while tt guy was fixing my com. but i had to watch him la, later dont know what's going on. i'm so tired. slept pretty late last night. oops. cant' get to sleep recently. coz i've been thinking about alot of things. been doing alot of reflections. haha. abit lost recently. but i'll get over it man. think i've been too slacked man, tts why my brain can anyhow wander. well with so much work to be done, think can occupy my mind for a while and stop my brain from wandering further. gotten back some ICAs which havent been satisfying. i have to start studying for exams. i really dont wanna repeat modules man. havent been paying attention in class either. esp accounts and IT. arg shoot, i have to get a grip on school work.

the after effect of the tsunami thingy is terrible la. thousands of people are still missing, probably buried somewhere under the sea already. goodness. may God be with those families. sigh. watched the news, a primary school boy who is still missing from the disaster, his classmates, they celebrated his birthday today. my gawd. so touching. a bithday is supposed to be a joyous thing, but his mom and classmates are like crying lor. hai..... so sad. see already also heart pain. tsk tsk. hai.

i used to say this in secondary school: LIFE IS UNPREDICTABLE

life is indeed unpredictable.

.ruffles off.

15.2.05

hahaa... hows v'day for everyone??? still remember those days in fairfield, whether if you're single or attached, either you would get a little something for your friends or your friends would give you a little something. you even get gifts from not so close friends. people exchange gifts of love representing friendships all over school. i think tts so sweet, very family family like. whether if you're single or attached, you'll feel loved. love practically floats in the air. hahaa. its totally different from poly man. i see only couples enjoying valentines. urrrrggggggg. machiam like no love between friends. haha. well i didnt get anything for my classmates too la. haha. dont know why also. dont have tt kinda valentine feel with them. hahaa. dont know if they do that back in their own schools. i think they do la. dont know. lolx. almost kenna depression yesterday man. for the first time in my entire life... the idea of going out disgusts me. my gawd. i see lovey dovey duos walking around. hahaa. eeeee-yeeerr. oops. dont say i'm having sour grapes coz i'm not. and the idea of love is scary. jerks are all over the place and like i can't remember who said... good guys are either married, attached or dead. lolx. sorry if i'm sterotyping, but its true. cases after cases of guys breaking my girlfriend's heart happens. man, one story after another. really scares me. yikes! oops. tsk tsk. ok anyways, enough of that. haha.. sorry for that outburst. oops. tt only happens when guys become your boyfriend. but as friends, they're great.

ok. really enough i know. i have to shut up before anyone starts a debate with me.

sigh, i really miss fairfield!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! more like fairsians la. they're simply the ones i cannot afford to lose. like what lijia said, friends from poly have only seen the surface of me. friends from fmss have seen the good and bad side of me. tsk tsk. dont asumme you know me till you really know me. haha. there aint many people who actually knows me in poly. probably just my clique and a couple more. others only know me as the medeline on the surface. hai. and the same goes to me la. i only know them as them on the surface. theres more about them i dont know. theres more about me they dont know. man, now i realise why new friends dont last very long. they dont go deep into the roots. everything happens so quickly. theres no time to get to know the one deep inside. the real person. yikes.

i'm tired. i'm tired from knowing new friends. once you start a friendship, you dont know if you can keep it or not. whether anything might happen to change it, to enlarge the gap between the two of you. be it guy or gurl. and especially that someone is a complicated someone. man, just feel like withdrawing from it.

i miss those times in fairfield. fairfield.fairfield.fairfield.fairfield. tsk tsk. can never forget man. its the people la. the people we call FAIRSIANS. haha. anyways, i love them. i really do. yea and i miss qtmk so much. stupid gals. all seem so busy. dont forget we have a date this weekend. probably might go back to fmss for gb next fri with qian n yenping. well, i'll see how it goes. so many teachers are gone, so many new students i dont recognize. hm.. but i really miss fmss la!!!!!! aaaargggggg. just wanna go crazy with them again. go chalet with 2e again. play n talk rubbish with 6d again. gossip and catch up with qtmk again. meet pple from fairfield and see how they're doing. pple like sylvia, lijia, angeline, andrew...... blah blah blah blah blah. those close n not close one. haiya, just everyone la. i'm going nuts already. grrrrr. alright la. spare you all frm my rantings.... haha.. tata~

.ruffles off.

