.me being me.

30.9.04

today is a cold cold day, but i like it. haha.. hmmmm... actually i blogged in the morning in school, but it gateway timedout. so irritating. haha.. wad to do, sch com always so lousy one. hehe. i finally got the website to log into friendster already. hahaa. but nothing much also la, just friendster. haha. hm.... had presentation today. man, it was the worst i've ever done. it was totally disorganized. hai. but the lecturer still say okok leh. maybe his expectation not as high as the rest. hm... so just left one more book review to present and that's all for presentation. then have to start studying for exams already. was studying econ lecture 1-4 just now. haha.. not exactly study la, was chatting with people at the same time. hehe. but still i got take notes. got a few question mark. have to start clearing doubts before i start panicking, haha.

hm..... nothing much happened today la. supposedly went to watch kailing donate blood, then ended up the nurse couldn't find her vein, haha.. then never donate. then her classmates were supposed to accompany her also, then ended up one of them kenna psychoed to donate also. whahaa. so funny. realised got alot of tkd people go dontate blood sia. chris, jin keat, marcus, dennis, weiping.. haha.. alot already. hehe. hm.. i cant donate coz i not enough blood on my own already. even if i can donate, i'll also be too scared to donate. last year the hep B injection i wanna cry already, still donate blood. even when pappy takes her injections i dun dare look. hm.... oh yea.. talking about tkd peeps. went to watch one missed call with some of them yesterday. haha.. quite scary. was practically covering my ears throughout the whole show, my arms so cramped lo after the movie. haha. then during one scary part, i stucked so close to kailing, then we knock our heads together. hahaaaa. so funny. i think i ended up laughing more than i kenna spooked. hahaaa.

.ruffles off.

29.9.04

hmm..... this week is so much more relaxing than last week. still got 2 more projs to present, and i'll be done with porjects and presentations. haha. so happy. hMmm... nothing much interesting happened these few days. hai, i lost my specs and my foolscrap paper. hm.... been quite careless these few days. went for tkd yesterday. did some runing. haha. and as usual la, got so tired. but nvm la, can lose weight. haha. then kenna box by kailing accidently, now got unclur (hm.... dunno how to spell) in my mouth. haha.. and while doing some exercises that time i think i sprained my right thigh. coz cannot be cramp until so long one, still can feel pain when i move my thigh. sigh, i hope it heals by next week so can do pattern. yesterday we had a mock grading. and i suxed lo. we had to form 4 in a group and do the pattern. and everyone is looking at you doing your patterns lo. so paiseh. especially with sir peter and sir vincent looking, even more stress. then as usual, when i'm stressed, i go blank and then anyhow do already. hai. hMmmm... sir peter really very scary sia!!!! hai.... everytime he's there, i sure anyhow do one. yesterday when we were doing patterns that time, i abit blur then he keep hitting me with the target practice thingy. grrrr. hahaa.. ok la, not very pain, but very stress. but he's still alright la, nice person, but strict during training. Hmmmm.... i think i better go do my speech already, have to present on thurs. tata!!!

.ruffles off.

26.9.04

boOOo~ today is a happy happy day. dunno why i feel so happy today either. probably everything's almost done. projects....and piano exam. hahaa.. i really slacked these 2 days. i did no work except to do my book review for oral com next week and i took almost 5 hours to get it done. hahaa. coz i was chatting and surfing the net while doing it. this is called multi-task. like wad joe said, girls can multi-task... unlike guys.. haha.. dunno if its true anot. lol. haha.. talk abt joe, he ran 21km today in 3 hrs time. my goodness! its madness! hahaa. today we were crapping to the ultimate.. ended up with some club mad thingy.. haha.

