.me being me.

29.8.04

went out with QTK yesterday. that tracy arh!! told me to go as early as possible, then ended up the three of them was late, coz qian was late for half an hour. ABIT pissed la, but once i saw them, qi xiao le. ahhaa.. but ended up punching qian when she came to hug me. haha. wasn't intentional la, just wanted to push her away, but she run until so fast. haha. anyways, after that, we went to take neoprints, sit in the foodcourt and talk talk. had to go foodcourt coz we're all broke. haha. we were just reminicing the past and stuffs. all the childish, stupid things we did. then we realised, we've really grown up. then we went to watch 13 turning 30 in cine. that tracy siao one, keep laughing when nobody's laughing. the worst thing is she laugh until so LOUD! hahaa. i keep telling her dun malu me, but don't think she heard la, her laughter too loud already. hahaa. but anyways, the show is nice. very fairy tale type, its every single girl's dream to be like the main character. but still, its too perfect to be true. haha. then went home after that.

well in the train, tracy told us some shocking news. at least to me la. i don't think i wanna say it out here. just feeling that life is unpredictable. really unpredictable. you never know what's gonna come next. never know what's gonna happen next. never know what'll happen to yourself, your friends, your family. scary. life is short, treasure it. its too short to make sure that you've treasured all the time spent with your family and friends.

sigh, just went to visit my dad's parent's grave. ok, my grandparent's grave i mean. i've never seen them before actually. so its kinda weird calling them 'ah gong, ah ma'. in my heart the only grandparents that i really love is from my mom's side.

i just realised its just 26 more days to the 24th of sept. HELP! haiz. sob sob. how how how? i've decided to book the piano room every friday before accounts tutorial. the break so long, sure can practice during that time i hope. just a few more weeks. pray for me ok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God bless me. haiz.

.ruffles off.

27.8.04

so i postponed by piano lesson today. big deal. hai, i can't be bothered to give a damn anymore. i'll just do my best. i don't care if i fail it. as long as i've practiced hard. its really too much. if my dad not happy i also can't be bothered. i'm not gonna retake it.

sigh, don't talk about such depressing stuffs already. realised i've been quite tempremental these few days. can laugh this moment and start snapping at people the next. went to do my POM project in the morning. interviewed avelina's manager from cold storage. this is my first time interviewing someone officially, so i guess i stuttered a little. as usual when i'm nervous. did my oral com presentation yesterday. the teacher so damn irritating lor. she die die also dun want to book a com lab for us to present, then ended up 3 quarter of the class had to present on transparencies. waste my money. the photocopying shop aunty kept ignoring me. idoit!!!! i was almost late for my presentation. lucky she still allowed me to present. but i was marked absent for the 2nd tutorial coz i went to print my presentation. haiz. long story. don't talk about it anymore. stress me even more. but overall i guess i did quite alright for my presentation, although not fabulous. my hands kept trembling coz i was so nervous. so one down on the proj list.

finished my webpage yesterday night. rushed through it like crazy. lijia was teaching me how to post and publish my website. but got it done anyway. thanks lijia.

so another one down on the proj list. that leaves POM proj only. this weeks has been a hectic week. so many projs, so many ICAs to to study for. so far, those test results that i got back was better than i expected. actually i only got back 2 la. accounts and IT test. my fingers are gonna get freezebite, frozebite, or whatever bite soon. did i mention i'm having accounts tutorial now? supposedly. just finished this ICA. sure fail one. haiz. luckily its only 5%. hehe. ok la, i know i'm being very slack.

so after today, its term break for week. school doesn't resume till next next monday. which means i won't get to see them for a week. haha. hai. nvm la. probably i'll forget him after next week. coz the phrase 'absence makes the heart grow fonder' doesn't apply to for me. or so i think. gonna meet QTK tomorrow. phew. guess i should just forget everything and have a good time with them tomorrow. really miss them lots. alright, its time for us to go. so nites.

.ruffles off.