14.2.05

happy valentines to everyone~ have a lovely day.

haa.. having effective oral com in the lab again. supposed to be doing project. my group's doing music. gosh, i'm feeling so lazy. my groupmates are too. hahaa.. well, we'll get it done somehow one way or another. i'm feeling so half hearted about sch work man. and exams are coming. oh no. argg.

listening to melodies of life and i'm pretty much half wandering in dreamland already. imagine a vast grassland sitting on a hill.. something like a scenario out of the book heidi. cool weather, clear blue sky with cotton clouds floating above, the place peaceful and calm.. occasionally lovebirds and butterflies would twitter past. haaaaa ok, i'm dreaming. but sometimes it happens to me when i play the piano, my fingers would play and my brain brings me to another place. tt happens especially for exam peices. haha. play until sian, i wouldnt know if i made mistakes either. lolx. haiya, dont know how to describe. hahaaa. and i hate it when pple talk to me while i'm on the piano. make me lose concentration, lose the mood. then i dont feel like playing already.

sigh, to stay-breeze is a nice song too. the lyrics are nice. recommended for singles who are falling in love with another person but dont know what to do. just for today- its valentines.

the sch's msn very laggy. i dont know who messaged me. dont even know what's my status.

hm.. from this moment is nice too. suitable for people who are getting married. lolx. projects an image of two dolphines, outta the waters, soaring through the sky. hahaaaaa. a blissful image. lolx. gosh, hahaa.. madness. ok i better stop it before pple say i'm crazy. lolx.

ok.. gonna go for another class already. IT class. urg. gonna have to do powerpoint project on mcdonalds. hahaa.

.ruffles off.

13.2.05

waaaaahhhhh. guess how am i gonna spend valentines this year. argggggg. my parents wanna date me out. ............................. rite. i can't help dotting. i havent given them an answer yet. i know what's their motive la. wanna check if i have a bf or not. whatever. i'm seriously irritated with them. they can just go on the date by themselves. i'm not gonna join them.

my computer is on the verge of death. either my com is infected with a not so malicious virus that doesnt exactly kills my com, but just screws my files up or something else. i dont know. its so l a g g y. i have to wait like 10 secs whenever i open something. and the shut down function doenst seem to work. it doenst shut down when i click shut down. tt happened yesterday night. the windows troubleshoot thingy opens on its own, and it doenst open 1 window only, i think more than 10 windows were opened lor. i closed all of them, and even more windows popped up. aaaarrrrrrrggggggg. what's happening man. i wonder what's gonna come next. tsk tsk. can't imagine. if i dont appear online for a few days. you'll know what happened to me. haha. hai. stupid computer.

hm.. my group's using mcdonalds for our marketing proj. man, they're good at turning the tables, they made it sound like they serve the healthiest food.

Read this:
The A to Z of Healthy Eating

An Apple a day keeps the doctor away. Grab an apple at McDonald's today!

Only 100% Beef is used in our burger beef patties. No fillers, additives, preservatives. Only pepper and salt are added during grill cooking.

Calcium is abundant in the cheese served in our Cheeseburger, Filet-O-Fishâ„¢ and Sausage McMuffinâ„¢.

Desserts needn't be sinful - a 3oz Ice Cream Cone has 150 calories, far less than a serving of ice kacang.

Eggs of grade "A" quality are used in all Breakfast menu items.

Food safety is a top priority for McDonald's. It is our long-standing commitment to ensure our customers enjoy the best quality foods that's unfailingly safe for consumption.

GoActiveâ„¢ - get movin', get groovin', get active, get fit!
Healthy eating at McDonald's is possible with Balance, Moderation and Variety.

