.Dont start with Me.

.you wont win.

29.4.04

just discovered the world's greatest free demo song composer and its so irritatingly complicated. sIgh. wHy!??!?!? irritating. i was trying to figure out the features and everything but i still don't know how to use it. its called fruityloop or something like that. its damn cool. david introed it. he doesn't want to tell me how to use it!!! gRrrr. he says i must ownself go and figure it out. -.-'' i'm not computer pro. and even if i am, its so complicated!!!! and i don't understand alot of terms!!!!! then i tried this sibelius thing. its a little like noteworthy. easy to use. then when i finally composed a short tune and tried to save it. they told me the demo doesn't support that function. gRrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i think i need to go for some crash course on such programme huh? its so fun! everyone should go and try it. you only need basic theory to be able to compose. the rest is up to your own creativity. anybody wanna try it out?? haha. i can teach you basic theory tho. haha.

just remembered tomorrow i've got piano at 11am. sIgh. dIe. i hate piano lessons. it really drowns my mood. i hate it. hate it so much. i hate the exam, i hate the pieces. you know, when i was still staying in Jurong West, i've got this neighbour who is so irritatingly talented in music. he got inspired to learn piano coz of me. *smirkes*. haha.. really. not kidding. he heard me play and he wanted to learn. and dang! in like 3-4 mths time, he was able to play fur elise. and i really hated that song so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it used to be my favourite tune. that is- until he started playing it EVERYDAY. and from that day onwards, i get so irritated whenever i hear anybody playing the piano unless i'm the one playing it la. haix. i found peace in bukit batok. whaha. i sound so unfriendly.

siGh. tracy's family is gonna give jovi away. Sob. i love jo boy too. if my parents ever give pappy away i'll run away from home till pappy is back home too. i'm serious. if not i'll just elope with pappy. but i doubt that will ever happen, coz my dad loves pappy so much. alright.. i think i'll just pen off here. wish me luck for tomorrow's lesson. ciao.

.ruffles off.

28.4.04

was quite lazy recently. haha. went to work as usual for these couple of days. woke up especially early today to open the shop. super tired. almost fell asleep on the table. haha. i'm so tired!!!!! getting a lot of eyebags. sIgh. 1 more day before i have my piano lesson on friday. haIx. help me. i'm like forcing myself to practice. but i just dont seem to be getting anywhere. soBs. arg. don't talk about it anymore. pray i'll be able to get thru this grade SUCCESSFULLY. i don't need to get merit or a distinction. just a pass i'll be happy enough. sob.

going for the medical check up tomorrow. wonder how it'll be like. i don't remember going for x-rays before. haha. the song 'chun zai' by 5566 keeps ringing in my mind. nice song. sigh. charm's birthday is.. TOMORROW!!!!!!!!! hm.. wished her happy birthday yesterday tho. haha. coz i couldn't remember if it was on the 27th or 28th or 29th. happy birthday charm... you've been a great friend. hope we'll be able to keep in touch when even when my school term starts yea? don't forget we're gonna learn driving together kay? ;)

talked to wei xiong today about his spiritual life. tho he does have a past that its not easy to shake off. deep down, he is basically someone giving the best of himself now. giving his best in whatever he does. coz he found God. i really see people changing... its so visible. its amazing. ;) haven't been going to church or cell groups myself. siGh. i hope this will change when school term starts. =)

.ruffles off.

26.4.04

hm. what kind of person am i? i don't know. but i do know i don't hide and make up stuffs. i try to be as honest and sincere as much as i can possibly be. i'm not someone who will go and look for trouble. sometimes i admit la, i'm loud, a little straight forward and mayb abit thick skin la. but tts me!!!! if you're not used to it. that's ur problem. my close friends are fine with it. or should i say normal people would be fine with it. they accept who i am and bear with it, coz i accept who they are and bear with their imperfections. i don't try to be 2 faced. if i dont like it, i voice my opinoins. but of course i do know when to SHUT UP. and i expect others to know when to shut up too. friends who knows me well will know that i hardly get angry, and when i do, its no joke. so pls. quite lying to me. i can only tolerate up 2 a certain extent.

*sorry this blog is targeted at a certain somebody. i needed a place for me to complain.haha.. ;)

.ruffles off.