18.8.04

watching the olympics and blogging at the same time. haha. our s'pore ronaldo is doing really really well eh?? jia you!! hope he can get the gold medal. if he really wins the gold arh, he gets $1 million ok!!! even if he gets bronze he gets $250,000 you know!!!! hope he wins! haha.

sigh, feel so tired. counting down to my piano exam date. haiz!!!!!!!!!!! hm... aching like crazy now. i did 150 pumpings yesterday ok!!!!! ok la, was supposed to do 150 times but i never do all, do only about 130. damn tiring already. my shoulders aching like crazy. hahaha.. suprising right?????? coz the chief instructor was there during the training yest. haiz. he kept watching my row doing the target practice. idoit. then i kenna so many sets of pumping. actually kenna 5 times. each time must do 20 pumpings. haiz. so sway, do until my knee got blue black already. haiz. then they made us do 50 times of pumping for warm up. gosh, if this carries on, i think i'm gonna get muscles very soon. haha. i don't know if i can keep up with the training man. its damn tough. summore i'm not very tall. their 1 step = to my 2 steps. so i have to be doubly agile to keep up with them. and some pple really very tall, then the hold the target so high, i cannot reach. then i kenna pumping. idoit. sigh, nov got training camp. haiyo, almost every week i got muscle ache, probably i'm gonna get immuned to it soon.

tracy!!!!!!!!! haiz. i wanna meet up with u all also. still got qian's bdae. kim... you tell us when you can make it leh. oh yea!!!!!! i'm having my term break in 2 weeks time. so maybe can go out during that time. sigh, till then!! ciao.

.ruffles off.

14.8.04

i seriously wonder why some people like to act beng sia. just now i logged onto irc, then got this guy from 1987 asked if can exchange hp number. then i dun wan. then he start scolding me bitch. idoit. he stupid ass. he lucky i not vulgur enough. if not he die. haha. as if. but anyways, i can't be bothered with such people. no life one.

anyways, went to school in the morning for accounts make up tutorial. ok la, not so much as a make up, but its voluntary. guess how much i got for my accounts test?!?!?!!?!? haha. for the first time in my entire life, i passed when i seriously thought i'd fail. haha. got 74%!!!! yay! but still its only 15% for the module. but its ok..... better than fail. but i'll definitely fail stats. when the paper ended i don't even know whats the chapter about. but lucky the test is only 5% in the module. hehe. and i definitely will pass management. hopefully. seriously i have done my best. hm... so i guess its just stats that i'll have to work harder on.

anyways, after that i was supposed to go meet jeremee and junxiong and go town, then end up the class ended late. so i went back to westmall and met sean, grace and daniel instead. then was supposed to catch a movie, but because somebody got stucked in between the train and the platform at bb station, then the whole line that's moving towards JE got disrupted. so they made us get off at cck station. idoit. then i had to take bus back to bb. so i was extremely late. ended up going to pizza hut to eat. then as usual, daniel was pranking people on the phone la! hahaha. damn funny. we wanted to prank angeline, but she somehow guessed it was us la. haha. then we pranked grace's friend. lolz, he's a born actor man. if i were the one pranking, i'll laugh until i give myself away. ahha. then me and daniel were talking about akido and taekwando. hahaha. guess i'm becoming a tkd fan.

after that, we played 1 round of truth or dare. as usual i choose truth. haha. i rather tell the truth than do dare. then we went back to westmall. saw jeremy there, then we were talking awhile about.... tkd. hahahaa. coz he also learn tkd b4 and is learning akido now. haha... then here i am... blogging.

.ruffles off.