hMmmmm.. so i woke up at 11:30 today. ahhaa.. its nice to be waking up late again. at least i can make up for all the sleep loss for last week. haha. after waking up, then i ate brunch.. ahaha. tts wad sir chris call lunch + breakfast. haha. hm..... then i used the com, used until abt 7. then went to eat dinner, then watch tv for while, then started playing zoo tycoon!!! ooooooooooooh~ its such a cute game. i must intro it to everybody. whahaha. its like, you build ur own zoo, then attract visitors, get awards and stuffs, then build suitable enclosures for all sorts of animals. theres tiger, lions, monkeys, penguins, deers.. blah blah blah.. alot alot alot alot more. can build until u go crazy. then i got bored when i kept running out of money. hahaha.. but still i saved the game, next time den continue. haha.. really fun. i totally loved it! thanks leon~!!!! i've been searching high and low for this game. hahaa..Hmmmm... and i realised i keep visiting friendster site. ahaa.. i just love to kpo on other pple's friendster profile. hahaa. oops. Hmmm... exams are coming soon eh?? hMmmmmm.... after today, next week have to start studying already. esp have to catch up on accounts and stats. hhhhmmm...... i cant wait for holidays, den can start meeting up with everyone. 6d, qtk.... mc pple. hm... anyways, i think i better log off already, this blog getting sian. hahaha.. kk... tata!

.ruffles off.

25.9.04

ok.. so this week has finally passed. its been a really really exhausting week. i feel so much lighter already. dun feel like talking about what happen last week. i dont have to relive history again. esp the stupid piano exam. all i can say is i screwed it up. expected. but i can't give a damn anymore. i have more importants things to do. exams are coming in just a mth more. i can't afford to retake any module. my dad will KILL me. hm.... oh wells, i've completed most of my projs, just one more to go next week. hai, its been hard on everyone last week, my group, my classmates, the whole of SBM year ones. thank goodness my group members are easy to work with, very understanding and accomodating. so i hope our efforts will not go to waste.... hope can get hm.... B and above!?!?! i've had enough of my share of Ds and Cs.

so anyways, its a whole new week again. had a really good sleep yesterday. slept at 11:30 and woke up at 12. i've never slept for so long in a long long long long time. at least i feel recharged now. and the most wonderful thing was that i woke up to a beautiful weather. it was raining... perfect. haha. hm.... next week i only have one proj to present.. and i guess i have to start practicing my tkd pattern. chris said there would be a mock examination next tues. i am so dead. i can hardly remember the 2nd movement. just 2 weeks plus to grading. hai!!!! one exam after another. so irritating. first its piano, then tkd grading... then the sch exam. idoit. by the time my sch exam comes, i would have gotten back my piano exam results already. haiya so irritating. exam sucks. really. haiya, getting really short tempered these few days. have to cool down.........

hm... kailing's com kenna virus, so i guess i wont be really seeing her online that often. she was in a really bad mood yesterday. and i wasn't in the mood to ask why. oops. feel abit guilty.. maybe later give her a call and see if she's ok anot. hm... guess i'm back to normal again? hopefully bah.. at least i felt better after crying yesterday. thanks huimin, jieying and jia jia for trying to make me smile.

.ruffles off.

23.9.04

sigh, i feel like a living zombie. i'm so darn tired. so drained. so exhausted. today is thursday. tomorrow is friday. tomorrow i'm gonna have to take my piano exam. i'm so dead. i wanna cry already.

.ruffles off.

21.9.04

hm... in the school's free access lab now. supposed to be doing proj, but they put me on aeroplane. idoit. if i had known, then i would have checked with chris to see if the piano room is free anot. hai. waste time. idoit. time is more precious than ever to me at this point of time ok. my piano teacher just messaged me in the morning and told me theres a studio practice on thurs 5:30-6:30. hai. i got classes lor. hai. probably i'll have to call mr puar and negotiate with him. hah.

hm.. so sianz. hin say i got eyebag already.. sob sob. so tired. hm.. anyways, was reading my friend's bloggies just now. hai. all sound so stressed up and sad one. hai. read already feel like crying. hai. sigh. that time i read weisoon's friendster the 'about me' part, i also feel like crying. he write until so sad. i really wish he would be happy and not look at life this way. sigh. i think i'm getting more and more sensitive. i didn't used to be like this. it takes alot to make me cry. but now i guess, i tend to let go more often. hai. i really miss those days in fairfield. still my friends in fairfield knows me best. knows me better than anyone. we don't have to exchange conversation and they will know what i'm thinking. its like a fmaily. hm... but anyways, here in NYP i've found friends i thought i could never find again anywhere else besides fairfield. the first person that comes into my mind is kailing. she's really someone whom i feel like i've known her even before we've met. well, we've just known each other for almost 2 mths i guess. realised we share so many common things. thoughts. feelings. emotions. i don't have to tell her how i feel and she would understand. hai. its hard to find someone like that who shares so much with you. i really hope we can stay this way forever.

