.me being me.

31.7.04

today totally rawked!!!! haha.. coz i went back to fmss. haha. didn't know it would turn out to be this wonderful. btw, its family day in fmss, they had games, funfair and stuffs. thought i'll just go back to see see, look look, but ended up helping blenheim tend one of the stalls with tracy and his friends. went there at about 10 plus, met tracy and her poly friends, then sit down for a while, then tracy's friends left then we went to help blen. he machiam like some big boss eh? haha.. running around 11 stalls (out of which 10 are game stalls). me and tracy were helping out at the buying game cards and redemption stall.

actually, i thought blen's stalls were rather innovative. they had 10 game stalls running and a sorta 'counter' stall which sells this game card thingy for $5, it allows pple to play 3 games from the 10 games stall for free. then they come back with the stamp and redeem some prizes. so we were rather busy throughout. his stalls were rather popular. actually the games are quite kiddo, but most of the people playing are kids anyway. haha. had a lot of fun, gotta know this 2 guys from NP. haha.. got interesting details hor tracy.. but shan't reveal them. its our secret. haha. actually its nothing one la, not important. hahhaa. anyways, as usual, when the fair was about the end, we still had alot of those game cards actually, so we were like selling it at crazy prices like 5 for $3. still we managed to sell 98% of it. :)

saw alot of people, ex-fairsians and current ones. a very rare sight for me, since i'm in like a far far away school like NYP. so i kinda felt like i was back home. really homely. esp with tracy with me, and seeing so many people. gotta see people i've not seen in a long time, talked to people i've not talked to in a long time. ITS FAIRFIELD!!!!!!! haha. it was just like last year's funfair, fairsians buzzing around the school, so happening and such. i have to say, i love fairfield. no matter how sucky sometimes life can get in fmss, i had a lot of good times in it too. its still a place that i grew up in. literally. for 10 years. i miss it. its home. my 2nd home. guess no other place and replace it. never. so many memories. memories collected over 10 years. man, its never gonna be shattered.

i can tell you the different in NYP and FMSS man. its so damn different.
1. there are alot of pple speaking chinese in NYP, whereas everyone speaks english in FMSS
2. there is fairfield spirit, the unity (whether you like it or not) in fmss, whereas i feel none in NYP.
3. its so happening in fmss, unlike NYP
4. even tracy agrees with me on this: there are more cute guys and pretty girls in fmss than in our current polys. haha

sigh, i could have thought of more la, but lazy already. anyways, all i can say is, i had a wonderful day today.....!!!!

.ruffles off.

28.7.04

today feels like a sunday to me. haha. dunno why. i actually thought of calling sean and see if he's around westmall after church. haha. anyways, today is wednesday. got no school for me. sigh, die. tomorrow i've got ICA on oral com. haiz. hope i don't screw it up tomorrow, if not my ICA fail already.

having muscle ache now, esp at my thighs. i never actually ran or did any exercise except to stretch. coz yesterday had the tkd training. haha. really fun you know!! except their stretching is really a killer. i actually stretch until i got muscle ache. haiyo. nvm la, hope it helps me to grow taller. hahaa. learnt a few movements yesterday. haaa. tkd is more interesting than i thought it was. ahaaa. ok. i siao already, keep laughing.

anyways, finally i can sleep till 11 plus. not so tired anymore. grr.. got to go now... actually still have a lot of things to write but have to go bring my china relatives around s'pore...haha.. be back lAter!!!!! :)

.ruffles off.

26.7.04

my classmates today like having monday blues. everyone is like so sleepy and moody. haha. the journey to school is not really really long, but i can sit until my butt numb. well anyways, went to school as usual.. woke up at 6:30am. guess who i saw in the train? haha. john ho.. my sec 4 classmate. well.. he's still very much the same la.. in PJ. alot of pple in PJ arh? another fairsian infested place. haiz, not like NYP.

