.me being me.

31.10.04

just came back from work.. again. hai. i have no life man. everyday i'll go for work in the morning, come back.. use the computer, sleep.. wake up.. go work.. and the cycle continues. since i dont have any plans for tomorrow, so i'm working again tomorrow. then tuesdays probably i'll see if jiajia they all are free to go out anot. hm... wonder what they bought for karkit's bday. chipped in some money for the pressie too. deducted it from the amount jieying owes me. woder how much is it. although i'm working, but i'm still broke.

can't wait to get my pay. ever since i passed my grade 8 practical, i've been thinking of teaching low grade piano. i've never ever even dream of teaching piano because i seriously thought i would fail. but i've only got a grade 5 theory. think i can ask mr cheah to hire me as a part timer? bhwhaha. but they dont seem to have a lack of piano teachers. hm... the highest grade i can teach up to is grade 3 or 4. but that isnt' so much of a problem. i dont mind teaching kids, they're quite cute actually. i taught a couple of times as relief before, although i wasn't paid la, but i did enjoy myself. especially when they learn something, i'll feel very accomplished. and its so much easier to teach than to do the admin stuffs. damn stress at times when i have to deal with parents.. help teachers do their timetables... blehx. today got damn pissed by xuan rui. kenna scolded by a parent coz of him. i think he really can't handle it. the parents say his teaching is fine. but he's just being irresponsible when he dumps teaching violin at the bottom of his priorities. i'm sorry i had to transfer his students to other teachers. yea although i'm paid to do all that admin stuffs, i get complains and students even stop because of him. i just had to change teachers. and of course save myself from alot of trouble. haha.. oops. i wonder how is mr cheah gonna break the news to him. sigh, i dont know myself at times. florence was telling he quite poor thing to have his students transfered. i dont know la. he's been given many chances, today was the last straw.

and some idiot from tkd is also pissing me off badly. an ultimate attention seeker. whatever. can't be bothered with him anymore. i've tried understanding.. tolerating.. talking.. tried to help. but he's way over limit. i'm not sure if he would be able to stand staying in tkd much longer with some of us against him already. hai. dont care le la. cant be bothered. he's damn out of point. but part of me wanna go back for tkd and see how is the situation like face to face. haha. ok, i'm being idiotic. sigh, so sleepy. nitenite.

.ruffles off.

29.10.04

hm... just got back from work. today was the music school's holiday, so it was rather quiet? hai. tomorrow's gonna be even worse. at least najif and wen xun was here today. tomorrow i'm gonna be stucked with jingle alone. hai. i seriously have nothing in common with her. i can't hold a conversation with her for long and i think she knows it too la. i dont think she enjoys working with me either. most of the time i just ignore her, but not in the rude kind of way la! hai, tml i think i better make an effort to know her, if not i think i'll die from peace. hAha. ok, that's abit ironic. but i'm not used to mc being quiet. its usually rather noisy, as though there's some party going on, especially on weekends like saturdays and sundays. haiya. duno la. i sianed ji bua already. anways i'm not in a very good mood today. imagine everyday u face guitars and pianos. play until so sian also. if only i'm stucked with a couple dogs or what, then i don't mind la. hEhE. and i miss tkd. haha. i think my joints are stiff already. sob sob. then have to start from scratch again? hai. i xing xing ku ku stretch until my forehead can almost touch my knees already, now i think is gong kui yi kui. hAHahahaa.. hm.. i seriously think my chinese is improving and my english is going downhill. the wenxun keep correcting my english! hai. hm.... i've been hanging out with him these couple of days.

haha.. brought a balloon home just now. hahahaa.. pappy so scared of it. she dont dare to sleep. keep staring at the balloon. hahaha. sigh, so sleepy. tomorrow gotta wake up so early summore. sigh. i'll be there from morning till night. hai.

.ruffles off.