11.8.04

haha.. so sianz.. have to go to sch later. so might as well write something here now. i'm in a super good mood now.. wahahaha.. dunno why also. i think i must have de-stressed yesterday during the tkd training. man, it was GOOD!! really really really fun. so peeps, go join your sch's tkd. haha.. really fun. although it is kinda tiring and you get aches after every training, but i guess we'll get used to it, and its really really fun. haha. ok la, fun only when the chief instructor is not there. coz he's damn fierce and strict. yesterday we had so much fun without him man. all the kicking can really de-stress you. i'm serious. so i guess yesterday's training was the best. we stayed back to practice.. that's when the fun began to get better. bwahaaa. sigh, i'm looking forward to next tues. lolz. actually i thought tkd was getting sianz, but no leh. it just gets better every training. made a couple new friends in tkd. both girls also quite pretty one. haha. anyways, they're really enthu man. very nice to practice with them. actually those tkd guys also quite friendly la. when we were practicing tt time... alot of them came over to teach us, and give us advices. so learn alot.. in fact, more than what we learn during training. yesterday i got 2 hold the target. haha. never hold b4 actually. but some pple can kick until i almost fly with the target. that is what they call -poweful and agressive sia. when the instructor kicked the target i was holding yesterday, its like... you'll fly away if you cannot balance. haha. that leads me thinking about sparring. if they're gonna kick at you like this during sparring, i guess i better learn all my blocks well.. esp those that blocks my face one. hahaha. on the noticeboard theres this pic showing this huge blueblack on one of the guy's face. haha.. dun wan to get any blueblack on my face. sigh, i'm gonna miss this fri's training again. idoit. got accounts tutorial. sianz la, feel like poning it. but can't la.. haiz. haha.. i think i wrote too much on tkd already. hahaa.. can't help it. really like it alot. guess i'm loving it. haha. sound so macdonald-ish.

anyways, kim, tracy!!!! wanna celebrate qian's bdae this sun?? we go watch the fireworks la!!! really wanna see you all again soon!!!!!! hehe.. kk...... cYaZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.ruffles off.

10.8.04

i'm alone in the school's e-plaza using their computers. haiz. damn slow and very cold here. so stupid, choose the wrong seat. supposed to be in management lecture now, but don't care la. all of us pon the lecture. some pple went home already. sigh, i would have gone out if i didn't have tkd later. anyways, wonder how was national day for everyone yesterday? seems like this yr's programmes like quite sianz. only the songs and the parade reminded me of the good ol' days i had with tracy, kim and qian. i was only looking forward to the singapore idol after the celebration yesterday on tv. some people really very thick skinned sia!!!!!! haha... see already also got goosebumps. but i guess america's one was funnier.. agree?? oh yea, heard there is this firework display thingy this weekend... dunno if its sat or sun. anyone wanna go??? haha.

so bored, had management ICA in the morning. hope i can scrape a B or even better, an A?? hehe. it was rather easy la, coz its mostly common sense. dunno la. but i die also won't fail. cannot even fail. if i fail i die. haha. ok. i'm talking rubbish. sianz. the stupid com dun allow me to access friendster... not even my own tagboard!! idoit. sigh, waiting for jia jia and time to pass now. wonder hows tkd gonna be like later. last week we trained until my legs went jelly. really jelly. after doing the 90 squats, i cannot even stand. then somebody had to hold me for a while. so paiseh. haha.

OH YEA!!! I GOT MY EXAM DATE ALREADY!! ITS ON THE 24/09!!!! haiz. die already. i'm like practicing the piano everyday now. i can't fail this. i can't afford to fail this. i've come so far. i don't wanna screw this up. haiz. pray for me k. sigh.

right.. enough of that. yesterday i was dreaming of piano. soon enough, i'm gonna dream of the exam itself. once my exam's over.. it would really really be a load off my shoulders. provided that i pass it. siGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so bored, nothing to do now. its only 4:37 on the computer's clock. was mass sms-ing my old friends just now. ahhaa. my cousin sent this sweet sms to me arh, so i decided to send to those peeps that i missed. haiz. did i mention i'm really bored? haha. man, the place is really cold. kim.. tracy.. you guys free tml after 4??? feel like going somewhere.. meet up with u all. and oh yea.. still got qian's bday havent celebrate yet. wonder how's qian coping the o's now. must be damn stressed. and i'm like trying to save as much phone bill as possible. my dad was nagging like crazy when the bill came. haiz. what to do. dunno how come i use so much also. i tried to limit my usage you noe!!!!!! like i want to use so much. grrr. haiya. anyways... got nothing to write already. guess i'll blog again on fri.. haha.. which i always do.. coz theres absoultely NOTHING interesting about IT class.. sigh.. till then..