anyways, went to ngee ann with debbie today after school. haha. actually was supposed to go watch mean girls with jeremee and yenping, but the timings not right, so ended up meeting jeremee and yenping in ngee ann instead. had lunch with the two of them in canteen 1. debbie went to meet her friend then have to rush back to school. lolz. saw crispyegg at the bus-stop. haha. saw a few fairsians la. after lunch, we went to look for jieling at the library with her friends, gareth was there too, coz he's in the same class as her. saw sarah and roybn along the way.. hehe. anyways, saw gabriel in the library. haha. keep seeing him around. that day when i went to KAP, i saw him there too. the library is like so big, and so nice!! not that NYP's library is not nice, but its very typical library la. unlike NP's. then we went to canteen 3 while jieling and her friends had lunch. after that we walk to some blks..... den jieling walked us to canteen 1 to see us off.. haha. more like bring us there coz we dunno how to get out of NP. saw shaun along the way. then saw john from music concerto and terrence from 4F when we were crossing the road. thought that terrence looked familiar then realised he's also from fmss.. from yenping's class summore. haha.

sigh, i'm actually wondering how life would be like if i had gone to NP. probably i'll be happier than now. not that i'm complaining about NYP. its great in NYP.. wonderful class. but so foreign. i feel as if i'm studying abroad. go all the way to the north. i feel more at ease when i'm in NP than in NYP. familiar faces... it feels like home. sigh, i think i have to stop whining. but i can't help it!!! i'm seriously homesick. schoolsick more like it. or fmss-sick, or whatever you call it. sigh, we just don't appreciate stuffs till we've lost it. fairfield.fairfield.fairfield. people.people.people. fairfield people. fairsians. sob sob.

.ruffles off.

25.7.04

LOOKS ARE DECEIVING

LOOKS ARE DECEIVING

LOOKS ARE DECEIVING

LOOKS ARE DECEIVING

LOOKS ARE DECEIVING

LOOKS ARE DECEIVING

LOOKS ARE DECEIVING

LOOKS ARE DECEIVING

LOOKS ARE DECEIVING

LOOKS ARE DECEIVING

LOOKS ARE DECEIVING

Aint it?

.ruffles off.

23.7.04

alright, i'm in school blogging again. having IT class again. just had my IT test. haiz. i think i really dun have talent for computers. really thank God i didn't choose business IT. guess how much i got.. haha. i passed la, but just passed only. haiz. got a feeling i got the lowest in class. grrrr. so irritating. and i'm sitting right infront of the teacher's desk while she's walking around talking about chapter 6. haiiiiiii!!!

anyways, today's gonna be a long day again. got this IT class until 5pm. extreme sianzation. i really hate friday's classes. first lesson is IT for 3 hrs.. then 2 hrs break.. then 2 hrs of accounts. its not the subject accounts that puts me off, but its the teacher. wha piang. i tell you, he's super grrrrr. very hyperly, horribly, extremely grrr. my grr means he very sianz.. very niao... very haiz. and its because of the stupid accounts tutorial i have to miss my tkd trainings every fri. haiz. so irritating. the place i'm sitting is so damn cold lor.

so sianz. very hungry how. can't really think of what to write. i haven't gotten my piano exam date yet. phew. thank God. ;) the new pieces for next year's exam are out. those in the A list is damn easy. but list B and C are killers. esp list C. sigh. hm... maybe i should look up scarlatti songs. one of the exam pieces is composed by scarlatti, and its very nice... soothing.

and i think my home PC is gonna die soon. haiz. sometimes the screen just blank out for a few secs, sometimes up to 30 secs. what's happening man!??!!?!?! can somebody tell me!?!?!

2 more hrs to go... and counting down..... right.. i'll blog again next time.

.ruffles off.