28.10.04

feeling extremely lazy. hEhE. the weather has been extremely cooling these few days. haha.. hope it stays this way. i dont mind the rain. hm... anyways.. didn't go to work today. had a day off.. hAhA. frankly speaking the work there is like super slack? but its slack until i get so bored. extremely bored. especially when there's nobody around. and its damn cold there, cold until so dry. haha. my skin peeling le la!!!!! so painful. put moisturiser also pain. hEhEx.

hm... worked halfday yesterday then went to catch doll master with dan, wenxun and angeline. i guess it wasn't very scary la. haha, but some parts really quite scary i guess. i hate it when they use toilets as a fliming ground. haha.. later dont dare to go toilet. tt wen xun tried to scare me during the show. hAHA. i not stupid lor, nv fall for his tricks, but one time he really scared me. hAhA. anyways, so sianz now. dunno wad to blog also. oh yea.. saw yenping today. met her in westmall while she got some snacks then i guess she continued mugging after that with her friend. hAhA.. good luck for exams gurl. guess she's really stressed. hAhA.. dont worry la, a couple of mths more and you'll be free.

haiya sianed la, tml going back to work at 12.

.ruffles off.

26.10.04

I PASSED MY PIANO EXAM!!!! so happy~!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really really really really really really never ever expected to pass my piano exam!!! omygoodness~! i can't believe it!!!!! but i just pass on the dot only la. HahA. but i'm very very happy le. serious. my expectations for my piano is not high. not even high at all. all that is required to satisfy me is a pass. hAHHAHHAahaa.. so happy. hEhE...

so i guess i'm thinking of taking my grade 8 theory sometime soon. so probably i can at least teach piano next time, IF i really got no job. hAhAa. i'll learn from florence bah, talked to her abt the pricing already. she'll charge me $150.00 per mth, an hour every lesson, 4 times a mth. should be alright bah? hAhA.. i think i'll start next yr when i get my timetable and we'll see when i'm ready to take the theory. at least i'm done with practical. hEhEhEeeeee. just soooooooooo happy~!!!!!

hm... so i went for work today... opened the shop at 10am. hAhA.. thought i was late, but janet and the student weren't there yet. lOl. then dan and wen xun supposed to be there. hAhA.. but nvm la, at least wen xun came around 11 plus. he ask me to give him morning call at 8.. but i messaged him instead. but he cannot wake up. hAhA.. then called him at 10 plus and woke him up. hAhA.. he quite nice la, wake up immediately and came over to mc. then was chatting with janet in the morning for a while, then when florence came, chatted with her for a while also lor. actually mc got alot of political stuff. but dont care la, consience clear can already. then hua qian brought her friends there and jeremy was there.. then cheah came. then everyone started leaving. hAhA. haiya, everytime he come le, then i so lonely one. everybody all leave. hm.... then left around 5:30pm and went to meet kailing, chris and leon at chinatown. then we went makan. hAhA.. wasn't quite in the mood la.. then went back early.. open my letter box. and saw my piano results slip! hAhA.. my heart was thumping like mad! i thought i was gonna die like crazy. but then! i saw i passed. hahahaaaaa..... i almost dieded of happiness! hAhA.. so happy.. finally i can let go of this burden.. now i just gotta work hard towards my grade 8 theory! hm.... everything seems so wonderful. but will it last? i dont know. but i'll sure cherish whatever happiness i have now.. hEhE.. *blissful*

.ruffles off.

woke up at 9 plus today, and then went for work. my dad likes to walk in and out of my room sia. so irritating. so this morning when he walked in, i open one eye and stare at him. i think he got the hint la, left me alone after that. then pappy came and disturb me. another idoit. cannot sleep with my dad and my dog around. either one sure will come and disturb me one. hAi. but pappy's so cute. at first wanted to push her away, but since i'm already awake then carry her up onto my bed lor. sigh, then went to work. at first i thought cheah was there already, so i was like rushing like crazy, i reached there at 11am, and he messaged me at the same time asking me if i can reach by 11:30am. hAAAAI!!!!!! make me rush for nothing. then had to open shop by myself. hAhA.. sometimes its a little creepy in the shop. lOl. then he came about 15 mins later.

so i stayed in that shop since 11:00am. its gets so boring when nobody's around. luckily i had florence to accompany me. she so poor thing. her break's so long. he break is about 3 to 4 hours long. my goodness.. what a total waste of time. she could have been teaching somebody somewhere earning some big bucks. lOl. sIanz. ******'s officially fired. did i mention the sombody stole a hundred plus dollars? and all of us suspects its her. so does cheah. i mean, who else would take the money except for her? hai, but i'm washing my hand off that matter since cheah's taking charge again. cheah told me to call her and tell her she doesn't have to come to work anymore. but how was i supposed to put it to her? i just told her she doesn't have to work tomorrow and cheah will talk to her someday. i hope she gets the hint. i really dont want to spell it out for her. i'm an idiot, but not that idoitic to tell her straight in the face you're fired rite? hAhAx. dont know la. let cheah handle bah.