I am what I eat.

Junk food is a plate of calorie-laden chicken rice. We know you get more good out of a Big Macâ„¢ - it has 25% less calories.

Kill the sauces if you must, and we will gladly oblige.

Less is more - McDonald's offers a choice of serving sizes so you choose how much you want to eat.

Moderation is everything. So eat, but eat in moderation.

Nine or more nutrients including a host of B vitamins, protein, calcium, potassium can be found in a Happy Meal, according to the US food and Drug Administration.

Omega-3-fatty acids are naturally found in the premium white fish used in our Filet-O-Fishâ„¢ and Fish McDippersâ„¢.

Protein-packed Breakfasts are a great start to the day - and a handy Sausage McMuffinâ„¢ with Egg promises just that.

Prime cuts of Quality chicken are specially chosen for our popular Chicken menu items such as McChickenâ„¢ and McNuggetsâ„¢.

Russet Burbank variety potatoes are behind the ultimate taste of our world-famous Fries.

Sodium content in our Fries, pickles and Hotcakes have been reduced by 20-30%, without compromising on taste.

Great Taste at McDonald's starts with 100% quality ingredients.

U may ask for more vegetables with your next serving of McChicken - just try.

100% Vegetable oil is used to cook our Fries and other foods.

Wheat flour containing high protein is used in our locally-baked hamburger buns.

Xtra care is taken at McDonald's to ensure the best quality ingredients are sourced from the world's trusted brands, the same ones which you buy for your family too.

Kids can now choose low-fat Yoghurt as a side item in their Happy Meals. To Mom's absolute delight, of course!

Zero in on your dietary needs, and practise Balance, Variety and Moderation at all times!

i really wonder if all marketers are delusional or what. am i gonna be one next time? whahaa. lolx. obviously mcdonalds isnt healthy at all. you know i know everybody knows.

hahaa.. stupid la. lolx. gonna go back to school tmr. still in a holiday mood actually. luckily i've got wonderful classmates. hahaa. alright.. i'm off to explore more of mc donalds brain washing delusional webpages. tata~

.ruffles off.

12.2.05

heh heh... really wondering how is new year for everybody???? mine's rather fun filled i guess. went out again with chris, kl and marcus yesterday after school in the afternoon. practically spent my entire day with them. went to kster, coz kl had some vouchers. the place is rather unique... there were no seats and we sat on the carpeted floor but there were lots of pillows... hahaa, very cosy. took quite alot of pics there... they were taking all sorts of funny pics. haha. stayed there till about 8pm then we went to have dinner at some place. haha. was supposed to have porridge at the famous porridge stall there.. but they were closed. then we walked around... and settled down at some dim sum stall. the food there isnt nice... kinda bland. and their service's kinda sucky too, xcept for the owner of the shop la... speaks with an accent, very friendly, but his staff's attitude cannot make it. kl was complaining if she were the owner she would have sacked them already. hahaaa.. and marcus treated all of us to both the kster and dinner coz tt guy, won alot of $$$ at majiong. whoa.. lolx.

hm.... then walked to clark quay... esplanade... then visited river angbao. haha.. nothing much there either, the usual basar malam stuffs. there were a few interesting stuffs there tho, like this guy from dunno where can blow using dont know what into the shapes of animals. hahahaa. walkwalk seesee then went home. haha. had quite a fun day with them. haha.

and my dad called me yesterday just to tell me not to spend valentines with guys. aaaaaarrrrrggggggg. give up man. qi si wo le. lolx.

anywaysss...... gotta go meet my classmates soon!!! haha.. we'll be heading to huimin' house for dinner~!! her mummy's prepared steamboat for us. kinda miss tt gurl man.. she wasn't in school yesterday coz she was in m'sia. supposed to go catch constatine with the rest before going her house, but it was cancelled. then florence asked me if i wanted to go shopping. heh. couldnt go la, my dad wasn't happy i didnt call yesterday night. so to prevent him from nagging further, its best not to go out. haha. but i miss her. havent seen her for a long time already where we used to meet almost everyday a few months ago. ooooooh~ just realised i havent met qtk for new yearrrr!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaaa...... i miss them LOTS LOTS LOTS. hahahaa.. ok anywayssss. ciao~

.ruffles off.

