whoa..... had quite a wonderful day in school. i really will miss school on weekends. lolx. i absolutely love the company of the peeps in school. jiajia, huimin, jieying, lishi, shihui, karkit and zhihong. esp the girls... whoa.. its like.. chat chat chat chat chat throughout the entire day. haha. after night class last tues, we (the girls only) went mac to sit and chat. haha... its like... really hilarious lor. laughed till our tummies hurt talking about guys.. their boyfriends.. and stuffs la! hahaaa... and the best thing was.. i felt the friendships among us became stronger... gotta know each other much much much better. it feels like, now i know the person in them, rather than the person i know physically. hm... make sense? haha.. no idea. but i understand what i write la. lolx. it feels great actually. i can feel the warmth similar to the days back in fmss. i dont feel so homesick.. schoolsick.. whatever you call it anymore. lolx. and i feel happy again. lolx. yea.. basically i'm thankful for friends like them la. really really hope with all my heart that we will go through 3 yrs of poly together no matter what happens.
of course its not all about having fun together only... there are times when we do develope genuine irritation for one another. but glad to say that, after a while, we forgive and forget la. lolx. i just love their honesty and purity. something so rare in this masked world. its what makes me trust them so much. away from backstabbing and the many faces some people put on. their advices, so true.. so honest. whoa... haha.
i dare say that they are the ones adding beautiful colours to my supposedly dull life in poly. projects, homeworks, ICAs, reports.. whatever it is... all seem so breezy because i actually enjoy studying! with them of course! HAHA. so no pressure.. no stress.. whatever comes.. then just do accordingly lor. lolx. poly life is better than i expected. dunno abt yr 2 and yr 3 la.. but thank God for now, i'm lovin every single bit of it. haha. oops, i dunno if its a good thing or not.
and of course... not forgetting some friends whom i've made in tkd who are...... indescribable. i dunno how to express myself. but i really love them alot too. haha. i would feel like theres something missing without them. haha. ok la, enough of this. but i really mean every word of it.
oh yea.. haha.. sorry if i was whiny for the past few days. i'm fine already.. life goes on..... yea. about my dad and his daughter's imaginary boyfriend. he didn't mention anything else after that. but i know he's keeping an eye on me. grrrrr.
haha.. i'm just so happy!! new year's coming.. valentines day is coming (tho not like i've got anybody to spend with, but still i can always spend it with those singles like me lorrrrrrrrrr. haha.) met tracy the other day la.. she's a happy girl now.. so is kim... qian's happy in her workplace.. haha. what more can i ask for? i mean in terms of friends part la.. xcept for a few other friends la, who are having some prob in their BGR. hai. what can i say man.. let nature take its course. whatever's yours would be yours. cliche but true. wishing you all... the most wonderful blessings from God~!! ;)
.ruffles off.
29.1.05
ooooooooh~ this is so embrassing. everyone's saying i've matured and grown. dont know if i should feel flattered or not. lolx. my parents can't seem to accept the face that WO ZHANG DA LE.
they know i'm 17... going onto 18 in three months time.
but they still think i'm 7.
worse of all, they think i have a boyfriend!!!!! they are..........aaaargggg.. no comments. and they dont just suspect i have one. they assume and say i have one. WHATEVER LA. i can't be bothered with such BGR things right now. sometimes i just wish that guys would just VANISH. go away. get lost. no dont. haha.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. my parents drive me nuts. my dad woke me up in the morning and talked to me about this. i nearly fainted with all the dumb questions he asked. its ridiculous la. i dont know if i should cry or laugh. its just so ABSURB!!!!!!
1st, he couldn't sleep the entire night because he thinks i have a boyfriend!!!!!!!!! OMG. somebody save me.
2nd, he keeps telling me i have a boyfriend. NOTE: he tells me i have a boyfriend.
3rd, so i keep telling him I DON'T HAVE one la! and he asks me if anyone is coming after me, if there is any, bring him home. AAAAAH. whatever. NO. even if theres anyone coming after me. I WONT BRING HIM HOME.
4th, he doesn't give up and continues to tell me to bring my 'boyfriend' HOME. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH. if theres nobody, how in the world am i supposed to bring anyone home?!!?!?!?!??!?!?!!? HAI.