so finally when the clock strucked 9:30pm, i left with dan and wen xun. they wanted to catch a movie lo.. but i can't la. summore they wanna watch horror show. pIang. at nite sure get nightmare one lOR! hAHA.. but they very nice la.. they qian jiu me.. never watch also. hAhA.. then we went BK to slack for a while. idoit. try to bully me again. hAhA. then went home after that loR.

still have to open shop early in the morning tomorrow at 10am!! hAi. so tired. but at least dan and wen xun coming over to accompany me. hEhE.. how nice of them. but have to beg them sia. hAhahAaa.. k la.. my eyes gonna close soon le. lOl. NITE~

.ruffles off.

23.10.04

wow, i think i broke record sia.. so many days never blog le.. hEhE. feeling super lazy after exams. lOl. actually nth much's happening since exams ended. went to work on fri, so i didnt join jiajia they all go beach, anyway i not interested in the beach. hAhA. then kailing and chris came to visit, den as usual the place went crazy la.

den went to work today, actually not exactly work la, just went there to hang out and help out. tt meansss....... i'm not paid!!!!! haha.. but its ok la.. just like hanging around there.. hEhEx.. but i'm working tml tho..sianz, have to wake up early to open shop.. *yawn*.. den mon i'm working again. sianz.

wonder why my piano results have come yet? hAi. so worried. i'm damn scared. hai. i thought abt my exam carefully le.. i seriously dunno how am i gonna pass tt exam. i like screwed every section up. i give up le! i dun wanna take anymore piano exams. i just wanna play whenever i feel like it. isn't that they way it should be? ain't the purpose of taking up music classes supposed to help me enjoy music? aren't i supposed to loving it? so i shouldn't be so stressed up. i dont care le. i just wanna play for myself. i dont wanna play for exams anymore.

*yawns* so tired. mayb tts why i so moody. k lA.. tts all.. i miss qtk.. where are u girls??

.ruffles off.

19.10.04

i'm going so crazy coz of accounts. sigh, i can't take it anymore!!! i'm going crazy seeing anymore numbers!!!! i hate accounts. accounts sux. accounts drives me nuts! aaaaaaaarrrrrrggggg!!!! hai. tml's the paper. so many things to rem. I CANNOT REMEMBER EVERYTHING!!!!! i'm gonna die so badly! hAAAAAaaiiiiiii!! BUT I DUN WAN TO TAKE SUP PAPER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hai. hai hai hai hai. SO WHY AM I HERE?????? i ALSO DUNNO!!!! SO I AM LEAVING ALREADY. HAI. wish me luck. sob.

.ruffles off.

18.10.04

i got this from an email kailing sent... its 99% true bah..its very true for her too!! so go on.. try it out bah!! ;)
CLICK ME for what paint says about You !

You make sure that your financial decisions are safe and secure. You are wary of taking risks and are overly cautious that tends to let golden opportunities slip from your grasp!

Preferring a more casual appearance, you are more comfortable in jeans and a t-shirt than in a suit. You don't like over dressing for any occasion, although you never look scruffy.

Variety is the spice of life! You are comfortable in any crowd or situation, and always come away with new friends.

You are a very practical person. It's more important to you that the things you own are useful, rather than nice to look at.

Loves to talk to friends - keeps in close contact with friends. You are very outgoing and have no problem saying what you think.

You are very considerate. Friendship is the world to you, and you are friends with everyone. Be careful, as sometimes this works against you if you are too trusting.

.ruffles off.