11.2.05

whoooooaaa, dont know why am i blogging at 10am in the morning, but heck... i can't sleep anymore. been getting up late these few days. gonna have to go school later. hm...... i had a pretty fun new year this year. haha.. i totally forgot about school. haha. hm... lets see...

1st day:
went to er jiu jiu home, practically slacked my day through in the garden with my cousins, niece and newphews. haha. man, they've all grown up!!!!!!!! noisy sia! hahaa.. cannot handle so many kids at once. they seem to have unlimited energy inside of them. i got quite tired just by playing, carrying and trying to take their photo for like 20 mins only? whoa. they're the ones running around but i seem to be the one getting tired. hahaaa. but that's kids la, guess everyone were like this too. hahaha. sent a few mms to my email. probably will upload them later. hehex. i think i'm getting better at taking care of kids man!!! haha.. somehow i can 'communicate' with them. whahaaha. haha. baby talk. hm.... lolx.

quite a few hilarious stuff happened. had a blackout twice, and at that point, me and 2 other cousins were sitting on the swing in the garden and we could hear the kids screaming upstairs la when the blackout happened. hahaha. i had a feeling they were screaming for the sake of screaming, but it was very funny la. then me and my cousins were happily taking photos. lolx.

my couins are all getting married too!!!!! haha, one got married last year, and when the kids saw him and his wife they were screaming ang bao from him. whahaaa. funny la... the innocence of children really cracks me up. hahaa... well, they're all living a happy n blissful life. tho certain unfortunate stuffs did happen last year in the family.

2nd day:
woke up pretty late and my dad's side of the relative came over to visit in the morning. gosh, so shocked sia. they came from m'sia. and my stupid dog was barking her head off. then my aunty came to visit and we went over to another uncle's house with my aunty. the adults were playing majiong as usual la, then a few of my cousins went off to set up a table too, then left a few of us with the xbox. hahaa.. my couisn so cute lor, she was playing halo or something with another of my cousin (yongquan) and she really cannot make it la! for 3/4 of the time she was searching for my cousin. hahaha.. so it was like a one man show for yongquan. she was damn hilarious la. first she cannot find her gun, then she lost her way, then she had no idea who's her alliance and kept shooting at my cousin. whhaaha. then she throw grenade she also dunno she threw a grenade. then she had difficulty getting up the stairs!!! haha, i had quite a time laughing at her sillyness in a cute sense la. lolx. but i'm equally sucky at such games. hahaa. but i really had a time laughing my head off. lolx.

then had dinner and then i flew off to meet chris, kl and marcus. oops. guess i was pretty late.die la, i've got this bad habit of being late. oopssss. then the stupid marcus tricked me sia. told me they at long john, but actually they were at bk. i didnt realise till i read kl's blog just now. idoit. hahaa.. anyways, then we went to the europe fun fair at woodlands!! hahaa.. surpirsed surprised~! lolx. actually i didn't plan to take on the rides. i thought i could just watch while they go ride them or something. but i still ended up taking 2 rides with them. aaaaaaaarrrrrrggggggggg. dont know if its fun or not. ahahaha. no comments. just that i really cannot take it la. my gawd. i clung onto the bar for my dear life on one of the rides till i'm having muscle ache right now. whahaa. gosh, it was quite an experience tho i'm not sure if i dare to ride any of these kind again. aaaaaarggggg. then kl and chris went to take another ride which kl said was the most satisfying one among all. marcus didnt get on because he didnt' want to get stucked with the lovebirds, so he stayed on the ground with me. lolx. then there was this particular game stall with lions and tigers as prizes. gosh, the white tiger was so pretty. marcus and chris did try their luck at that stall, but oh wells, its not so easy after all!! haha. but still appreciate their effort to go play tt game la. but thats because they said they'll try to go get the soft toy after i take the 2nd ride with them. hahahaa.