5th, he tells me both he n mummy loves me alot. they dont want me to get hurt. I KNOW THAT!!!!!!!!!! hai. but loving me is not about controlling me. i know they love me. I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW. how many thousand million billion times do i have to say I KNOW. SO STOP TELLING ME!!!! ok no. DONT stop telling me. i mean... tell me, but DONT CONTROL ME!!!!! hai. for goodness gracious sake, i'm not longer a CHILD.
do they have to crush me to death under their overpowering love and drive me up the wall?
somehow i just want less love from them. i know that's crazy. but otherwise how in the world can i assure them to stop worrying for me!?!?!?!?!?
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH. i just feel like screaming.
they care too much for me!!!!!! omg. hai. forbidden love by sens isn't an angry peice of music. its just that i'm in such a irritable mood that i played it aggressively. but dont deny its expressive ok! my gawd. at least to me la. its my piano, i play what i like, i express how i feel. whatever. i just loveeeeeeeeeeeeeee playing piano right now, i practically drown in my own music. and i like it. hahaa.
they dont know what a good girl i've been. i'm serious ok! some kpo idoits are wondering about my lack of a... GUY. sigh, i really fear one day i might just go crazy and start liking girls instead. hahaaa. wonder what will happen if i do become a lesbo sia. lolx.
i'm not angry or anything with my parents. i'm EXASPERATED! i really am. exasperated is the word. i just think its just so ridiculous that i'm torn between crying and laughing. i wonder if i'm the naive one or are they the one being naive. hai.
after reading this, dont ever tell me that they do this because they love me. COZ I ALREADY KNOW. i dont need you to tell me that. coz one idoit did in the morning and i hate it. sorry for sounding like an ungrateful brat for not thanking my parents who loves me so much. I AM THANKFUL FOR SUCH LOVING PARENTS. i REALLY am. dont DOUBT me. but............ its too much for me to take it. i will be crushed to death one day.
.ruffles off.
26.1.05
i feel like getting rid of this blog and start another one from scratch again. but if i were to get rid of this blog, i dont feel like blogging ever again. urggggg. so much has changed. when i read my old post, i felt like i was only dreaming. like it never happened b4. things i thought was fine, people i thought i could trust, decisions that i made in the past all suddenly felt so unreal. ok, nvm. dont think i can se de to get rid of this blog too.
tsk tsk. so fake. the world is so complicated. things i never did understand, i understood them now. and there are still many other stuffs that i still dont get it. but oh wells, i dont need to, till i need to find out one day... till then zai shuo bah.
let me see what i've learnt since i left fmss:
1) learn to let go and get over things
2) learn to pick myself up when i fall
3) there are so many types of people in the world
4) never let emotions overtake me, and stay happy.
5) give people the benefit of the doubt, but dont trust others so easily.
*giving people the benefit of the doubt --> when you dont know if you're right or wrong
*trusting people --> when you know you're right
6) the life is mine, no one can force me to make choices i dont want to
7) a relationship (in BGR sense) cannot survive on love and trust alone
8) no such thing as true love
9) things can change overnight, unfortunately, so can people (sad.)
10) knowing what i want is important
11) if i'm in control, i'll definately can take whatever life throws at me (unfortunately, i'm not in control all the time, but well i TRY.)
most importantly: God has never left me.
what i have to learn:
1) to be more sympathetic of others
2) to be more understanding of others
3) to cherish and treasure the people and things i have
4) have more discipline
5) persevere to the end
6) to be more independent
7) to control my temper
8) not to get irritated so often
9) be nice
10) to stay positive
stupid, silly me to blog this down, but yea. i guess that is what almost everyone has actually learnt, or so gonna learn at some point in their lives. hope i actually can be a better person this year bah. if i had been mean or not so nice, i'm sorry.
.ruffles off.
sigh. EVERY ROOT OF THE PROBLEM STARTS IN MC!
i hate mc now.
i really do.
politics politics politics and more politics!
office politics.
crazy people in a crazy office.
arrrrrrrrrg.
patience.
i need it.
to handle with the people there.
wish me luck.
.ruffles off.
24.1.05
ok.. this stupid song has been ringing in my head since the start of the day.