17.10.04

wooooooo~ i had a crazeeeee day today. i realised i'm surrounded by crazee friends. hAHaha.. or issit i'm the crazee one?? hahaha.. dunno la. but whoever i hang out with, we seem to have so much fun and laughter together. i really just laugh n laugh everyday. happy happy. actually i'm living a care-free life now. really love my friends. in school, its with jiajia, karkit they all. in tkd is with kailing they all. in MC its with dan they all. then in fmss... i've got QTK and many many other pple! hAhA. then at home i guess its with my dog lo. but pappy crazee one also, whole life bark n bark. but i like it. hahahaaa. she's cute. i love her.

hm..... so went to school for accounts in the afternoon. then gotta clear some doubts on POA la, hope can make it for this exam!!!! monday's POM. i'm quite alright with it, but have to start memorizing stuffs le. hAhA.. today play too much, tml have to be serious le. lOl. then went to work..hAhA.. kenna bullied by dan they all sia! idoit. when i learn my tkd well le, they will get it from me. hahaaa. heng i nv take akido, twist here twist there, wah can die. haiyo, so many things happen, just gotta say, i had a grrrrreat day. as usual, i just keep talking crap, play around, laugh laugh laugh, then sometimes abit sian tho. i love the people there, but i dun like to work. hahaaa.. but nvm la, since eileen today got something on. next fri and sun i'm working too. hEhE.. so feel free to look for me there next week. hAhA. k la, damn tired now. eyes gonna close soon le. GOODNITE!

.ruffles off.

15.10.04

yAy!!!!! its friday!!!!! which means i dont have another paper to take till monday!!!!! wooooo~ hAhA. ok i think i going crazee already! its exam period and i dunno why i blog more often than non-exam period days!! hAhA. dunno why i got so much to say also. maybe study alone too much, nobody to talk to, then i sianed. Whahaa. ok enough crap.. well.. lets see.. went to school at abt 1 plus.. reached at abt 2 plus, then went library to look for jiajia they all. met kailing's friend in the train. hAhA.. my second time meeting him on the train le. both of us so stress while walking to school.. like all the info we studied all suddenly cannot remember. found jiajia they all in a discussion room... hai, then was so stressed up lo, they like remembered more stuffs than me. then i ask them qs until they almost wanna kill me already.. hai.. then i was trying to study, then karkit they all down there playing. abit irritated coz cannot concentrate la, i couldnt' get anything into my brain.. then abit panick already. hAi. so scared lo. but luckily the paper wasn't that bad. it was quite easy actually, whatever i remembered came out. woo~ thank God.

so i guess i wouldn't fail the paper afterall!!! yay.. now i'm worried about accounts. tt one really gone case sia. lucky mon's management. so still got 4 more days to study for accounts. hAhA.. i guess these 2 days paper was a breeze la, but cannot put my hopes too high, later the greater the disappointment. so i guess i just remain praying for the best bah.. ;) tomorrow still going back to school for accounts QnA. actually my accounts tutor really very good la, although he's not good at teaching.. but he really makes an extra effort to help us as much as he can. hEhE.. still remember last time used to dislike him.. hEhE. but now no more le la!

after the paper, me, karkit, jiajia, huimin went thomson to eat prata. haha.. jieying they all went j8. the prata very big sia.. huimin karkit say the curry very salty, but i think still ok la. den we saw one chn 8 actor there! i think his name is zay, zar.. dunno wad.. something like tt bah. lOl. he very cute.. got nice big eys, very boyboy, very handsome.. hAhA. he's that type can electrify you one. haahhaa.. then after makan, we walk back to yck mrt station. hAhA. a long walk bah, but very fun!! talk talk.. sing sing.. then very fast the walk is over~ lOl. alrite.. i'm tired of typing..hAhA.. cAo~

.ruffles off.

14.10.04

today's my econ's paper. it was kinda alright la, dont expect to fail or take sup paper. i SHOULD pass this module. hope can get B. if not i can go and kill myself. hAhA.. no la, i not so stupid to take my own life. ok whatever. tomorrow's stats paper. haiya, die la. so many equations to remember. was studying from abt 8 plus to 11 plus after dinner just now. my brain saturated already. cannot take in anymore info. and i getting frustrated le. realised i'm studying everything!!!! hai. so many thousand and one things to remember. hope i dont forget during the exam tml. aaaaaarrrrrrrrgggggg. poisson, binomial, discreet, PPI, LPI, SPI, definations, mean, mode, medium, ogives, polygons, histogram, cumulative frequency, frequency, standard deviation, variance, mu, regression line, summation, correlation, group and ungrouped data, date array, probability, time series, 4 components, sample, population......... BLAH! WHATEVER!!!!!! HOPE I DONT FORGET TMR!! WISH ME LUCK. HAI!!

.ruffles off.