.ruffles off.

6.8.04

wth is wrong with blogspot?!!?? so irritating. don't know why i'm having such a bad day, in a bad mood. sigh. having IT class now, supposed to have some test. i've been having IT test for almost every week. its WAS alright for the past few weeks. but dammit. i just failed this one. but i can't be bothered. even if i get an egg for next week's test, i'll still pass overall.

haiz........... i seriously hate fridays. the IT class is a total waste of time. accounts sucks. i mean the teacher. i learn NOTHING in accounts tutorial. nothing at all. so damn sianz. i got a feeling i'm gonna fall sick soon. my nose hurts.

lotsa things have been weighing my mind recently. my piano exam and the upcoming tests. sianz. i still wished i was in NP. dammit. how can i ever get over this. haiz, i still haven't gotten my piano exam date yet. guess it'll be in sept. phew. thank God. i seriously don't know how am i going to pass my grade 8 at all. i can't seem to like the pieces i'm playing. i can't seem to play it well whenever theres someone watching me. so probably i should ask the examiner to stand outside the room while i play. stupid. then my dad's like... 'girl, you have practice hard ok... and do well for the exam' haiz. dammit. i don't even want to go for the exam. its stressing me out like hell. i hate it. hate it. hate it. hate it. hate it. hate it. hate it. hate it. hate it. hate it. hate it. hate it. even if i get ready for the exam, i'll still be on tenterhooks when the result release date comes. i'll never get over this. what if i fail the damned exam? am i supposed to re-take it? i dont' want to. if i do, i still have to go through another year of torture, and not know if i can pass it. if i don't re-take, then its like, what's the use? i don't even have a grade 8. AARGGG. either way, its a waste of money and time. haiz! seriously, i'm drained from this. i hate this. is there any way i can back out?

.ruffles off.

5.8.04

aaarrrrrrggggggg!!!!!! blogspot's getting on my nerves. so irritating. couldn't log in for a long time. kept showing me the 'please log-in before proceeding' page. and when i finally logged in in school and blogged 1 paragraph down, the stupid server didn't save it. idoit.

wanted to blog a couple of days ago, but like i said, i couldn't log in. anyways, its been a rather torturous 2 days for me. first, i didn't go for the founders day dinner. haiz. secondly, i'm aching from head to toe like hell coz of tkd. the training siao one. but i'll persevere. its fun. ;)

sigh, let me talk about the founders day dinner first. haiz. how i wish i could be there. i didnt go because i didnt get the tickets in time. and my china relatives wanted to have dinner with us before they left for china today in the morning, and partly because i didn't know what to wear. hehe. anyways, i hoped those who went had fun there. i'm sure you guys took lots and lots and lots of photos. load them up k... so i can go check them out. ;) actually arh, i borrowed a digi cam from my friend for the dinner one, but too bad i didn't get to use it. but its alright, i'm sure i still can get to meet up with some of you soon.

i'm aching all over since tues, but today's the worst. can't walk properly. haizzzz....!!!! the last time i ached so much was after last yr's napfa test. but this is the worst ache i've ever experienced. we did 20 pumpings, 20 sit ups, 20 burpees (soemthing like tt lar... dunno how 2 spell) ahha.. and 90 squats!!!! after like 80 squats, i cannot even stand already. but still completed it la. then we ran 3 rounds round the track, did alot of kicking.. which was quite fun la, xcept the instructor kept keeping an eye on me and my friend, coz i guess we're the weakest there. irritating. though it tough, but its fun. ;)

sigh, anyways, gotta study for the all the ICAs coming up. sigh, wish me luck!!!

.ruffles off.