21.7.04

supposed to have piano in the morning at 11. then he called at 11:45 and said he couldn't make it today. hahahaa. so happy. but i woke up so early just to prepare for the lesson then he say he cannot come. but its OkIEee..... i don't mind. haha. so hows everybody?? guess some people are equally or even more stressed than me arh? relax relax. guess everyone's stressed out on their own.

did i mention that i joined taekwondo as my cca??? haha. don't scream. dunno why i join also, seems like quite fun like tt. and i've got one of my classmate for company. we're both about the same height and everything, and she's also interested in tkd, so just join lor. haha. and we had our first training yesterday. haha. actually we missed 2 weeks of training because of classes and stuffs, so we were like abit lagging. training's on tues and fri, but we're excused for the fri one coz we have night classes. that means we're gonna miss out more. ahaa. but nvm la, hopefully we still can catch up.

anyways, yesterday's training was quite fun. coz we had something like a 'private' lesson from one of the black belts. so for yesterday, we were separated from the rest. tt guy who were training us is quite funny la. at first we thought die already, but he cracked lots of joke la, mainly on our movements. haha. i think i better not describe what we learnt la, later tracy sure laugh until she get stomachae from imagining how i'd look like. comfrim one. know her too well. hehe. so it was just the 3 of us for the start. he's quite patient la, quite cute. haha. i realised pple like to ask us 'you believe i can kick over your head?' dots. tt time john also ask me this qs. i believe la, after watching how they stretch. can die. nvm la, probably the stretching can help me grow abit more. whahaha. well, guess our first lesson wasn't too bad. quite fun actually, but can't say the same for the rest of the trainings, coz the instructor so strict lor. after our 'private' lesson, we went to join the rest of the white belts. they like quite pro already arh. can move so fast, me and my friend we were still like..... hUH? wad?!? where?! then the chief instructor say we no strength. we like going to tangle ourselves already, still care about strength. ahaha. anyways, the grading's gonna be done in oct. hope we can pass man. got this double promotion thingy arh. tt means you jump 2 grades if you do perform extremely well during the grading. but i doubt we can do it la. pass the grade we happy already. haha.

.ruffles off.

19.7.04

er.. did blogspot changed its blogging settings? seems like there are more font functions eh? or is my account going haywire? or is it being hacked into? ahah. iyah, i think i think too much.

hm... suddenly like got a lot of things happening at the same time arh. got founders day dinner thingy, ICAs, projects, church, something's happened at my old workplace, piano, sch stuffs, cca... BLAHX!!!! i think i missed a couple of stuffs out. so many until i cannot remember when's happening what or what's happening when? die. wch one sounds right? haiz, i'm so tired. so sleepy. cheah say i got eyebag. grrrrr. i think i all the while also got eyebag. when i was still working, wai quen keep saying my eyebag very obvious.

sigh, now i'm feeling the stress from sch work. all of a sudden i got so many academic stuffs to do. abit not used to it. sigh, i keep wishing i was in NP. i have to admit i'm not used to not see familiar faces in school. at least if i was in NP, i'll see fairsians all over the place, whereever i go. now in NYP, i wanna see angeline also difficult. sob sob sob. i miss fmss peeps. i miss the familiar faces i see since i was in pri 1. sigh. kim... tracy.... qian.... where are you!??!!?!?!?!!? hao xiang ni men. sigh, sometimes its not good to stay in the same school for so many year sia. you start missing your friends once the environment's changed. esp, after tt day i saw sam seah. i miss fmss even more man. so hard to find someone familiar.

iyah. don't talk about fmss already. the more i write about it, the more i think about it, and the more i miss it, and the worse i feel. the only thing that comforts me during my stay in NYP is my class. if its not for them arh, i think i die die also will transfer school no matter what it takes.

so sianz, let me write about what i did these few days la. hm... went to my cousin's bday bbq for her 21st bday last sat. she got a few cute guy friends. haha. hm.. and last sun was quite a horrible day la. dun wan to talk abt it. and today.... gotta wake up so early for my econs lecture. i think my econs, biz managment, oral com is still alright la, can understand what the lecturers are saying. but IT, stats and accounts die liao. esp IT. lucky i didn't choose business IT, if not die even more.

went to orchard with florence and debbie just now, then karkit joined us when we were at some shop trying out some clothes. talk about clothes. founder's day dinner is just round the corner in about 2 weeks time. i didn't realise it until yesterday syl talked about it. anyways, bought a blue skirt? i know kim sure will dress until like... WHOA. just hope i don't underdress, coz i will never overdress. i still dunno wad top to go with. i know sure alot of pple wear dress one. but i can't la, so fat already still wear dress. later look like some pig. probably i'll look for a white top la. not too unformal one. dunno la. see how it goes. grr.