12.10.04

theres this programme called 'killer instincts' on national geographic everyday(i think) from 11pm to 12pm. there are 2 hosts, who spends a mth living with an animal they plan to feature every episode in the wild, studying their lifestyles, behaviours, their way of life. camping around their living habitats, getting as close to the animals as much as they can. they featured the african wild dog yesterday. THEY ARE SO ADORABLE!!! they're just like any domesticated dogs, but they live in closely knitted packs. i think we can actually learn alot from them, in terms of team work, caring for the young and every single member in the pack. i dunno how to explain la, but they're just so cute. but they're actually endangered now and they're a protected species. hm... here's some interesting facts abt them which i found out from the internet:

The African wild dog is a slim, long-legged animal about the size of an Alsatian dog. Its coat is a dappled combination of tan, black and white - each individual having a unique pattern. They differ from true dogs and wolves in that they have only four, not five, toes on each foot. Their large rounded ears are characteristic and contribute to an extremely acute sense of hearing.

Wild dogs hunt as a pack - they quickly single out a weak or injured animal within a herd, and the animal is then pursued until it can run no further. Wild dogs are tireless runners and chases may cover several kilometres. Contrary to popular belief, the dogs do not take turns to wear down prey. The mottled hunters quickly kill and consume their prey - impala, grey duiker, steenbok, and the young of the larger antelopes are popular items on their menu. (they dont wait for their preys to die first, unlike lions or tigers etc. because they dont suffocate their preys first, they go straight for the stomach and tear their meat. it may sound like a cruel way for their preys to die, but hey.. its the way nature works...at least they kill to survive, unlike humans. the hunting pack actually finishes the carcass within abt 5 mins, go back to the den, regurgitates everything and let their pups feed. those dogs taking care of the pups while the hunting pack hunts gets their share too. so everyone is being fed. the pups, the hunting pack, the ones taking care of the pups. they simply work together, every dog has a role to play. very very cute. just like a typical domestic dog actually, they're also curious about new stuffs.. esp the pups!!! damn cuteeeeee)

actually its my dream to be a zoologist, study animals in their living habitats. i know its like 99% impossible for my dream to come true.... but still.. i'll try my best to come close to living my dream as much as possible.

.ruffles off.

11.10.04

today is practically a typical monday except that its supposed to be our exam break till thurs. went to school at 12pm for econs tutorial. was about 15 mins late coz i woke up late. coz i changed my phone to a samsung one, the timings were all mixed up, so i asked sean wad time was it already, he go n tell me 12:30pm when its only 12pm. idoit. then went for class..... after that went to have lunch then went to the lib to study with shi hui and lisi. then kailing and her friend joined us at about 4 plus and both of us chatted till about 5 plus 6 i think? hEhE. notti sia. were talking abt she n *abcdefg* hAhA. wIsH tHeM gOoD lUcK~ sO eXcItEd fOr tHeM. hAhA!!!! as for myself, since having a chat with kenny a couple of days back, i realised i'm still not prepared for a relationship yet. since freedom is not a problem now, i really don't know whats holding me back. last time freedom was a big big problem for me, i could only meet him every friday. that's pathetic. now i'm scared i'll either make the same mistake or the guy will make that mistake on me. hAi. aiyah, i think i better not think le! gimme big big headache only. now my neck and back aching. i think i've been sitting and looking down for too long already. everyday either i stare at my books or at the com. i hardly watch tv or even play with pappy. i think i need yoko yoko now, not counterpain! hahaaa. haiyo, talk about counterpain. quite worried for training camp. stupid i noe, but really hope after that i still got the determination to continue. coz i heard stories la. haha. *crosses fingers*. hahaa. k la, i dun think so much already. have to pass my exams first. hAhA. alright cYaZ~

.ruffles off.

10.10.04

HAHA. just came back from tkd grading!!!! there were alot alot alot of people there, but no one watches you do the patterns.. hahaa.. except for the examiner la. but i was nervous all the same. i didnt know theres a tkd pledge till today. haha. it was a rather formal event. hm...actually my pattern was kinda horrible, but after going crazy taking pics after the grading made up everything!! hahaa. well i actually made quite a no. of unforgivable mistakes. but i think i wont fail? NO!!! they cant fail me!!!!!!! haha.. jk. they can. but i dont think they will. hEhE. so i guess, we'll just have to wait for the grading results to be released. guess a couple of green belts dude's gonna get double. happy for them :p. hm..... then then... took lots of pics with some tkd pple.. i uploaded a few only tho.. coz mms expensive ya noe!! added one pic of me n kailing in our gees on friendster.. haha.. hm.... how to upload pics on this blogger anyway!?!?!? hm.... actually the tkd peeps are a fun bunch of people to hang out with. haha.. then then.. went to have lunch with them. me, kailing, chris and suimei didn't eat la, only dessert. coz by the time everything ended it was kinda into the evening already. hEhE. ok la, then nothing much happened, went to the interchanged and took mrt home with some of them. haha.. feel like writing something, but later the wrong person read le i die. hahaaa. ok nvm. anyways.... playtime's over!!! time to study le... wish me luck. tata!