hai. sometimes its just so difficult to know how someone thinks. especially when that someone is rather inferior, someone who doens't open up to others easily. but i really want to get to know that someone more. that somebody cares alot for others, wants to make others happy, hopes to be there for friends whenever they are unhappy. but that someone is unhappy in his heart. but he doesn't show it, doesn't like to show it. its takes alot to make that someone open up. i don't know they way to his heart, the key to open it. its hard to know what that someone is thinking. it works my tear ducts when that someone says he doesn't think life is beautiful, and he would rather die. hai. it cuts through me like a knife. hm.. i dunno why i have a strong reaction. but to me, he's someone too fragile inside for me ignore. seriously, all i want from him is to be happy. nothing else matters. sigh. actually i think life is beautiful. nothing else is more beautiful than God's greatest creation, which is life. with life, theres so much that you can do. all of us dont treasure what we have until we've lost it. its true. its cliche but its true. how i wish i can change how he thinks. which i think its impossible. but i can try. wish me luck.

.ruffles off.

20.9.04

woo~ had a long day today. been quite busy these few days, and will continue to be busy throughout this week. but i die die still will come online.. coz i can't live without my com. haha. my friendster went crazy. say i got 0 friends, then so hard to look for friends. haiya, can't be bothered, it always go kuku one.

hMmm... had a rather interesting day today. had to wear formal to school today, so i bought a high heeled shoe yesterday. hai, wear until my feet so painful. got blister at the back of my heels already. hMmmM.. today was hectic as i expected it to be. since i was wearing formal, so i decided to take a cab to school. hai. the uncle was asking me the way.. hai.. he ask the wrong person neh. i can get lost in school, do you think i will know the way around singapore? haha. anyways.. it was still early when i reached school, but some of my classmates were there already. everyone was wearing formal... all looked really pRoFeSsIoNal.. haha. then zhihong told me we had to do some report. den i was like.. oh shit lor. never do. so i skipped econs lecture and was doing proj proj proj proj all the way to 12pm. den had a stats test at 12pm.. hm.. i could do whole test. but i think used the wrong formula. so i guess i'm dead. hai. duno la. hope can scrape a pass tho. hehe. hMmMm... den we continued to do proj until 1pm. then karina and ave went to buy sandwich up to the access lab. haha. so hungry. then i went to pass kailing some notes, as usual, we were talking crap la.. but its amazing how we never run out of topic to talk about. haha.. love her deep deep. hahaa.. ok.. den she went to meet chris and he passed her some cd. then i went back up to join my group. then we continue rushing through the report like crazy. hai so tired. run here and there.. up and down. and my feet so pain. then we went for the persentation. then the teacher told us it didn't need to be very detailed, and the presentation need not be very long. i feel like killing her already. hai. nvm, then the presentation started at abt 1:30.. all the way to abt 4:30. i guess it gets easier to present with every presentation. dun feel so paiseh anymore. by that time my feet hurting like crazy already. but i can't sit still sia. so i ended up walking in and out.. here and there. ahaha. then was playing outside the classroom with karkit they all. oops. haha. dun care la. i guess the presentation was better than i expected. hope can get hm..... B???? pls??????????? the previous 2 presentation i got C and D lor. idoit. thanks to the oral teacher. she pian xin!!!!!! not fair. haha. really lor. can't stand her. transparency slanted she minus mark from me also. hai. hm.. so tired.

when finally everything's done.. we went south canteen to eat. ok la. only karkit, zh and lisi ate. the rest of us drink bubble tea only. hahaa. den saw algernon there. tt day he was just saying see when wanna meet up. then today see him le. haha. then waited for jieying to join us after her meeting.. den we went to amk to play pool. i didnt play la.. had to leave early. so watched them play lor. den was chatting with shihui. haahahaa. hai. sianz. ok. so tiring. i can't wait for my piano exam to end. sigh. i miss qtk. i wanan hug them. i wanna hug tracy till we fall down. i miss their hugs. i miss hugging qian. i miss hugging kim's bamboo frame. i miss writing them letters. hm...