AAAAAAAAHHHHHH. this wed i'm having my piano lesson. die. haiz. havent been practicing lately. die. summore exam's coming. die die die. stress stress stress. sigh.

.ruffles off.

16.7.04

haiz. in school now, having the IT class again. so boring!!!! dunno what she's talking about also. sigh, hope i don't fail this module. now she's talking about 'conducting business activities' - e-commerce, e-business models (B2C-customer check airfare, B2B-company buy material from another company, B2E-employee to its HR system)

....there... that's what she's talking about. and i have to sit here for 3 hrs listening to that. ok. now she change subject already. she's talking about the HISTORY of internet!!! haiz! save me!!! they have the notes online. i think i'll go read them again. its not that i don't want to pay attention. but its like impossible la!! haha. she's from taiwan, then her accent is like super off?? but she's a nice person, just that she talk until super sianz.

anyways, before i came to school, i was chatting with jeremee online. we were talking about going to pubs and smoking. you know arh, if you smoke, you waste your life, waste your money, waste your time. why do you want to go and purposely blacken your gums, blacken your lungs, get bad breath and stink whereever you go, then have to be so consious when you talk to people coz your breath and body stinks. you may say, socialize abit won't die. so i ask you, if you try one stick, you don't get addicted, will you not try another stick??? so in the end, you keep trying until you get addicted. then that's it. you only watch yourself destroying your own body and watch yourself die. my guy friends tell me that girls nowadays prefer the bad boy type of guys. i agree and disagree with that statement lor!! Agree because girls won't fall for a NERD. unless you're a nerd adorning teacup sized thick spectacles, with a flattened center parting hairstyle coated with a handful of gel and three quarter pants that goes all the way up to your chest, then you're safe, you're not a nerd. if you didn't know, in fact, girls get DISGUSTED and PUT OFF when guys smoke. at least, that's the case for me. when i see guys smoking, it seems to be they're like a SHOW OFF and ATTENTION SEEKING! puffing that white and brown stick coz they think its cool. it just shows that they don't love themselves. if you can't live up to yourselves and love yourselves, how can you love and care for others. sheesh. if you've read till this line and still think smoking is cool. then you're lying to yourself, cowarding and avoiding the truth.

GRRRRRRRR. sorry, i know what i've just written is HARSH. but reality is HARSH. if you expect me to take this kinda thingy lightly, i'm sorry. so my dear friends out there. whatever that you do, stay away from smoking. i really detest it. drinking is fine, as long as you don't become an alcoholic.

.ruffles off.

15.7.04

i feel bloggin and don't feel like blogging at the same time. always got alot of things to write about, but when i start writing, i can't think of anything to write about. so idoitic. haha.

hm... juz came back from school. had a rather exhaust-free week. haha. i mean, this week i practically went to sch at 1pm almost everyday. coz my management teacher changed her class from thus 8am to wed evening. and tomorrow i start class at 2pm and end at 9pm. and the rest of the days i start at 1pm, except mon i started at 10. but its alright la, franking speaking, i enjoy going to school. whahahaa. really, no joke. probably its because i have a wonderful class la. they are a really joyful bunch of people, like me like that. hahaha. i mean they are really friendly, caring, happy go lucky, easy going, really easy bunch of people to have fun and talk to lor. ;) phew. thank God for that!!!!! they know when to have fun and when to be serious. happy happy. haha. its like, everyday, theres bound to have something to laugh about, anywhere, anytime.

haha, actually i thought NYP is like so far away, the journey like so long like that, but now, it doens't seem that far. i take about 30 mins train ride. quite acceptable la hor. i think i'm used to it already. anyways, saw samuel seah at bb station when i came back just now. he's still the same, but getting more n more handsome sia. haha.

yea... anyways, yesterday jon intro-ed me this website http://www.wholivesnearyou.com its similar to friendster, just that this one matches you to ur neighbourhood people. and this one, unlike friendster, doesn't have the add friends kinda thing. its just browsing around people's profile, leaving messages, and they tell you if that person is online or wad. check it out la, its quite interesting.