"xi huan ni, xiang ai ni, xiang suo zhen xin hua"
hm... heard that song b4?? i can only remember this 3 lines. kinda irritating. but it reflects what i feel like doing. whahahaa..
anyways, read this:
"ying wei suo yi
qi zhong bi you dao li
dao li cang zai wo xin li
bu shi bu xiang gao shu ni
zhi shi hai pa shi qu ni"
jieying once blurted this passage out b4 and i thought it was rather sweet, but when i asked her to repeat again, she can't remember at all. ....... lolx. until marcus repeated it again the other day, then i somehow managed to piece this and that together and came up with this.
so it is edited to suit my feelings. haha. yea.. i actually feel this way. hai.
hm.. if you understand the hanyu pinyin, its meaningful isn't it? if you dont, hm.. next time then ask me to repeat for you. hahaha. lolx.
hm.. i'm amazed at how i can get muscle aches and injure myself without attending tkd. my wrist has been hurting for some time already, it hurts when i type or play the piano. i have no idea why. i dont recall injuring it. haha. madness.
OK!! those who have any jobs to intro pls let me know ok!!! and i mean ANY jobs!! but preferbly business related. admin work is the best! lolx. hm.. i'm serious. my friend is in need of a job IMMEDIATELY! she has a business service cert or something from ITE. but whatever it is.. let me know ok!! THANK YOU!!!!!! but erm.. no illegal job or those not decent ones ok.. she's a decent girl. yea... anyone with any lobang, do contact me alright? thanks~
.ruffles off.
23.1.05
its 11:40am in the morning on a sunday. i'm supposed to be getting ready to go my aunty's house for her house warming. but my parents are still sleeping!!!!!!!!!! feel so cheated by them. hahahaa. coz they were like planning to go quite early. so i woke up early on my own because i don't wan them to wake me up. coz at times like this, they tend to wake me up only when they're almost ready to leave the house, reason being i can sleep longer. hahahaaa. but they have no idea how rushed and strrrressssed i get. lolx.
anyways, i should be studying for marketing ICA tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!! i have no idea why i'm online. probably i'll go study a couple of chapters after blogging. haha.
hmmm..... its funny when i have so much free time on hand and i can't seem to meet up with my friends!!!!
whenever i'm avaliable, they're not. and everytime they plan to go out, something will bound to clash with my timetable. so frustrating!!!!! like today!!!!! was supposed to go visit cheryl with lijia, jeremy.. the 2e peeps but i have to go my aunt's housewarming!!! was supposed to meet up with qian and tracy and perharps sylvia too last week, but something held me up!!!! it happened the previous week too with tracy and kim! was supposed to go out with them, but had sean's farewell party, which i didn't even stay for long coz all his sec sch friends were there and me and angeline feel kinda odd over there, so i spent my evening with mc peeps instead when i could have met up with tracy and kim!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaarg~! qi si wo le. hahaha.
sigh.... hopefully can meet yenping next wed to catch up with her. haha. saw her the other time with janice in town after grading, but didnt get to chat much with her tho. so hopefully can meet her soon!! hhm.....
well anyways, spent my day in school yesterday coz of open house. haha. helped out for tkd. watched the demo. they performed so much better than wed!!! its really impressive!! dennis had problems beliving that he broke 6 tiles! hahahaa. then stayed there till we close the booth, then went mc to look for eileen, but she wasn't working yesterday. so i saw jingle there!!! *bleah*. hahaa. dont really like her. but luckily yy was there. haha. dan and wai quen was there jamming on their guitars. lolx. kinda miss those days when me and angeline rule over there. hahahaaa. then saw adnan. hm... we dont talk anymore. it feels weird. esp when we shared so many things last time. hai. nvm. its all in the past. then then... went home. haha. found my poor doggie in a sad sad mood coz my mommy whacked her because........ she too noisy already. hahaa.. but after awhile she was back prancing around. haha. cute la she.
ok anyways, my parents are awake already!!!! have to get ready soon. and my dad cant find the street name in the street directory. dot dot dot. haha.. k la. ciao.
.ruffles off.
21.1.05
hm... feeling a little moody right now, coz i just read my friend's blogs. friends from fairfield i mean. and i suddenly miss them alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot. really alot. :( sob sob.
sigh, donno what's wrong with me huh. can't i just get on with life? hahaa.
hai nvm, dont wanna talk about it anymore. hm.... lets see... well, i did a realllllllly wonderful thing today. haha.. i tidied my room!!!!!!!!!! haha. its been a long while since i last spring clean my room. i did breathe in a lot of dust today though. i just love looking at the stuffs qtk gave me, the cards and letters we exchanged. hahaa.. i'm quite a sentimental person huh. haha.
anyways, went to woodlands with one of my friend in the evening. went to buy some pressie for his friend. then stayed there till 8 plus, crapping all the time. haha.
then came back.. entertained pappy for a while.. she looks so unhappy. oh yea, i took pics of her today. she's sooooo adorable. i simply love her so much. haha. then she was happier after i played with her! haha.. serious ok.. lolx.