.ruffles off.

17.9.04

hMmM.. actually i'm in sch having IT again. sigh, IT really so sian.. we could have used this 3 hrs to do our projects. better than sitting here and doing nothing. hai, i know i should be listening, but i always start dreaming after a while. hai, and its so cold here.

had piano in the morning, had wanted to postpone it to tomorrow, but he can't make it, so have to make do with today. he did aural today. hai. didnt know aural also got so many things to memorize. hai. my memory gonna be used up real soon. haha. just hope i dont start remembering one thing and start forgetting another. so the whole hour we were just doing aural. hai. i hate singing. keep going out of tune. hai. hope i pass my piano exam next week. praying real hard for a miracle. hMmM.. having break now actually... but all of us has been taking break since the start of the class.. so it makes no difference. hehe. oops.. sigh, i know this is BAD. but its just so so so boring.

hahahaa... just now me n karkit were playing sissors paper stone. haha. loser has to do 3 qs, winner do 2 qs for project. hahaa.. and i won!! haha... so funny. i was laughing away... hahaaa.. almost went crazy with laughter. hahaa.. lol. woo~ laughter can really destress. was feeling quite moody until i had that good laugh. haha.. hm.. talk abt laughter.. my classmates say my laughter very scary, haha. ok la.. laughing is good for health. ok.. i'm talking crap. haha..

hM... next week's gonna be real packed. i've got formal management prentation and stats test and an IB competition project proposal due on monday. an oral com speech outline due on tues. econs seminar on wed. a formal oral com presentation and econs speech outline due on thurs and fri's my piano exam. woo~ i can hardly breathe. so many things to complete. i can hardly remember the stuffs i have to do. but i guess a week is gonna be over real soon. i hope. i hope i'll have time to practice my piano, if not i die. i'm just gonna work hard till next week and then i can take a break since my piano exam would be over anyways. hai. dunno why everything is cramped on next week. sigh.

well, anyways, this song.. ru guo you yi tian by fish leong is really nice.. heres a touching flash on that song.. do check it out.. http://cartoon.0451.net/flash/ShowFlash.asp?Id=6772

hMmm.. i simply cant think of anything to write unless i start ranting on my piano exam again. hai. if only i've got no piano exam, it'll be much easier. ok nvm, life is harsh. so anyway.. i think i'll log off now.. tata..

.ruffles off.

16.9.04

ok.. what's wrong with my computer. i mean the com i was using in school. couldn't type in my blog. so irritating. nvm, i changed com with my friend. hai. remember i was saying how i was doing my oral com presentation? hai. bad bad bad. but lucky i didn't fail. she she obviously pian xin lor!!!!!! she's like got something against me like that. argggg!! hai. now gtg already. hai. later then blog again. tata.

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ok... that was in the afternoon. now that i'm back home, i guess i shall continue my story. haha. ok. as i was complaining.. my oral com teacher has something against me!!!!!!! gggrrr!! hai. ok. actually i'm feeling damn stressed. i duno why in the world am i blogging at all. hm.. i guess i want a break. haha. hai. 7 more days to piano exam. seriously i'll feel better if it was over already. i'm stressed out coz of piano exam. i can take any stress except for any stress that is generated from piano. its killing my mood. i would rather do projects my whole life than take the exam. hai. Haiya ok. i stop talking abt piano exam. sorry, its just me. i will keep talking and saying about something that bothers me. got back econs today. hm..... no comments. but i didnt fail. ok.. so far the only subject i failed is stats. and i dont plan to fail the next stats. hm.. i'm kinda worried about the proj datelines. hai, its all due next week.. one on tues.. another one on thurs.. and a presentation on mon. and theres still an book review. hai. irritating. ok.. haiya shit. i realised i keep complaining. hai. ok. its gonna be over soon. i have to p.e.r.s.e.v.e.r.e. tts it. miss qtmk. really. how i miss their hugs.