.ruffles off.

9.10.04

finally finished typing the notes for management, however my printer had to run out of colour ink. idoit. the worst thing was after i realised my printer ran out of colour ink, my com hanged. then restarted itself suddenly. the after restarting, 3 icons appeared on my desktop le. and till now i can't get rid of it. i've used ad aware and norton. deleted 37 new things on ad aware and quarantined 1 virus using norton. the norton took so long to scan lor. scanned from 6 plus ended at 8 plus. i think my com really got alot of rubbish, but i dont know how to clear it. i know reformat lo. but i dont know how lor. hEhE. so irritating rite. but what to do, i dont want to make things worse. so now have to wait for my dad's friend to come and fix my com. and my com very long never upgrade already. still using win 98. hEhE. still remeber whenever i had problems with my com in the past, i'd call either clarance, lijia or jeremy. actually i still do, but not so often. everytime clarance hear my voice tt means my com sure got something wrong one. hAha. come to think of it, quite funny la.

siGh, talk abt clarance they all. i guess this year's 2E chalet is a disaster. so many pple can't make it lo. neither can i. sob sob. i really miss those good ol days every chalet. squeeze ourselves in one of the rooms, off the lights and talk talk.. play on the beach.. go cycling until butt numb.. barbecuing on the last night... go for late night walks...saboeing one another... den last yr we went to watch sun rise, which i kept mixing it up with sun set. hahaa. i really miss them so much. we had so much fun. i wonder how is everybody now? how are they doing? this is one class i can never forget. aaaaahhhhh. i really miss fmss so much now.

.ruffles off.

7.10.04

haha.. guang yang posted this questionair on friendster.. his answers are damn crappy but funny la. but its kinda intersting.. hEhE..its about the opp sex..

Age?? older than me.. but not too old.. haha..

height?? i short enough already, so cannot be shorter than me.. hehe..

weight?? hm.... not obese can already, not too thin also.. later wind blow he fly den not nice le..

skin colour??not too fair!! guys shd b darker abit, but not too dark also.. haha.. must just nice.

serious or funny look??hm... both? but die die must b friendly.

length of hair??not long one like those f4 guys.. look abit gay to me. shoot. boy band fans dont kill me.

style??cool cool one.. like louis koo. hhaaa.. jkjk..

popular or simple???not too simple bah.. too simple later become nerd

Tattoo?? i rather not, it means they can take pain. which mean i learn tkd also no use one.. hahaa. jk. ok. i'm lame today.. :p

lots of ex??? i think better not. it means i can easily be one of the ex too

a smoker??no never.

player or joker???both

loose t-shirt or body fit??? loose. body fit look quite gay i think.

home or party wild?? home and party.

musically inclined??hm... preferbly? hahaha.. den can play music together.. tt would be nice.

hair dyed?? nice nice..

wears specs?? it doesn't matter

piercings??not too many. one is enough for a guy on the ear.

Has wheels??need car definitely. i really dont like to take public transport. i want to learn how to drive too~!

Romantic??preferbly? haha... *dreamz*

Genius or bad?? not too genius, not too bad... just nice.

Sensitive??sensitive but not over sensitive

Pet lover??preferbly!!!!!!! usually pet lovers are more caring i supposed? lol

Sporty??as a guy, i think its better to induldge in some kind of sport

Sweet??yea..... *dreamz again*

haha.. ok.. tts all. its kinda crappy. i'm in a crappy mood.~!!!! i think i'm going crazy.. exam's next week and i'm still so relax! bwhahaa.. k la.. cIaO~

.ruffles off.