heres one pic i took with her.
haha.. i dont look nice in it la.. but i just like taking pics with pappy leh. lolx. haha
i'm cherishing every moment i'm spending with her, coz a doggie's lifespan is so short!!!!! sob sob. i'm trying to take as many pictures of her in her most natural pose, so next time i can look at her pics and remember how she lived. aaaarrrrggggggg. sssssshhhhhhheeessssh. i dont wanna think about it. i'll just spend the present with her. eeeeee. i dun wanna think so much. i wanna cry le. lolx.
ok nvm.. anyways, i've got nothing to blog already. i've gotta meet up with some old friends soon! sylvia, tracy, kim, qian, yenping and a few more. lolx. i miss them LOTS!
.ruffles off.
hmm..... i'm so bored. so i've decided to blog again.
hm...... actually theres a lot of things happening these few days. my school's having open house this week on wed, thurs and sat. friday, which is tomorrow, is hari raya, so the school's closed. i wonder if anyone would forget and go visit our school tomorrow. hahaaa...
anyways.... hm... went m'sia to get everything on my hair done yesterday and went shopping with my mom. then had to rush my proj when i came back. was kinda tiring la, but still managed to get it done. actually we were long done with the project. but we did something wrong, then last min we had to change it. thankfully we realised it before its too late. or we're dead. lolx. then finally we were able to sort and print the entire project out today. pheww! then we were the first to hand it up summore! haha. she had a look at it, said it was fine.. hopefully its really fine when she actually reads the contents. jiajia's group so poor thing. they forgot to take the diskette out of the computer after completing the proj, so they had to do it again today. my goodness. but thankfully they got it done somehow. haha.
then went school today.. went for classes.. had a rather interesting lec during stats. the lecturer is funny la. abit ah soh. haha. but alright la, quite like stats. then completed stats proj after school.. then went down to the tkd booth.. then went home with shihui.. hm..
wells..... i'm getting so bored with everything actually. friends and school mainly. i miss qtk so much, that i wrote a poem for them again. and i sound so lesbo, that i think i shouldn't put it up on blogspot. haha. even kim agrees. lolx, but who cares. i really miss them so much. i'm so sick of guys sweet talking. i'm so sick of guys being nice. i might be getting sick of the company of guys. actually not really la, all i want is 1 guy who would love me the way i am, take care of me, be there for me, and stay true to me. and most importantly.. not abandon me. and i'll do the same for him. just 1. i dont need so many. anyways its not right to have so many either. dot dot dots. well anyways, made alot of really nice guy friends in nyp. but some are waaaaay too nice. it is a problem esp when they have a gf already. one of my friend's ex does that to her. and its so horrible!!!
i long to have a good girls outing with qtk again. NO GUYS this time. not even on our minds. haha. tough la, but try ok. lolx.
hai, i'm getting into such a irritable mood right now coz i'm so sleepy but i cant seem to sleep.
.ruffles off.
17.1.05
so horrible!!! dragged myself off the bed, bathed, rushed out of the house and reached school at 9am just to realise that my tutorial is postponed to tomorrow!!!!!!!!! argg... dunno why i forgot about this. haha. geoffrey forgot about it too! so both of us were slacking in mac and chatted about music till 11am and since geoffery was waiting for his friend, i left mac and went to meet the peeps.
then went for classes as usual.... effective oral com and IT. 5 hrs of computer lab session again! hai... hope my eyesight dont detioriate further. i lost my specs again. haha.. arg. dont ask me how did i lose them again. sigh, i dont feel like making another pair anymore. but i feel kinda handicapp without it. haha.
anyways.. went westmall to meet sean after school. probably it would be the last time i'm seeing him till 11 months later after he leaves for aus this thurs!!!! sob sob. had dinner with him, then we went up to mc and made him play the piano for me. haha.. played canon and his exam pieces. then took a few pics of him playing the piano. haha. probably i'll upload them in the photo album sometime soon. hehex. so gonna miss him lor.. miss him playing the piano.. miss chatting with him on msn... miss his silly smses.
then while we were in the room playing the piano, eileen came in suddenly and asked me to take over one of janet's student for one lesson for one day. i wasn't prepared at all lor. but i still agreed la.. he's only 5. the kid is sooooooo adorable lor! hahaaa. let me tell why he's such a cutie. haha..