24.4.04

just read the testimonial adnan wrote. man. it was great. was quite touched la. haha. thanks bro. u make me sound so perfect. haha. SOMETIMES, i admit la, i maybe a spoilt brat. it was great knowing you, tho u keep teasing me all the time, but i know its harmless la. tho its been like only 3 mths, i'm just so glad that i've gotta know you better. continue to update me even after i've left MC yea? haha.

just saw the nicole highway news on tv. they've given up rescuing the last missing person. hAiX. May the Lord Bless his soul. he actually cheated death once. he was able to climb out of the rubble and he could have just ran for his life, but he didn't. he went back in and saved 8 more lives. when he went in for the 9th time. he never appeared again. if he had left after he saved himself, the death poll would be more than 4. more hearts would be broken. soB. so sad. at least he didn't die for nothing. God bless him and his family. Sob. wha liew. i feel so down now.

coz someone keeps lying to me. man. stop it. tell me the truth! i'm not unreasonable. quit lying to me. man. this sucks.

.ruffles off.

22.4.04

ok. i'm so tired. kinda irritated. why? coz of the stupid piano. i dun wanna take exams!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! help. haiX. i really got nothing to say. the first hurdle was o levels, then the results, then the posting.. now the stupid piano!!!! when am i gonna be free from worries?!?!?!?!?!?!?! hAiX. i think of the piano exam i wanna cry liao. haiX. soB.

.ruffles off.

21.4.04

i'm so tired and bored. i wanna work and don't want to work at the same time. when i don't work. i'll have nothing to do. if i work, i'll be longing to get out of the shop and go home. ok. i know i'm nuts, its just like when we're in school, we will look forward to holidays. when we're having holidays, we'll look forward to school. haha.

didn't work yesterday, so i went to work today. so sianz. i was so bored! and my eye hurts. got some stupid infection. and i wanna burn a CD! i got the songs ready already!! just waiting for the stupid idoitic john to burn it. irritating idoit. Grrr...... y isn't jake online?!!? i've been waiting for him to send me tt song.. grrrr.... haix. i'll have to work again tomorrow then it'll be friday! gonna have lessons on friday!! ahhhhh!! dIE. time is zooming past and i've only learnt 2 songs and a half. still got 2 more pages to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaarggggg.. help. die. and i haven't even done aural. dunno wad cadance.. blahx.. blahx. die. and theres still scales. DiE! hElp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really really really really really dread piano. hElp!!! tell me this isn't real. and i've still received no news from NYP. haix. sometimes i really wonder if they got stamp the appeal paper correctly anot. i really wonder if it is really successful then they use the wrong chop. haiX. but i'm still safe la.. angeline also haven't gotten any news yet. hehe.

ok. i'm so tired. got this email long ago, but i remembered it suddenly. quite touching... read it.. if its true, a terminally ill girl wrote it..

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids

On a merry-go-round?

Or listened to the rain

Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?

Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last.

Do you run through each day

On the fly?

When you ask How are you?

Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done

Do you lie in your bed

With the next hundred chores

Running through your head?

You'd better slow down

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last.

Ever told your child,

We'll do it tomorrow?

And in your haste,

Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,

Let a good friendship die

Cause you never had time

To call and say,"hi"

You'd better slow down.

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere

You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,

It is like an unopened gift....

Thrown away.

Life is not a race.

Do take it slower

Hear the music

Before the song is over.

.ruffles off.

19.4.04

didn't blog for 2 days. haha. coz i was so damn tired for the past couple of days. mr cheah and mrs cheah's in KL. so we had to open the shop. and classes starts so early on sat and suns. i was practically zombified at the end of the day. BUT we had fun. whaha. created havoc in the shop. haha.. jk la. but at least we don't feel so stressed. but anyway, he'll be back tomorrow and i don't have to work tomorrow. haha.

the weathers so hot. i wanna go down!!! i wanna be out!! ok. sounds so childish. but really. i don't like to stay home at night. why do you think i can stay up all night during class chalets. coz i don't like to stay indoors at night!!! alright. i'm so hyper right now. i really feel like going down for a walk. meet somebody. sit down and chat. i miss 2e chalets. dunno why. probably we always go for a walk when everyone starts to fall asleep. haha. still remember last year we tried to watch daybreak, but the plan failed la. coz we couldn't spot the sun. haha.

sighx. one more month before me and angeline leaves music concerto. soB. although work there is damn boring. but we had fun. really. met lots of nice people. made lots of friends there. soB. haha. oh well, the day will have to come sooner or later. man, i'm gonna miss that place, the people there.

i'm so tired. but i dun feel like sleeping. haix. well, take care everybody, God bless~!!

.ruffles off.