6.10.04

hai, so irritating. was doing notes for POM lectures and i just wasted an hour doing notes for a lecture i dont need to study. idiot. hai, qi si wo le. now blog first, later continue. hehe. the teacher really practically telling us what's gonna come out for exam, so i guess POM should be fine. hmmm.. got back my POM presentation marks yesterday. still alright i guess, got a B. abit dissapointed tho, we really put in alot of effort in that proj, but the powerpoint slides pulled our marks down. i cant wait to get back oral com results. i really wonder how she's gonna mark me. eeee.. dont like her. hai.

hm.... yesterday went to sch as usual. tuesday's bag really very heavy. like carrying some weights like that. later my shoulders grow muscles. ahhaa.. impossible la i think. hmm.. then then... was rushing like mad coz i thought i was late then i found karkit they all still at the auditorium. hai, rush for nothing. but we were still late for management tutorial. lucky the teacher nv say anything. then during tutorial i was drawing the names of the group of peeps i hang out with in class, then jieying took a pic of it with her phone. hahaa.. then we were thinking of making a t-shirt for ourselves with the design. i think they're the crappiest, cutest bunch i can ever meet in NYP. haha.

then yesterday my accts lecturer postponed her lecture to friday. so ended up we got 4 hrs break. so long. hai as usual, they couldn't decide on where to go, but still ended up going to bishan. then go there, cannot decide on what to eat, then ended up eating pastamania. hahaa. funny la they all. then we go walk walk abit, then we were glued to some dvd shop showing miss congenailty. hahaaa. could have stayed there and watch if we weren't tired of standing. hahaaa. then go phone shop see see. they all wanna change phones. make me also feel like changing. but cannot la, my dad will kill me, say i keep changing phones. but nv lo, change once only. hahaa. then went back to sch. oh yea.. we so sway, met J*** there. hahahaa. abit obvious who is it hor. hahaa. haha.. so bad sia. but people can't help her if she always contridicts herself. act oh-so damsel in distress all the time. ok, i getting mean. dont say le.

then went lib to slack. we booked the discussion room and talk crap. hahaa.. so funny lo. talked about marriage and stuffs, then they abit horny one. at least they're open la, except for zhihong arh, he sure give the diao look. but that's what makes us so open to each other what. anything also can say out one. haiya, dunno wad i talking about also. hmmm nvm. hm.... then went for lecture.. then went to meet kailing to go tkd.

tt ger arh! ask me wait at north canteen, then she go upstairs meet leon le. hm.... yesterday training i can't take it sia. the first part still ok. do normal exercise, target kicking. then do mock grading. then hai, sir vincent say we too dry le, then wanna make us sweat. hai. ended up had to run 8 rounds around an area. need to run up and down the stairs i tired le. actually run first round that time i tired already. hahahaa. oops. i duno la, but still manage to run until 7 rounds, then stop. hehe. i wonder who else nv finish 8 rounds. haha. so bad. but by the end of 7 rounds, i really wanna die already, abit dizzy but i wont faint one!! always run already then go dizzy but i never faint one. they thought i gonna faint then take out my belt. hai, but i too out of breathe to tell them. talk sumore i might vomit. hahaa.. hai, my stamina really bad. coz i nv run regularly like wad sir chris said la. sometimes i walk from living room to kitchen i also will feel out of breathe. in the morning wake up then walk to the batheroom also out of breathe. i nv take this into consideration when i join tkd arh. hm..... i'm not regretting coz i also had fun there la. just that, the physical part when they start running really headache. hai, theres still a training camp in nov. quite scared of the training. haha. just hope i can hm... perservere. teehee. well well, i see how far i can go in this sport. must motivate myself sia. ahaha.. tough.

oKie.. tts all for today's compo writing. hahaaa... just realised this entry's gonna be looooooong. haha.. I MISS QTK. meet up soon!!!!!!!!! celebrate tracy's bday!

.ruffles off.