.ruffles off.

15.9.04

ok.. today is the 15th of sept. i've got less than 10 days to master my piano pieces and scales before the 24th comes. hai. sigh. i'm scared.

but too bad brooding over it won't make me a genius overnight. so i shall stop talking about it. its been quite an interesting 2 day for me. had tkd yesterday (which was fun) and went out with kailing today (bought 2 dresses) after doing a proj, and someone jumped onto the mrt tracks and died (again).

i'm kinda in a irritable mood now. i seriously don't know how in the world am i supposed to pass my grade 8. my dad is like hounding me on it. so damn irritating lor. stop telling me what to do la! stop being so dictative. arrrgggggg!!!!!!!!! so irritating. like i'm not stressed enough. like i'm not worried about the exam. stop telling me its on the 24th! i know it! and i'm dreading it! i know how to do it! stop telling me what i should or should not do! hai............. help.

.ruffles off.

13.9.04

i got this questionair from the friendster bulletin board from joe.. haha. :)

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DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...

cute? NO.. cute means ugly but adorable.. bwhaha
funny? hm.. at least i've got a sense of humour
hot? heck nO!
friendly? i guess so.. mayb sometimes a little too friendly? haha.. :P
amusing? haha.. hopefully not.. it means being laughed at
lovable? hm... i wish i was.. bwhaha
caring? hm.. still alright
sweet? depends

[FAVORITE...]
4 letter word? Love.. God is love
actor/actress? ehhhhh.. can't think of any
candy? YuP
class? i guess its either management or econs.. yes econs..
cartoon? tom and jerry!!
cereal? coco crunch. haha.
color? blue, purple
nail polish? hm.. any colour that's nice.
least fave day? FRIDAY!!!!!!!! my timetable on friday sucks.
jelly flavor? hm.... grape.. :)
jewellery? earrings i guess..

[Person who last...]
slept in your bed? pappy.
saw you cry? can't remember.. i hardly cry ok! i'm a strong girl.. bwhaha.
made you cry? my piano
you went to the movies with? ooOh~ Qian.. Kim.. Tracy..we went to watch.... 13 turning 30. haha.
email? a birthday calender from andrew

[Have you ever...]
said "I love you" and meant it? yea.. to God.. really.
gone out in public in your pajamas? nope.. never.. and never will.
kept a secret from everyone? yea i guess everyone keeps secrets.
cried during a movie? hehe..
planned your week based on the TV? nope.. i hardly even watch tv nowadays.
been on stage when in pri and sec times? oh yea.. and i don't like it.
wished you were another gender? hm.. NOPE. i'm happy as a gal.

[This or that...]
apples or bananas? apple
blue or red? blUe.. its my fav colour
spring or fall? hm.. spring i guess?? haiya.. any weather thats not so hot. singapore has no season, i wouldn't know.
what are you gonna do after you finish this? eh.. probably gonna finish up my proj.. still got 3 more to go
what was the last meal you ate? chicken chop from the school..
are you bored? kinda..
last noise you heard? my mom telling pappy to sit on the sofa coz she want to clean the floor
last smell you sniffed? hm.... pappy i guess.. she got tt doggy smell...

[Friendship/Love]
do you believe in love at first sight? i guess i do, but i'm not sure if its true love.
do you want children one day & if so, how many? hm... yea.. i duno.
most important thing to u in a relationship is? love and trust.

[Other Info]
criminal record? haha. nO!
do you speak any other language? chi and eng.. abit of malay
last book you read? hm..... cant remember..

[You]
nickname(s)? med.. mad..meddie
how old do you look? hm....dunno.. pple say i look younger than my age.. probably abt 15 or 16?
how old do you act? hm.... hahaa. mayb younger than my age?? depends la! i know when to be childish.
glasses/contacts? yea.. and i think its increasing
braces? nope...
do you have any pets? YAh.. pappy.. one dog..
what makes you happy? friends, success, animals, music
what upsets you? hm..... negative stuffs lor..