then went to the mrt to sit and talk abit bah. haha. or more like gossip. or more like only me and kl gossiped. hahaa.. what to do, girls will be girls. dont try to tell us to ssssssshhhhhh. we'll talk more. lolx. but dont worry la, we know our limits. hm..... we were sitting on the ground and unfortunately i wore a skirt la, she was so scared i'll get exposed. hahaa.. relax la..... cannot see one. lolx. i nearly wanted to lie down and sleep there. hahaaa, abit not so glam la, but i couldn't care less. i'm quite sick of having to be gentle and ladylike all the time. haha. but anyways, yesterday night reminds me of the times i had in 2e chalets where we will go watch sunrise. haha. hm...... miss 2e alot actually.

hm....... then chatted quite a bit la. haha, abit shocked by certain news. lolx. but its the time spent with those 3 peeps that counts bah. see chris n kl so en ai, i feel kinda wen xin. hahaa. omg, sorry for the outburst of hanyu pinyin. hehex. anyways, wish you two the most blessed blessings from ME bah. hahaa. ;)

hm.... got a feeling marcus was observing everyone. gathering infomation of people's character and personality huh. hhmmmmmm...... quoting from kl's blog 'i still like observing people rather than being observe'. haha. anyways, i had fun with the 3 of them. it was really nice to hangout with kl again after so long. i love her so much. muhwhaha. lolx.

.ruffles off.

10.2.05

u bent het eerste en laatste ding op mijn mening door de dag. ik kan het helpen niet ik probeer niet te denken. ik probeer de andere manier te kijken en op me te vertrouwen I am. maar.. hoop ik nog dat elke vraag en sms ik zouden zijn van u zijn stomme zijn enkel een verbrijzeling ontvangen en ik om over het zal proberen te krijgen vertrouw op me, zal ik proberen maar ik ben het benieuwd zijn, benieuwd zijnd of ben ik overgevoelig of ben waar het dat u iets? ook voelt. het antwoord ik zo bang ben te weten een deel van me wil weten een deel van me ook bang is, dat u te weten zult komen ik van u ik niet ga houd dat laten gebeuren. ik houd van de manier wij ik om om het even wat dont geen verandering meer gelieve te vragen de manier zijn wij traktatie me de manier zijn u niet bent bang wie bent te zijn u gebruikte, wat u niet ophoudt me voelt goed gelieve te behandelen. als u denkt houd ik van u ook, gelieve te vertellen me maar ik weet ik droom. zo enkel ben wie u bent niet omdat ik zal zuchten veranderen, is de bodemlijn nog: laat aard zijn course.and nemen ik op de dalende sterren dit wens.

hahaaaaa...... feeling cranky...... lolx. anyways... happy CNY to all!!!! happy figuring it out, that is- if you do bother to. lolx. :p hm...... and if you somehow got it figured out, let me know alright?! hahaaa.... cheers to all~

.ruffles off.

8.2.05

wwweeeeeeeetttt! hahaaa.... its CNY again!!! whoaaaaaaa... time really flies man!!!! i know i repeated that like a million times, but TIME REALLY FLIES!!!!! its so quick. its chinese new year again. hahaa.. its the year of the rooster rite?? or roaster? think is rooster. my english is terrible now la. so forgive me. but my chinese is improving like mad!! haha.. anyways.... just wanna wish everyone a really blessed year ahead!! gong xi fa cai!!! lolx.

ooh~ i'm so in love with the canto songs marcus sent. the dialect n the tunes seem to fit perfectly. hm.. never knew canto songs were this beautiful. really. should go listen to it one day. karkit was surprised i had canto songs in my mp3 haha.