4.10.04

hm.... getting quite negative in these few day's blog. so should blog more to get rid of it on the front page. i duno why i get so temperamental recently. probably i'm handling myself with my heart instead of my head. theres this phrase that goes.. 'handle yourself with your head and others with your heart'. i've been handling both myself and others with my heart, then i go so emotional and that explains the change in temperament so often. but i guess my mood is lighter today already. cleared the misunderstanding i had with that guy who almost drove me mad. ahaa. he finally explained everything. finally bothered to tell me the whole story before leaving me full of question marks. turned out i'm not the one who offended him, but i guess he just kinda took it out on me. arg. nvm. at least its over.

hMm... yesterday night i was reading the 7 highly effective habits of teens by sean convey (something like tt) fmss made us buy. its quite useful when you actually spend time to read it. i read the having relationship with people part and te listening part. quite interesting.

anyways, went to sch as usual today at 8am. so sLeEpY. hai, the journey so long, sit until my butt numb. mr ho was giving up tips on the econs exam next week. my goodness. exams are next week actually. but i guess, econs shd be fine. its just accts and stats i'm worried about. talking about stats. got back my test paper today. hai, just because of one stupid careless mistake i got a C. if not i could, no should have gotten a B one lor. i knew the population was 50 but i wrote 10 in my calculations. aaaarrrrggggggg. there goes another addition to my list of Cs and Ds. sigh, i think 40% of my test i got Cs and Ds lor. my As and Bs mostly comes from management and IT. oral com no need to say la, i think the teacher gonna give me a D or F for class participation. she practically likes to pick on me. whatever. so irritating. that time during the feedback excercise i rated her below average. damn, should have rated her poor. hahaaa. so mean.. but i'm not the only one lor. huimin and some others rated her POOR. i should have done that too. so next semester no need to see her. hahaaa. so mean. nvm, one more after this week then no need to see her already.* hopefully*. hehe.

then went to makan at food juction with the usual peeps. the biggest joke of the day when huimin said she wanted to watch residential evil. whahaaa.. then she kenna suan until so cham. hahaa very funny. then somehow they decided to watch that show. resident evil by the way. hahaaa. but i never join them. duno why also. no mood for another horror movie. then we walk walk till the mrt station, said bye to them and went home. hai, i go study already. i have to love stats and accts for now. hEhE.. tata~

.ruffles off.

3.10.04

what exactly does life mean? what is living? i'm not too sure. i just know its a creation from God. then what is death? it is the ending of life. everything that has started has an end. and death is always painful. its always a deeper realization of the phrase 'treasure the ones you have before you lose them'. but we never know when we're gonna lose the one we love. not until time slips away and life fades away. and then there would be a hundred and one thing that you wished you had done. its too late. time wouldnt turn back. but time will heal your wounds...eventually. one day. a long long time. you dont know when.

.ruffles off.

2.10.04

someone is really driving me mad. one of these days he's really gonna make me explode. and when i do, don't blame me for being nasty. i dont think i'm a bitch by nature, but trust me i can bitch well if i want to. but i think i have a high tolerance level. i dont get angry that easily, but it doesn't mean i wont get angry. it sucks you noe, to get so irritated by someone. usually people know when to stop irritating you, and that's fine with me. i'm ok when people gets abit over the limit, but still tolerable. coz when they see i'm starting to get irritated, they stop. that's wad NORMAL people do. but this person just wouldn't stop. he thinks his probs are the greatest on earth. aaaargg. but he wouldn't tell me what his probs are, but he just keeps telling me how bad he feels, nobody seems to understand him. but the prob is he doesn't want people to understand him. when i ask him wad is wrong, does he want to tell me what happen or wad.. he tells me i won't understand, i better to probe into this business coz he'll get angry. whatever lo! if u want to say, den say, don't play around with me like that. its ok if he does it once or twice. the prob is he does it all the time. i'm sick and tired of it. i'm still keeping cool coz i don't wanna spoil the friendship, coz i try to treasure the friends i have around me. but if one day i really can't take it anymore. don't blame me. i have nothing to lose. the one losing out is him. i'm trying my best to understand, but it takes two hands to clap. arrrrrrg. so irritating. i have no obligations to care about him at all. but i care because he's my friend. i think some pple will know who i'm talking abt sia. so irritating. i don't mind when pple pour their probs to me. i promise i'll listen, if you're willing to say. and i'll definately keep things between you and me. i'm no big mouth. and i promise i'm trustable. coz i know how it feels like to pour your woos out to somebody and really trust that they can keep it a secret. its ok even if you vent your anger on me. i'll still listen. but dont tell me to mind my own business when you keep telling me nobody understands you, nobody cares for you. so if you dont want me to know anything. dont even tell me at all. the least you could do is to be courteous. dammit la. someone knock sense into him. he needs a psychologist. i'm serious.

.ruffles off.