[Finish the sentence]
I Love- lots of things
Miss- fairsians
I Wish-i can pass my grade 8 with flying colours (fat hope)
I'm Annoyed with- my parent's naggings.
I Want to be- in heaven when i die.
I Would Never- betray my friends?
I'd Rather- work in the zoo my whole life and not get married if i cant find the right guy. hahaa.
I Am Tired of- piano.

.ruffles off.

11.9.04

today is a saturday.. and i'm home doing projects and blogging now la. i'm bombarded with so many things to do right now. so i guess i have to put my love life on hold. which i've been putting it on hold since i broke up kenny. i don't why i'm racking this up now since it happened like a long time ago. i've never talked about this aspect of my life in my blogs before, coz you never know what people might think, but i think i'll just let it pass for once. i guess i'll write something different today before i chicken out. i guess i'm sick of writing what i've been doing, so just bear with me and let me bare my heart out. alright.. here it goes..hm.. i don't know, i've never really fallen for anyone else since sec 2. i don't know how it feels to go crazy over somebody. it seems so long ago. probably i'm not so childish anymore.. haha. you know there are some people who change boyfriends like how they'd change their clothes, i'm sure i dont have to name names, some people will know who i'm talking about. i dont know how she does it man. its quite sickening actually. and its makes me fear getting into a relationship even more. to her, getting close to a guy means furthur progression into BGR. but it doesn't apply to everyone. not for me. and i don't think its the case for anyone of my close friends. the thing is, i realised i've over a ton of really good friends, and many of which are guys. if i had the same mentality as her, i think would have been the greatest bitch anyone has ever known. the kenny thingy made me realise that i'm not ready to get into a relationship. and its so easy to hurt somebody without meaning to. and i guess i'm still not ready. not until i see a handsome prince riding a majestic white horse. hahaa. tts metaphoric enough i guess. ok shit, i'm in a literary mood right now, bear with me. since leaving fairfield, i've become less conservative, and flirt a little more. i've never dared to toe the line with guys. i'm always afraid of giving giving people the wrong signs, so i dont like to get myself involved in BGR. i'm also oblivious to guys, always thinking that, haiya, we're just friends la. always thinking that the other person is also riding on the same train of thoughts as me. and i'm still gonna adopt that kind of thinking as much as i can. since sec 2, i've met quite a lot of people, had a few brushes with BGR, but never came close to the bulls eye. and i'm glad i didn't. we're all teenagers now, almost adults. there are so many peeps out there looking for love. i guess i'm not open enough, so i get intimidated when it gets close to the bulls eye. and i back off. and now i'm wondering if i did the right thing. my love life isn't stagnant, i have been ignoring whatever's happening to it for so long. i'm not sure if its the right time to start fussing over it again. i dont know if i'm ready. or is it another passing facade? oh wells, i guess time will tell.

.ruffles off.

10.9.04

okIe... i'm in IT class now. 3 hrs of IT.. hai!! haha.. nvm, give me time to blog. hehe. hm... i'm gonna be very busy from this week onwards, theres so many projects due this month. management, oral com, econs and IT. hai.. still got piano exam. hai.. scared. been having a lot of meeting up with my group members to discuss the projects. go back still have to do some research and do the powerpoint and stuffs. sigh, don't think i can relax and enjoy myself anytime soon, not until my piano exam is over anyway. hm.... talk about piano, went to bishan the chrisophori there to rent the room to practice in the morning before i went to meet my group to do proj. supposed to meet at 10 lor, then got some miscommunication, ended up only a few of us turn up, then i decided to go practice my piano. hai. the rental of studio cost me $16.8 ok!!! for an hour only.. hai!! my wallet got hole already. but come to think of it, still got so many people owe me money. huimin still owe me $10, jie ying $90 and angeline $30. hai. i think i gotta stop lending pple money. but lucky these people are close friends and trustable la. sianz.. gonna be stucked here for 3 hrs. ending at 5, now not even 3 yet. s-i-a-n.