.ruffles off.

13.7.04

sigh, in school using their com again. actually my class's supposed to start at 10, but the teacher changed it to 1pm. but anyways, i'm in school now. the clock here is 12.12pm. haha. the number very nice. actually yesterday i wanted to blog, then my dad came over and keep saying now its not the time to talk to guys blah blah blah. so irritating. tt day sean called my phone, and so sway he picked up. grrrrrrr. so irritating. he thinks i'm 7 arh! whole life want to control the stuffs that i do. so irritating. if he dun want guys to get near me, he should have sent me to girls' school from the start!!!!!! and i cannot imagine how i'd be like now if he did that!! grrr. dun talk abt it already. so angry.

anyways, continue from yesterday's blog. as i was saying, usually when people talk abt their love lie, its usually sad sad one. sigh,.......... later then continue...

.ruffles off.

12.7.04

i feel so xing fu. hahaa. tts my msn nick for now. lolz. why? i also dun really know. it seems like i have alot of friends who really cares eh? sigh, you all may not feel it, but i really do treasure each and every friend that i have. if you've realised i've hardly talked about my love life eh? i dunno why. probably dun like pple to know abt what's happening in my love life bah. dun you see, more often than not, when people write about their love life, its all the sad sad stuffs.

AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGG. MY DAD CRAZY ONE LA! KEEP THINKING I GOT BOYFRIEND. IDOIT!. DRIVING ME NUTS. SIAO ONE. I'M NOT 7 LOR. I'M 17. GIMME A BREAK. HE THINK I'M FROM GIRLS SCHOOL ARH!! NO GUY FRIENDS ONE ISSIT! HE XIAO XIN I BECOME LES. NEXT TIME IF I EVER BECOME LES, ITS HIS FAULT! BUAY TAHAN!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.ruffles off.

9.7.04

wah!!!! so sianz. in school now, the stupid computers dun allow us to use friendster and msn. siGhh!!!! how i wish i was in NP. so bored. dunno where my teacher go also, she left us in the computer lab. duno where to surf also. haha. hm.. i wonder what's eveybody else doing in school or wherever they are. lolz. i miss qtk. wonder if they're free next wed evening, then maybe can go out. sigh, my teacher's back.. haha. but dun care la, she also cannot see.. oops. hehe. haha. she intro-ing some books. having some IT lessons now. my IT lecturer is my personal mentor a.k.a my class form teacher la, personal metor is just a higher class name only. haha.

hm.. was late for class just now coz i lost my way. sigh. i think i really have no sense of direction. now tracy also cannot help me already. cannot bring me go tour NYP, haha. i really miss QTK man!! so long never see you guys already.

tomorrow i should be going for GB tomorrow, it starts at 9am. theres farewell today at 3pm, but too bad i'll still be in school, if not i might go. hm.. tomorrow i should be working. argg. dunno leh. its either i work tomorrow or i work on sunday. but sunday i wanna go church and mayb play bball in the afternoon. haha. hm.. so if i go for GB tomorrow, i can only start work at 2pm. sigh. like that might as well don't work. hm.. duno la, we'll see how. see if they can play bball on sun first anot. i'm so tired so staying home all day. i need some time out.

had piano in the morning. hm.. well, at least i think i'm improving. but its a little too late to be improving now right!?!?!? haiz. i know. at least my teacher isn't irritated with me anymore. hehe. hopefully i can scrape a pass for this grade 8 exam!!!!!! arg.. have to practice more. HOPEFULLY, i'll get the exam date as late as possible coz the later i'm informed, the later my exam date will be. hehe. hopefully, it'll be either in late aug or sept. i must PERSEVERE!!!! just a couple of months more, and i'm FREE!!!!! sigh. really hope i can pass this exam. everyone pls pray for me k, pray that i'll be able to allay my fears during the exam and i can persevere till that very moment and play like never before so i can amaze the examiner!!! haha... i'm serious. i have to learn to control my nervousness. sigh. I CAN DO IT. haha. =)

i think this entry's quite long enough, so i think i'll end here. sigh. now's only 3:27PM on my school's clock. they have this clock system thingy that is synchronized throughout the whole school, anyways, its still a long way to 9pm. I MISS MY COM!! ok, nvm, better pay attention already. later cannot catch up. =)

.ruffles off.