we started class... did theory.. taught him how to draw the trevel clef, although he kept drawing some weird lines, ended up i drew dotted lines for him to follow. haha. then taught him semibreve, minum and crotchet. haha.. he's super smart lor, he remembered them all after telling him once. but dunno if he still can remember next week. haha. then all the time i was kinda playing.. chatting and teaching him stuffs. thank goodness its only half an hour. its kinda tiring to keep entertaining him to keep him interested. and so i was talking rubbish to him.. he kinda enjoyed it i guess. hahahaa. at least it worked in grabbing his attention. lolx. then i asked him if he likes me ( i meant it as a teacher).. then he replied......."yea.. you're kinda beautiful". bwhahaa. *faints*. omg i was expecting the ans to be somewhat like, "yea.. you're nice" or something like tt. haha. isnt he such a sweetie? lolx. shocked me sia. i was like *gasp* and almost forgot to thank him. haha. then i said thank you and told him it was so sweet of him to say that. haha. so cuteeeeee rite. omg. i wanted to laugh my head off, but have to compose myself. lolx. then played abit of music.. not exactly music la. just playing the C note and counting. lolx.
well, it was an experience la. too bad i'm just relieving janet, otherwise it would be really excitng to teach somebody from scatch and watch them progress and grow. hm.... interesting huh? lolx.
.ruffles off.
16.1.05
weet~ its my daddy's birthday yesterday! haha.. happy birthday daddy~ i really dont wanna regret not cherishing him next time. i do realise that he's done A LOT for me. i dont show it, i dont say it. but i do know. my daddy never fails to make me feel like a child again. i'm serious.. he still ruffles my hair, kisses me and tells me to be a good girl. he says i must tell daddy if anyone's bullying me, especially guys. haha. i wanted to say, don't worry, i'm blessed with a lot of great friends around me. but i didnt la, i just nodded my head.
its kinda frustrating at times when your parents still think you're 7 instead of 17, but yea.. it feels good to be like a child again sometimes. so i guess i need to learn to be more tolerant of their naggings. sometimes it just drives me crazy. totally. esp my mom. hahaaaa.. oops. but well what to do, women tend to nag more. i realised i nag at people too. haha.
anyways, was having my daddy's birthday cake for breakfast just now and i suddenly remembered how weiping ate the cake kailing spat out as a dare. my goodness. i dont know why i thought of that, probably because the birthday cake is also a chocolate flavoured one. its just so extrememly d-i-s-g-u-s-t-i-n-g that i lost my appetite immediately. bleeeeaah. the thought of it makes me wanna puke already. bbbllleeeeeaah.
hmm..... was thinking quite a bit on my spiritual life after david asked me again yesterday if i would like to join them for service today. i wasn't prepared to answer him coz i haven't been thinking of returning to church recently. i think should have been more tactful yesterday. feel a little bad brushing him off like that. now he's afraid that he's pressurising me. lolx. sigh, i dunno wad to do. i want to go back to church. but my dad hates it. i just find it so ironic!!!!!!!!! its driving me mad. so what if we're a catholic family. is there such a rule that i can only attend catholic mass??? we're still in family of God's. hai. i dunno la. i want to get myself back on track, but i can't. i could have met them and went for service today. my dad wouldn't know where i'm going. but i wont be able to live up to my conscience if i did that. my gaaaaawdd. haiz. headache man. i'm just waiting.. waiting.. waiting.. waiting for what to happen, i have no idea either. i know what i want, but i really dont-know-what-to-do at all. go against my dad's wishes or work on my spiritual life? tough man. i just hope i wont stray too much before i actually know what to do. hm.....
hai headache. anyways, seems like alot of people are getting so stressed up with school and stuffs. just wanna say.. take a break at times and look at the beautiful things in life, like friends, family.. life isn't that harsh actually. its just how you wanna live it. stay happy.. no one can make you unhappy unless you allow yourself to. haha. serious.. happiness clears always all the dark clouds. so when you're happy, you actually know how to go about solving your problems. i dont know why, but i've just got this idea that happiness actually acts like a shrinking element that shrinks my problems so they dont seem so huge to handle. haha.. kinda stupid, but it works. hahax.
.ruffles off.