hm.. gonna meet chris later, that black belt instructor whose fingers i kept kicking. hahaa. he said he drew a manga drawing of xiao long nu. hahaa. say i very hard to draw, so draw xiao long nu. lol. hm.. he got tkd later, so maybe wait with him until tkd starts lor. oh.. did i mention my night class is cancelled.. ahahaaa.. so happy. the teacher sick. bwahaha. ok la, actually the teacher is alright la, used to detest him, but come to think of it, he's a nice chap. but got make up on tues. hai. hm.. oh no.. got some meeting on tues. arggg. whatever. later then double check.

feeling so sianz now. no one is listening to the teacher lor, every week also like tt. hai. hahaaa... the teacher just announced some grouping.. haha.. the class so ji dong. oh no, i kenna same group as kar kit. hahaaa. ok la.. at least got him, if not the rest of the group members so sian one. ok la, whatever, i'm crapping. this entry really very sian also. k la, blog some other time... ciao! ;)

omg!!!! now theres this Emessenger thingy... we using msn online!!!! yay!!!! so now in school also can use msn...!!!!! ahahaa... i'm going crazy. we're all chatting like crazy... lol.

.ruffles off.

8.9.04

today is a wednesday, which means i don't have school. so here i am blogging... haha. kinda loaded with alot of things to do. but i can't do it overnight. theres 3 projects to complete, a piano exam to practice for, lectures notes to study again and a taekwondo skill to catch up with. haha. wad a nice life. no life one. hm... still alright i guess. what to do, i see everyone complaining, i guess that's how life is. exams are nearing too. end of yr exam, piano exam, tkd grading. haiz. once my piano exam is over, then i can ease my mind to concentrate on the rest. still got.... 2 more weeks!!!!!!!!!!!! oh no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz. my mom watching some cooking pogramme, so practice later.

so these few days have been kinda normal for me. mon school started at 8... then ended at 12. i really dun like my stats tutor. so impatient one. den tues, started school at 10, thought i'll be late, den i rush to the auditorium to meet them, end up dunno who later than me. grrrrrrr. nothing much happened la, the channel U came to our school to shoot the school belle thingy. the gals are quite pretty tho.. the guys not really cute leh. ahaha. dunno la. see halfway then we left already. karkit and huimin and a few others went to vote for the gals. hahaaa. karkit no need to wash his hand already. then went for accounts lecture, so sianz. then jeremy called me.. ask me wad.. clay.. varnish.. then can use the nail polish tt varnish anot.. whaahaha. hm.... he really found his love already sia. hahaa.. abit not used to it. zhang da le. no more tt kiddo jeremy anymore. but still the joker. hahahaaa. really amazing how time flies. we were still in kindergarden then... still so childish. i think i quarralled with him quite often. ahaaa. then primary school, every year also same class with him, then we're like... not again!!!!!!!!!!! haaha.. den secondary school, he went nan hua. i stayed in fmss, got a couple of 6D outings... 6D still rox man. :) ok... my point is.. time flies. hahaa. ok la, back to topic. hm.... after accounts... then management lecture. still quite alright. den went to meet kailing they all first then go for tkd.

tkd was quite slack yesterday la, sir peter never come. ahahaha. not so stress. but sir suresh stress me. grrrr. got ABIT of improvement, but still not up to standard leh. hm.... i seem to be more flexible than last time after all the stretching we do, but still not flexible enough to kick well. haha.. then yesterday i kept kicking one of the black belt instructor's hand. oops. my toe pain also. ahahaa. paiseh. then i also kick leon's hand. hhahaaa. yesterday make alot of mistake. then you know, i make mistake tt time will anyhow scream. so malu. time pass very fast in tkd. after warming up, do some stretching, do some other exercises, then kick abit, training gonna end already. haha. then during the exercise tt time, got some movements i do tt time, very awkward, then neyton was trying to help us. hahaaa. i think he abit fed up. bwhaahhaa. amazingly i'm not aching. haha.. good. hm... then after tt we went home. went home with a few of them. woo~ so tired. this blog kinda long eh? hahaa. k.. end here. ciao!

.ruffles off.