8.7.04

actually i'm in school now, using their computer. haha. very sianz arh!!! they bar us from surfing the friendster website and their computers also got no msn!!!!!!!!! like that surf what!!! haha... so sianz. i miss my com.

anyways, haven't been blogging for a couple of days so might as well blog now since i can't use friendster or msn. haha.

hm... now that school has started, i'll be quite buzy eh? haha, i think before school started, i was online 24/7. now, cannot come online as often as before already, haha. nvm la, haha. time to study already. lolz.

yesterday i had no school, coz my timetable got no classes on wednesdays. haha. but thurs and fris very taxing leh. thurs classes starts at 8 and ends at 6. haiz. then fri classes starts at 2 but end at 9!!! lolz. sobs. that means cannot go out on friday nights already.

whaha.. my friend type my name as med-die. lolz. like cursing me like that sia. lolz. later go back then blog again.. haha...

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ok.. i'm home already!!! haha. waaahhhhh. today's a really really long day. i'm shagged. ok la, not as bad as i make it sound to be, but very tiring leh!!! wake up so early, coz the school is so super far!!!!!!! sigh, i still wished i was in NP instead. nearer and more fairsians there. but alright la, its only 1/2 hr train ride from bukit batok mrt station, summore i stay so near the station only, not even 3 mins walk. lolz. haiz. anyways, today's classes are alright la, still can catch up. the lecturers are very patient, nice, they make sure you can understand them. that's good ya noe, esp for people like me. but got alot of homeworks to do, some online one, then got newspaper one, then got the notes one, and more thing.. i dunno when to hand them up. i dunno if we're to hand up during tutorials or lectures. haiz. i very blur already!!!!!!! sigh. haha. but still... cope-able la, lolz, dunno if theres such a word. haha.

just saw the advertisment promoting ocean's cd. sound very nice.. haha. the other day i just bought the grand piano cd. its very nice too. you listen to the techniques, very unique, dunno how they do it. haiz. anyways.. gotta go eat dinner already.. very hungry... haha.

.ruffles off.

5.7.04

finally today school start already. woke up at 6:20.... waaah. so tired. yesterday night can't seem to fall asleep. mayb abit too excited already bah. haha. anyways, went to school with angeline today, then met shihui at yew tee mrt station. thanks to angeline's friends, then we were abit late. haha. but ok la, first day can excuse. then i realised i forgot to bring my tag!! arrg. then so dao mei, we were late for lecture. lucky the lecturer never say anything. pHoO, lecturer very crappy lor!! quite boring actually. it was econs, hm.. quite alot of graphs. then i caught myself daydreaming a few times. die. i duno la, he like keep repeating the same thing, then so sianz, then i think of other stuffs, then oh no!! dream and dream. haha. but alright la, still can understand what he's talking about. then we had break, coz he let us off early.. haha. then we had our lunch at the north canteen. as usual, richard was stoning away. he really power you know!!! he really really literally stone. he can just stare at a blank space for like a few hours!! serious!! the other time during orientation, he stoned for like 1 hr, coz we were waiting for our OGLs while they had their debriefing. he will only look up when you talk to him, then afterwards he will resume back to his stoning-in-action again. whaha. super hilarious.

well anyways, after that we had tutorial, doing stats. that module quite complicated. abit blur, but lucky got notes. and i still dunno whether to buy the textbook anot. die man, so many textbooks, all so expensive summore. last month's pay sure gone one. wah, my this tutorial teacher reminds me of ms lim. as in, she likes to draw everything out, very clear cut. still remember that time we had this meeting with ms lim in the humans room, she was telling us about.. how the brain works, blah... how to improve... then got.. your potential is this high.. then blah. can't really remember. she made us copy so many things, but end up we didn't even take a second look at the paper after the meeting. so... hm.... today is alright la, but feeling alittle stressed. the lecturers make it sound like its so easy to fail a module. scary. then first day i got homework already. haiz. nvm la, today's one still quite easy.