16.4.04

i'm so tired. woke up at 9 today. went to open the shop with angeline. my boss will be in KL for the next few days. yay!~ =) i think i'm not used to this. waking up early and sleeping late. i feel sick already. and the air conditioning in the shop sucks. damn cold. i don't know why i'm feeling so sucky these few days. the BGR 'flu' caught up with me eh? haha. but i'll be fine. i'll get over it. gRrrr. i hate this. grrrrR.

what's up with me?
why am i like this?
why are you constantly on my mind?
i can't seem to stop thinking of you
its been a long time since i've fallen for someone
so long
its been years
why are you so special?
i don't want to think of you
i don't want to keep missing you
i dont't want to fo fawning over you when i don't even know how you feel
where are you now?
i'm thinking of you again
will i ever stop doing that?
i don't know
i'm feeling the blues
i'm not on the clouds
i think i just wanna know what you're thinking
how you feel
coz i can't seem to read your mind

ok. ignore that. i just needed some place to let my thoughts out. just searched for some songs. saw the lyrics of this song:

I thought that you'd be loving me.
I thought you were the one who'd stay forever.
But now forever's come and gone
And I'm still here alone.

'Cause you were only playing,
You were only playing with my heart.
I was never waiting,
I was never waiting for the tears to start.

It was you who put the clouds around me.
It was you who made the tears fall down.
It was you who broke my heart in pieces.
It was you, it was you who made my blue eyes blue.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.

I thought that I'd be all you need.
In your eyes I thought I saw my heaven.
And now my heaven's gone away
And I'm out in the cold.

'Cause you had me believing,
You had me believing in a lie.
Guess I couldn't see it,
I guess I couldn't see it till I saw goodbye.

Chorus

'Cause you were only playing,
You were only playing with my heart.
I was never waiting,
I was never waiting for the tears to start.

It was you who put the clouds around me.
It was you.

Chorus

Oh, I never should have trusted you.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.

By: Eric Clapton - Blue Eyes Blue

i'm not so depressed yet. haha. the lyrics kinda apply and don't apply to me at the same time. well, some parts do. ok. i'm simply feeling so bLuE...

.ruffles off.

14.4.04

[Verse 1]
It's been a long and winding journey, but i'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces, walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory, where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling, when i look into your eyes...

[Bridge]
My dreams came true, when i found you
I found you, my miracle...

[Chorus]
If you could see, what i see, that you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

[Verse 2]
Standing here before you, feels like i've been born again
Every breath is your love, every heartbeat speaks your name...

[Bridge 2]
My dreams came true, right here in front of you
My miracle...

[Chorus]
If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

[Bridge 3]
Brought me here to be with you,
I'll be forever grateful (oh forever Faithful)
My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle...

[Chorus]
If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...
Yes they brought me here...
If you could feel, the tenderness i feel...
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

this is a nice song.. john introed it. got attracted to the very first note. go dl it or something. hear it. nice. =)

so i didn't work today. the weather was so darn hot. really. i hate heat. i hate hot weather. brings my mood down. grrr. haha. ok. i shan't starting whining again. hehex.

i think my com is being hacked into. either that or i kana some virus. first my website homepage got changed. i didn't change it, someone, somebody, something changed it. that was yesterday. today, 2 of my desktop icons looks like it got virus-tized. i don't know how to explain. how!?!? somebody help me. serious. scanning my com for virus now. last week when i did the scan, some virus was detected and repaired. when i check back to the activity log, norton told me it was deleted. hope it really is. haix. die. see how it goes.

listening to the song now. so nice. =) went for lunch with angeline and jeremy today at sakae. so full. we hit 32 plates. whaha. and jeremy treated us to it. so nice of him. but i think i'm gonna buy a box of chocolate for him la. cannot make him pay. i didn't felt like going home. i don't like to stay indoors on such a hot day. anyways, i watched little mermaid 2 today. so nice. ariel's daughter melody is so cute. just like her mom. the song's nice too.

then i went online, went offline. then i decided to go for a walk in the park. called david. haha. at first he said wait for a while. then when he decided that he was done with whatever he was doing. it was my turn to ask him to wait a while. then when i was done, he said he feel like sleeping. haha.. i almost killed him. haha no la. then finally we brought our doggies for a walk. then i met my dad to stroll in the park. the weather was so warm that my hair was sticking to my neck after 5 mins coz of the sweat. ahaha. but it was nice sweating it. i felt like going for a jog then. haven't been excercising. growing fat. grrr. then i came back for a shower. watch the 9pm chn 8 show. the last part reminded me so much of my own grandma. she had cancer too. i was 7. didn't know much then. but i knew what death meant. it means losing somebody i love. i cried. i didn't get to see her. i missed her. i still do. when i see people with their grandparents, i always get a pang in my heart. but i'm alright with it. probably missing them too much and too long always get me envy-ing them. =) sighx. like what it was said in the show. dying is part of life. its not something we can control. all we can do is to live life to the fullest. to the brim. =)

.ruffles off.