hmmmm....... tmr gonna go my uncle's house. still remember we used to go our grandparent's house on the first day of chinese new year before both of them went to heaven. nvm. they left a long time ago.. yea.. a long time ago. but i miss them.

hm............ i can so imagine the qi fen tmr. lolx.... everyone's gonna be so chirpy.. happy.. haha.. all the familiar faces.. my cousins.. my aunty and uncles... my niece and nephews... chinese new year wont be the same without them. coz i practically spend every new year with my relatives.. taking turns to visit each other at our homes. every year the same thing... same houses, same faces, but i dont get sick of it. this is something that wont change for a long time. its been this way since the day me and my cousins were born. except that they get married one by one la..... hahaha.

ok anyways..... just wanna wish everyone xing nian kuai le again! ;) take care!! have fun and ENJOY~!!!!!! oh yea.. and dont forget abt the ang baos!! haha..!!

.ruffles off.

7.2.05

dunno wad to blog. i just feel like writing something here. i hear a song. the tunes forms a picture of you in my head. hm.... interesting huh? hm.. i dont like it though. the feeling is not very nice. it makes me moody. NVM!! i dont wanna think already. guys guys guys. guys are jerks. haha.. no la. guys are very good buddies to have. and i like it. but that's only when no extra feelings are involved. agree?

i try not to cross that line myself. i try n try n try n try. but its so difficult to keep myself away. i always toe that line a little. only with certain pple la! sigh, its quite tong ku to keep jumping back and then cross the line again when feelings come. then have to jump back again. then draw near the line again. then jump back again. haha. sounds comical to myself, but its true ok. and i'm so tired. so tired of keeping myself from stepping into the forbidden land of love. i can conclude that cupid's aiming not accurate one. always shoot at the wrong person. even if he shot at the right one, he doesnt shoot the arrow deep enough, then the fear of many things stops me from plunging the arrow deeper, then lo and behold!!! the arrow falls off on its own after sometime. -.-

so theres no such a thing as eternal love. besides the love from God. humans are hua xin creatures, never contented with the person they have. tsk tsk.

tts y i stay in the comfort of friends!!! hahaa...

i'm in such a crappy mood. really crap. i feel like crap too. feeling halfway in between moody and happy. oooh, this is lame. sigh.

alright, enuff of such sappy stuffs. bottom line's still: let nature take its course.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH! shucks!!! so irritating!!!!!!!! doing microsoft access now. typed a whole lot of stuff out and then i closed the damn window. arrrrgggggg. hate it when such things happens. arg. qi si wo le.

hahahaa.... realised i'm not the only one who made that mistake. hahaa.. heard a "f***" somewhere. jieying also closed the window accidently. lolx. quite funny. whahaahhaaa. another one.. huimin also closed her window!! bwhahaha. funny leh!!!! lolx. one after another. lolx.

AAAAARRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. sometimes IT class really kills me. the table is finding fault with me too!! scratched me twice already. haha.. ;) ok i go off already. dunno wads happening in class le.

.ruffles off.

5.2.05

I don't need a heartache
And crushes can be so fake
Sooner than you know it
They turn your world around
You might think i'm crazy
When i don't want red roses
I'd rather have you promise
To never let me down
I don't wanna fall in love
I try and try but then we get emotional
Oh i don't need a hit and run
Don't tell me we were only having fun

Kinda like your sweet talk
And that could make a good start

But if you wanna move me
Play it straight with my heart
I don't wanna fall in love
I try and try but then we get emotional
Oh i don't need a hit and run
Don't tell me we were only having fun

So maybe you're the one
Who gets me going on
But i'm not waiting for a star to fall
You gotta treat me right
And be my knight in white
That's so emotional

Oh emotional x3

So emotional

emotional - mikaila

its so true..... so true...

haha.. angeline sent me that song coz she thought it kinda fits me right now. haha.. yea.. i agree actually. hm...she's gonna leave nyp already and study in st fransis methodist college or something. we went out yesterday and caught finding neverland. the starting is kinda boring, but once the story gets rolling, its very nice actually. quite touching. its about people believing and making wonders. a movie that will invoke you to think la.