14.1.05
in the school's e-plaza right now using their equally slow and dying computers like mine. haha.. ok la, i think mine's worse with all the errors inside the com. hm.... just met up with my group members to do the methodology for the stats project. we're almost done, just need to tidy up the data and print the stuffs. hm... had a bit of difficulty working with one of the team members. was kinda pissed off with her heck care, sui-bian-la attitude. and she's the group leader summore. she likes to have her way and rejects everyone's opinions. it made everyone rather irritated, esp me and 2 other group members. got so frustrated that i heck her and took over the discussion and i guessed it was kinda rude to do so. oops. i objected violently and had MY way. hahaa... no la, i exagerrated it. just made sure that certain points which i'm damn sure that is correct and better is replaced. haha. the rest agreed with me too ok! this is a GROUP project. my gawd. hai. so majority wins. haha. i hate it when we say we should include this and that, then she'll say 'aiyah, nvm one la, this one can already la'. it totally pisses me off. if we can improve on the project why settle for the less?!!??! if she thinks its troublesome then that's her prob. the rest of us do want a better grade. tsk tsk. qi si wo le.
never irritate me man. i seriously dont think i'm unreasonable or disrespectful. but when people go over my tolerance level, dont blame me for being harsh. haha. but hey, i have a high tolerance level ok. haha. k la, maybe a bit too impatient at times.
anyways, waiting for shi hui's group to complete their project so we can go home together. haha. gonna meet angeline at westmall first to get a pressie before we head for sean's farewell party. haha. tt dude. gonna miss him so much.
.ruffles off.
12.1.05
hhhhmmmmm....... theres quite a lot of things on the agenda, but i dont feel stressed at all!!! i'm seriously wondering if i'm too slack or too lazy or i'm abnormal. haha. serious. i had 1 ICA last week, had another 2 this week already, and one more tomorrow. i have a stats project to complete and a accounts show and tell next week to present. the tests were all rather smooth sailing. i'm serious!!!!!!! i just studied for the econs test tomorrow and i'm not even a least bit worried when i used to worry so much for each ICA. i think something is really wrong. its just not me. ook i know its silly to be wasting my brain juice sitting infront of the dying computer wondering about my stress free life. haha. but i just cant help it. coz everytime when my life gets too peaceful, something bad will happen. will it? i dont know. but just a bad feeling. its just like one business cycle that consists of a peak, reccession, trough and recovery. okkk.. i just studied econs and i have to remember them till my test tomorrow.
hm...... but one thing is that, i'm just so tired. haha.. i have no idea why. perharps i've been sleeping late every night these few weeks. and i can't stop thinking... thinking of..........
anyways........ can't wait to cut my hair next week!! and dye my hair again. haha.. half brown and half black looks really ugly.. hm.. hope they'll dye something darker. i look weird with bright hair!! haha.. anyways.... can't wait for the new year to come. i somehow cant wait to see my relatives. no idea why. but i just want to be somewhere where i'm surrounded by people i grew up with. my cousins.... aunts... uncles.... nephews... niece...
but theres someone missing this year in the family.. and for the rest of the years to come. life's been unfair and cruel. so i'm gonna have to live mine to the fullest. i'm so afraid of regretting. esp after the tsunami disaster. otherwise i wouldnt have realised how important it is to appreciate and treasure whatever we have and whoever we have in our life.
well anyways, i miss qtk so much suddenly. supposed to catch a movie with tracy and kim on friday, but i've got something else on. which means i cant go for training on friday either. hm...
hahaha.. something funny just happened. sir eddy thought i was a lesbo coz i dont have a bf and i dont seem to be interested in guys. hahahaa. funny la..haha.. i'm not a les, and i am interested in guys. looking at cute guys is almost becoming a habit for the group of us in school already. hahaaa.. its kinda stupid. but we still do it anyway. haha.. even those who are already attached does it too!!! but they still love their dear dears la... haha.
.ruffles off.
10.1.05
hmm... now that grading is over, ICAs are coming. gonna have 3 ICAs this week. oh no!! gonna have one later. excel spreadsheet. hai. gosh, i seriously hate such modules. haha yea.. you must have guessed, i'm blogging in school again. well i have 5 hours of lab class on mondays this sem, and dont expect me to stare at the computer for 5 hrs doing schoolwork, coz i can't. and since the system blocked us from entering a lot of sites like friendster or yahoo games, the only interesting thing left for me to do is to read pple's blog and blog. haha. haiya its so stupid.
theres accounts ICA tomorrow. shoot, its just a revision test from last sem's accounts, but i can't remember a thing. have to go back and do some serious studying. sigh, i feel so slack. dunno why is my stats project so smooth sailing. i see other groups meeting so often, while my group just met thrice and we're almost done?! something's wrong. and we're only gonna meet again for another once or twice to finalize everything!!? huh!??! or issit i haven't been committing enough?! well i missed out one meeting coz i had something on that day, but other than that, i was at the meetings and it didnt seemed like we missed anything out. just had tough time figuring out the SPSS programme at the last meeting. hm.. weird.