13.4.04

wai quen says i look shagged. i didn't realised. i must have looked so horrible. eye bag and panda and everything. but i'm actually sleeping more than anybody else you know!!!! i sleep at around 12 plus every night and wake up at about 10 every morning. so i get about 10 hrs of sleep everyday!! and i still look shagged. is there something wrong with me or am i simply sleeping too much? or should i cut down on sleep? arg... its only 11pm now and i feel so damn tired. man... i don't know if i should sleep more or less. haha. sleeping blues. doTz. wonder how is tracy doing in shanghai. is she sleeping well? haha.

anyways, seems like everyone is having their own problems huh? i don't know how i can help, but my utmost advice is to leave everything to God. i see lives being changed. really. trust me. but you have to open up your heart first. God is constantly knocking on the doors of your heart. but if you ignore him and don't respond... theres no way you can feel His love. and God is love. you were born to love. love your enemies. love the people around you. love God. love yourself. and if you don't feel his love, you'll feel that your life is in chaos. actually everyone's life is full of problems, but its how you face it, how you deal with it. So i juz wanna encourage everybody to face your problems with a positive heart, positive mind. Don't worry excessively about things. Face your problems. don't try to avoid. And most importantly, leave it to God. really. pray and ask God for guidance. and without any doubt i'm sure He will be more than willing to walk with you. i don't know how to explain. Have faith. walk by faith. Do not leave any rooms for doubts. have faith and believe. God will NOT fail you. Its no use telling yourself that God will make a way and not beliving that He will. take care my friends. look to God. really. i mean it. Sometimes things may not go according to the way YOU want it to be. BUT according to how God wants it to be. so just leave everything to God. pray and spend more than with Him and he will reveal his purpose for you. after so much. i don't know if you understand me, but yea. plain and simple. have FAITH and look to God for guidance. =)

.ruffles off.

12.4.04

woke up at 10 plus today. which is the reason why i'm feeling so sleepy now. haha. ok. anyways, went online in the afternoon, bathed and went for work. so here i am now, typing this boring blog.

was reading my friend's blogs. joel posted this qs: Is it ever possible for a guy and a gurl be close friends only.....and stay this way without developing feelings for each other as time goes by? Or all close friendships betwn a guy and a gurl will always end up with the 2 being an item after a while?

actually i think 90% will end up as an item. i don't know why. don't you think so too? once a guy and a gurl gets too close, feelings will develope BUT it doesn't mean that they'll last as a couple. I feel that i'm one of the examples. We end up realising that we're better off. much better off as friends. good friends, friends that can last. unlike a BGR that doens't last. But still, if you don't give it a try, you wouldn't know if you'll last as soulmates. But yeah la, its a risk taken. anyways, let nature take its course ba.. if feelings really develope, then let it be.

then i read yan's blog. this is for you my dear: we all know that its not gonna be easy. in fact its gonna be tough. But if u ever need anyone to talk to, need anyone to help you, need someone to chill out, all of us will be here yea? I juz wanna encourage you to leave everything to God, search deep within your heart to find that key to unlock the doors and then invite Jesus in. Trust in Him and look to Him in all that you do my dear. Trust me, you've got sincere friends all around you. You'll pull through yea? 8 mths compared to a lifetime, to eternity is nothing yea? just get through this 8 mths and look forward to new future a new beginning yea? anyways, jus wanna say, stay positive, dont be so negative, what's done cannot be undone. At least you're moving on, not staying stagnant. But what's more important is you. Not your brain. i would prefer a positive, cheerful yanbing than a despondent, negative yanbing. Stay close to Jesus yea? God bless ya always...

.ruffles off.

11.4.04

You are a sensitive person and often find yourself daydreaming about your past and future. You are quite conservative and the values that your parents and teachers instilled in you still play an important part in your decision making.

You are always wilful and most of the time, you are a stubborn person. But you love to work and are quite honest, which makes you good to get along with as a friend or lover.

You are vigorous yet gentle. You appear to be mysterious to those who don't know you very well because you don't often reveal your feelings. You like to socialize and are popular among your peers.