sigh, so sleepy, but i can't fall asleep. if i sleep now, tonight sure cannot sleep, then tomorrow i'll be so tired again.

sigh, kim, tracy and qian are meeting at dover now to celebrate kim's belated birthday. haiz. miss them.

oh yea, btw, i just came across this beautiful story:

a guy and a girl were speeding over 100mph on the road...
Girl: slow down. I'm scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No, its not. Please, Its too scary.
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow Down!
Guy: Now, give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet and put it on? Its buggin me.

-In the papers the next day: A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure.

-2 people were on it, but only 1 survived. The truth was that, halfway down the road, the guy realized that his break broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know.

-Instead, he.. had her say she loved him and felt her hug 1 last time, and have her wear his helmet, so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.

.ruffles off.

2.7.04

2 more days before school starts. counting down. i'm so bored, doing nothing at home, slacking away like nobody's business. hai!! even my english is also going downhill, its getting more and more broken. and i'm using more and more singlish. have to brush up my eng soon.

nothing interesting happened today. went to mc to slack and then went for lunch with huaqian and sean. yesterday night i had rashes, then my neck abit red.. then they keep saying its love bite. dots. haha. anyways, i finally bought the grand piano cd. very nice, very soothing. haha.

oh yea!! had piano in the afternoon. pHewW. its over. as usual it was horrible la. but thankfully he didnt get pissed with me. he said got improvements, but deep down i know better. my playing sucks, but he just dun wan to discourage me. so different from my first piano teacher. she was so fierce!! every lesson will scold me, scream at me. crazy one. then this teacher so nice, hardly scold me. even when i suck, he still say i'm alright. haiz. i think he's too lenient already, lenient until i not scared. haiz. phew. i panick every thursday man, coz i have lessons on fridays. anyways, did aural today. die man!!!!!! either i'm tone deaf or i always sing out of tune. haiz. die die die. hate aural. its so horrible. i can't sing for nuts!!@#$@#!! sigh, still dunno when is the exact date for my piano exam. hope it'll be late august. pls...... pls Lord let it be late august.

sigh. and my phone's going crazy. haiz. i dropped it on the floor today. heard a loud shattering splat. haiz. ok la, mayb not so exaggerated. just minus away the 'shattering' - that's what i heard. now my phone the screen got this big '+' on the screen. the colour's abit off. its not the casing that broke, but it seemed like some wire went haywire. hopefully i can send it for repair soon. luckily i got another phone to replace it in the meantime. hopefully it won't cost me too much to repair it.

.ruffles off.

1.7.04

sigh. just read jieling's blog. sigh. i think 90% of fairsians went to NP. at least you see familiar faces around the school. at least you have close friends in the school. sigh. i'm getting sick of seeing new faces, meeting new people everyday. COZ FOR THE PAST 1/2 A YEAR SINCE O LEVELS ENDED, I'VE BEEN DOING THAT!!!!!!!!!! its not that i don't wanna make friends, but i feel like i kinda strayed from my old old friends. its like 70% of the friends that i talk to nowadays is new. dunno why am i complaining. i dunno how to describe la, but its like homesick kinda feeling. i mean, i've been in fairfield for like 10 years.. all my friends.. practicaly ALL of them are from fairfield... or was from fairfield. then i have friendships that are like 10 years or older... the ones i have with QTK is like at least 4-5 yrs... fairfield is like HOME already. so now, being outta fairfield, we're die die also have to meet new people and make new friends rite.... i know. but its like all of a sudden, i make so many new friends. very weird you know. siGh. WHY MUST NYP BE SO FAR AWAY!??!?!!? if not confrim there will be more fairsians choosing NYP. sigh.

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just chatted with QTK. whoa. its been a long time since we had a conversation online together. miss them so much. its like back to the old times...............*memories* *sweet sweet*
haha.. ok. just now before the conversation, i was feeling quite grumpy... now.. not so. haha..!!

.ruffles off.