anyways, had tkd grading yesterday. i left house too early!!!! got there like 1/2 hr earlier?!?!? so sad, nobody was there yet, so i went to the toilet and saw aliff. he was there early coz he wanted to have breakfast at mac first before grading. so i went to accompany him. saw a lot more pple coming later and we went to the stadium after that. well i guess the entire thing was so-so for me although many others esp those green belts and above had a lot of problem with the examiner. or more like the examiner had a lot of problem with them. but thank God its over and no one failed. just that nobody had double promotion, which i guess left a lot of pple disappointed.
well.. then went out to have lunch at long john with a few of them. then went party world where we were rather entertained by weiping and eric with their craziness. lolx. neyton was pretty crazy as well. haha. stayed there till around 10pm before going home.
love is a whirlwind of complications that can either bring you to the heavens or send you to hell. the deeper you get sucked into the whirlpool, the harder you get thrown into the clouds or the fire.
i HAVE to keep myself from being sucked deeper into this whirlpool. but it so hard not to fall. i can barely keep my balance. my head tells me to keep away but my heart is half in the pool already. oh no. this is horrible.
Coco lee- before i fall in love. if you read the lyrics. it kinda describes how i'm feeling. =(
ok.. jiajia and jieying is currently bugging everyone to join this fabulous website called netfriendships. coz its not blocked by the stupid system. the website is http://www.netfriendships.com hm.. its like a msn cum friendster cum neopets cum blog kinda thing. interesting huh?
.ruffles off.
8.1.05
rain rain, is here again. sigh, why can't we have a cool weather without feeling the rays from the sun and stay dry? haha.. dunno what kind of weather that'll be. but its my dream weather. haha. cool... without the sun.... and no rain. lolx. i must be in lala land.
hm... lots of stuffs has been happening recently. finally bought my mp3 yesterday after putting it off for so long. haha.. thanks to chris for recommending.
having lectures and tutorials as usual this week.... gonna be busy real soon with ICAs and projects coming up next week. well this week was quite fun. lolx. with my polymates around there is never a time for me to feel that school's a drag, including all the minor squibbles among us. haha.
actually poly life is rather interesting. in the sense that, its not so routined like secondary school. althought i still miss fmss a lot. i miss the people there a lot. so many memories. thousands of them.
anyways, i better stop thinking of such stuffs. i have to get on with life. those fairfield days are over. its stopping me from adapting poly life man.
hm.... let me blog down what i did yesterday. hm... went for school in the morning. was almost late because i overslept. but luckily i still managed to get to school in time. had accounts lecture.. was pretty boring as usual. then had macroecons. lecture for econs is only an hour, which i have no idea why they did this. its not like the module is damn easy. so my poor lecturer has to rush through lectures every week. i'm amazed at how she can keep cool and patient with a class of people who aren't exactly paying attention to her while she struggles to keep her lecture within an hr. haha. amazing. i'm serious. pei fu her. but she's rushing through so much that we havent got time to register what she's teaching. hai. i better start studying econs soon.
hm..... then chris brought me to sim lim to get my mp3. haha. so happy. i'm so dying without any music to listen to. i know theres radio, but i dont like to listen to radio la. so the only source of music is from my own piano. hAhA. so sick of hearing myself play. especially when i'm playing the same songs everyday! haha. the only new song is the score that marcus sent me which i printed it out. its nice. but i'm still sight reading it only, so i dunno whats the full effect of the song. haha.
hm.... then went back to school and went to look for jiajia huimin they all in the access lab. slacked there while waiting for jiajia's group to finish their project. that huimin is crazy over tatty bears. haha. they wanted to watch angela chan's (i think so) concert, and i had tkd, and it was only 2 plus, and we had nothing to do. so we went to karkit's house. wanted to watch some dvd, but ended up playing monopoly there. haha. karkit is mad la. he abuses his cushion! haha.. the cushion is seat-able but is stabbed and slashed at the sides with the sponge showing. he had this gun that doenst look very real but very fun to play with. hahaa. almost like a real gun. then..we played monopoly while watching some taiwan celebrity basketball match on his com.
then we went back to school around 5pm. had dinner.. then they went for angela's concert. then so horrible i sat in canteen below training ground till abt 6pm until marcus told me he was at training ground already. then had a chat with florence. hai. then had training. weisoon took training. that's rare. he hardly comes down for training anyway. did the usuals, made us do some exercise to train our abs, then now my stomach muscles are aching quite a bit. haha. then had pattern. finally i can remember the whole pattern on my own! haha. but i'm not exactly stable. i'll still show garbage when i panick. tomorrow is grading already. hai. time flies. hm.. hope all goes well tomorrow. alright.. i guess this is a mighty long post. lolx.