5.9.04

hm.... tomorrow school starting. and i feel like i've been through a really long week. partly because its so boring to stay home. and also because so much has happened. i don't know where to start. its been a almost a year since i've left fairfield. its been a twisted rollar coaster ride for me. soooooooo much has happened. ok. i'm starting to get sentimental again. but i can't help it. i'm starting to realise how lucky and fortunate i am. and i really mean it. ok.... it might be a little late to realise that, but at least i've realised it. i mean, i found my soul friends sent from God above.... tracy... kim... qian. i wouldn't know what to do without you guys. i wouldn't know what i'd become if i didn't get to know you guys. and now, in nyp. i thought its a foreign place. but i found new friends that feel so old. i mean, it seems like i've known them for eternity. one of them is kailing. i'm really so glad i've known her. dont know how to explain, but i just thank God for it. hm.... i'm looking forward to a whole new 3 yrs in nyp. really. and i really just want to commit to God all over again.

.ruffles off.

4.9.04

hMmmM.... in quite a good mood now although the weather is like so HOT!!!! cannot tahan!!!! getting rashes already.. then pple will start saying my rash look like love bite. hahaa. anyways, hope it'll rain in the afternoon. i love rain. haha.. rain whole day even better. ahaa.. ok.. talking crap.

anyways, dunno why i'm bloggin the afternoon. its so boring to stay at home!!!! can't wait to get back to school. nothing much happened these few days. had my piano lesson in the morning yesterday. haiz. i'm really sick of piano. damn sick of it. play until i wanna fall asleep. haiz.............!!!!! 20 more days. die. i really should go find out if i can book the piano room in school to practice. so i won't waste time in school during breaks. my house piano also gone case already. the tuner said i need to send it for repair althought its still use-able. haiz. hope my piano dun die out on me anytime soon. its been with me for like 10++ yrs. so anyone know if i can book/rent the school's piano?!?!???!?!?!?

hm..... so yesterday i went for tkd!!! haha.. it was fun... or should i say, it was quite an experience la. had my 1st sparring yesterday. haaaa.. obviously i lost la. i was so scared lor. before that i kept telling the girl cannot kick my face. haha.. lucky the sir peter never hear, if not he sure blah blah blah one. haha.. actually he's not tt bad la. quite a nice guy. not so scared of him anymore, coz got used to him already. hahaa. yesterday got a tiny bit of accident. but tt guy shd b alright already la. gotta know a few pple yesterday. actually everyone from tkd is quite nice leh. kinda like a family. at least i see a bond between them. a natural bond. kinda reminds me of those days in fairfield. hm.. probably i'll get attached to the tkd club like how i got attached to fairfield. but its too soon to say now, but wells, i'm enjoying tkd and the friends i have there are great. well i guess i'll get to know them better as time goes by...haaa..

ok... been slacking alot these couple of days, guess i should really get myself studying. ciao!

.ruffles off.

2.9.04

haven't been blogging for a few days. been feeling quite lazy to blog. tomorrow i've got piano lesson again. and sean got his exam tomorrow morning. good luck dude. all the best. he sure can excel one la, i've heard him play before. just a matter of distinction or not. :) mine's coming soon.. its on the 24th. kinda nervous about it. ok. i'm VERY nervous.

ok dun talk about it already. stressed. anyways, just came back from work. haha. worked for 5 hours only. nvm la, get some extra income. i'm having sorta like a cold war with my dad. haiz. idoitic. dun talk about it already. i'm not going to talk to him until he talks to me. scold me for nothing. i got no appetite to eat also scold me. that stupid pappy can get away with it, so why can't i. BAISED! idoit.

this week is my term break. break for 1 week only. kinda miss school. at least i've got things to do when i go to school. stay at home so sianz. anyways, tomorrow i've got tkd. found my sweater in the tkd club room!!!!!! yay! thought i've lost it. thank goodness they brought it back to the club room. heheee. so happy. went for tkd on tues. training was kinda different la. watched the colour belts spar. haha. kinda interesting. then went for supper with them after that. haiz.. so sianz now. can't be bothered ti write anymore.. tata!!!

.ruffles off.