hmm.. listening to the cantonese songs marcus sent... very nice. sounds kinda sad leh. its get me so emotional. lolx. but its really nice. the tunes stirs me heart.

hm... gonna work on the marketing project after blogging. theres 3 projects to be done. think we're gonna be quite busy with tests and projects due the week after next. dont even know if i can persevere in tkd. arg. kinda like one leg in one leg out of it already. hmmmmmm.... we'll see bah. me and her worked something out tho. i'm not sure we will work out well from now onwards. i have no idea. i hope so. i'm not very sure. think time will tell. she's going through quite a rough patch. whoa, i should back down a little i guess. sigh, headche. but i feel insecure when when i dont understand what people are thinking. but i guess i did think a little bit too much on my part. stupid. shouldnt have. nvm. haha, shouldnt have been so quick to judge, but i do have the tendency to judge people quickly. dunno why, but i cant help it either. feel abit guilty. i'm sorry. haha. ok la, before i start whining further, i go do my project already. tata~

.ruffles off.

2.2.05

hm.... had a rather long day today. went to school at 9am for effective writing test. well, it was kinda crappy. hope i didn't write too much, i didn't bother to count the words, but i think guess it should be around the acceptable range la. hope its not out of point either. and one good news!!!!!! hahaaa... scored full marks for accounts ICA 1. hahaaa.. surpirse surprise...are you surprised? haha.. well, i am~!! well, usually i score really well for the first ICAs and then start flunking the rest. gonna have accounts ICA 2 next week. die la, haven't been paying attention in accounts class. i think i'll start studying accounts this sat. or maybe tomorrow la. hehex. i dont wanna fail accounts. i'd die if i fail this module. *CHOY*. i wont even retake any modules.

then went fj for lunch with the usual people. then had effective make up class. we went to the classroom early and found aloy and geoff there. then we drew on aloy's cast. he fractured his shin (however you spell it) while playing soccer. so poor thing sia. the cast so huge. all the way up to the thighs, and he has to use crutches. hahaha. jieying wrote "see wad see, next one is you" at the back of his cast. hahaaha. so whoever looks at his leg from the back would see that message lor. hahaaa. so funny la. if some ahbeng reads that, he prolly might get beaten up! hahaa. but dont think he'll walk around much too either. the cast looks so heavy summore. lolx. then the class ended early coz i guess the teacher gave up on us already. lolx.

then had accounts make up lecture. aaaaarg. dont like accounts. dont like the teacher too. but one funny thing that we noticed is that she teach until very agitated one. hahaa. and she'll say something... go one BIG round.. come back.. and then we still have to slowly register and make out her point. so no comments. i wasn't even paying attention. the lecturer ended her class early too, coz she had sore throat. haha. good thing tho. haahaa.. kidding. then we had quite a difficult time deciding what we wanna do after that. to go amk play pool or go somewhere to sit and chat and makan. decided on mac in school in the end. had another chat chat session there. lolx. huimin was psychoing some yr 3s to go dinner and dance when they came over to ask us help them fill some forms. hahaa.. they came up with the name bitchified and bitchifiers yesterday lor. haha. but i prefer gosspfied or gossifiers!!! i think we gossip more than we bitch. haha. dunno la.

hm.. huimin looks so stressed up over the dinner and dance thingy. hm... well, when the entire thing is finally done and when the day comes, the satisfaction you get would be like WHOA. so just put up with it for now... it'll be over soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;)

peishan's coming over tomorrow. arggggggg. qi si wo le. well, we'll see how it goes. the oh-so puuuuuurrrrrrfect peishan because she's clever... and.... fillial. my dad simply thinks she's a gem. whatever. theres more he doenst know. i wont even bother telling him either. waste my breathe. humph. go do my marketing project already. ciao~

.ruffles off.