.ruffles off.
5.1.05
went for class at 9am today and came back at 1pm. kinda stupid rite? travel all the way to yck for 2 hr class. lolx. haiya nvm la, complain until i also sian already. anyways, i'm getting to used the timetable already. lolx.
hm..... had effective writing skills ICA 1 today. it was kinda easy. just had to write some stuffs and you get the marks. haha. and i havent' been writing for a long time now, it feels great actually. haha. i kinda miss literature suddenly. lolx. then went to mac for lunch with the usual peeps and slacked there for about an hour plus before shi hui took the train with me to bukit batok and met her friend. lolx.
was supposed to go swimming today, but it rained the morning. but the sun's shining now already!!! yay! hahaa..
had tkd yesterday. did abit of exercise, kicking and then it was pattern. finally after like so many weeks of i cant remember the pattern, i remembered it. phew. but scared i'll go blank during grading. hai. nvm, shall go for training one last time on friday before grading on sunday. having abit of muscle ache now. haha. havent been exercising for dunno how many million years. lolx. but yesterday sir eddy said i slimed down already. bwhahhaha.
cheah's so irritating. taking me and angeline for granted. think we're spare tyres issit. anyways, i can't be bothered anymore about what happens in mc. he can tend the shop on his own for all we care. we've done more than we should for mc. we've told him about a year ago that when school starts we're not gonna work anymore. and he still hasn't found the right person yet. and he calls us to work whenever he feels like it. oh whatever. horrible creature. haha. so bad.
.ruffles off.
3.1.05
its 2.16pm right now and i'm in the com lab having business software application class. the lab's clock gone haywire. its showing 3.62pm. haha. hm.. been doing excel for the past few weeks, and we're gonna start on microsoft word today. haii. y can't we do something else that's more interesting like photoshop?? haha. i know why, coz it has no relation to business. anyway, photoshop looks interesting enough to play around with. haha. hm... just did tabs... now doing page break. hm.. actually microsoft word isn't that boring la, coz its easier to follow than excel! haha. actually excel isnt' very tough to understand either, just the formulas. hm.. time check: its 2.38pm right now, but the lab's clock is showing 3.65pm. dots.
oh no.. we're doing bullet now. hAi. so boring. i think i'm gonna lose concentration soon. i think i already did. but i'm still following. haha. something's wrong with that sentence, haha, dunno wad am i saying also.
hm anyway... its been raining nonstop for a few days already. so cold. dont know when the sun will start shining again. talk abt rain, feel so sad for the tsunami victims. can't help feeling so thankful whenever i read the reports of the disaster. imagine if singapore were hit by the tsunami. gosh, i'll wont be blogging in school already, my life, everyone's life would be ruined. the entire island would crumple and probably singapore could be the next lost city like the atlantis in this millenium, coz s'pore is just too tiny. *shudders*.
hm... i'm wondering if was expecting too much out of kailing? i was expecting to have a friendship like those with qtk. well i guess i shouldn't have. this kinda thing takes time. qtk has gone through 6yrs of both good and bad times with me. or probably i'm not independent enough, i always want somebody i'm close to with me. hm.. maybe i should make learning to be independent one of my new year resolution! hAhA. that would be so silly. sigh, but leaving fairfield isn't just about graduating from a secondary school. it means stepping out of comfort zone. seriously speaking, i'm kinda sick of meeting new people already. haha. quoting frm somebody's nick: i can have a certain number of friends, but i just want a number of friends i can be certain of. hehex. kailing.. sorry if i appeared to be oversensitive. hAhA. i'm just not used to life in poly yet. haha.. dont worry about neglecting me too much. lolx. must let me learn how to adapt to poly life. as long as communication isn't a prob between us, we sure can make it through. lolx.
alright, enough crapping already.. supposed to be doing some microsoft word exercise. oops, i'm already lagging behind. luckily dont have to hand up the work to her. HAHA. k. cyaz.