You are logical, smart and inventive. Sometimes you are too cold and selfish.

got that from this website in fel's blog: http://media.euniverse.com/funpages/cms_content/1986/youarewhatyoueat.swf

quite interesting huh? don't know if its true. mayb about 55%. somtimes i'm cold and selfish?!!??!!?!?!?! i didn't realise.. haha.. :p

.ruffles off.

10.4.04

yAY~!!!!! just opened my mailbox. the appeal was successful! YaY~! thank God it was successful!!! if not i'll be schooless.. pHeW~! tHanK yOu JesUs~! MuaCks~! ok. my shoulders feel so much lighter now~!! haha~!! dUM dEee dEee Dum.. haha. ok. i'm crazy. lAlallalaa~! ok. i can't stop singing~!!! oh yeah.. today's yenping's bIrtHDay~! hApPy bIrThDay gal~!!! you've been a sweet friend. whatever that may happen.. things good and bad.. just wanna pray that you'll learn to depend on God yea? its been a real joy being in the same sq as you. tAke cArE and God Bless yea??????????

so i went to school today after GB's enrolment. sat down with yen, pam, cheryl, jas, felicia, khariyah.. blahx. then mrs foong came over to talk to us. and yea lor.. ms song's mole is really gone. hehe. sorry its not mocking... was just making a comment. anyways, i think she's alright la.. only sometimes she's quite irritating. anyways, after that we went to the staff loungue.. haha.. coz we were complaining about the weather.. so hot. so she act like she wanted to discuss something.. then we just slipped into the staff room. haha. Mr siew was there.. eating the leftovers from the enrolment. haha. he like got a lot of comments arh. haha. then we stayed there and chatted about the new system in fairfield. and yenping was so worried that she will be late for her manicure appointment. -.-" Haix. haha.

so after that we went to taka. while yenping was doing her manicure, me and jas went to mac. then were talkking about Christianity. you know, God is able to attend to every single one of our needs, listen to every single prayer, comfort every single broken heart, reach out to every single person in the world. isn't that amazing? it may seem impossible to us, but not to Him.. coz He is God!!! and while talking to jas, i just felt like you know, we share a Father, a God that is so close to each of our hearts. And words fails to describe how much God means to each of us. Its just wonderful.. my lover, my saviour, my Father, my everything!!!! He's the pillar of every single soul. I don't know how to describe la. but if you have Jesus in your heart, you'll know what i mean. =) and i'm still so glad, thankful, happy, high, blahx blahc blahx that my appeal got through~! yAy~!!! =)

.ruffles off.

9.4.04

didn't blog yesterday coz i went dinner with daddy and mommy and came back late. haha. went east coast for seafood. i haven't been there for quite a few months already. the moon was round and in orange!! beautiful. after dinner... we went strolling and stuffs. its really nice and cozy at the beach at night. cool weather... quiet... a place for inspirations and thoughts. so i was singing this song:

i love to worship you my God
i love to worship you my God
and feel your precious breath from heaven
you love unfolding gifts from heaven

i love to worship you my God
i love to worship you my God
and feel your precious breath from heaven
your all consuming love

holy spirit come in power
change my life
that i may live for you my God

let your spirit come in power
change my life
that i may live for you my Lord
fall on us Lord..

yes i know i've typed it here before.. but the lyrics were wrong.. hehe. anyways, as i was singing it, i sang myself to tears. when you actually sing it with your heart and soul.. meaning every word of the song, you feel God and nothing else matters =)

so i went home feeling peaceful. haha. alright.. so that was what happened yesterday. just wanted to share the song with everybody and just want to encourage everyone to sing it with your heart and soul. or just you know.. commit yourself to God all over again.

went for dinner with mr and mrs cheah, pam, angeline. probably i'll bring QTK there one of these days. mayb during kim's bdae la. i'm sure you guys will love it. ok. anyways, i don't feel like blogging anymore. so tired.

.ruffles off.

7.4.04

went to meet yenping, lijia, peter, andrew, pam at JP today. went to toy-sarus(sp??), ate at long john and stayed there to crap and lame about as usual. with peter there, you can imagine the lame stuffs they talked about.. haha. was playing with peter's engage. was playing the sonic and i didn't even know i won the game. then i was banned from it. gRrr. then yenping as usual was taking pictures... BUT not her that old rickety cam... but a brand new shiny digital cam. haha.. no la. her old cam not that rickety actually. QUITE good actually. ok anyways... yea lor... after warming our butts on the long john chairs, lijia, andrew and peter went to the LIBRARY to borrow some books. while me, pam and yenping went to bodyshop. we were supposed to meet at coffebean but the 3 guys somehow went to the petshop. -.-" ordered some cakes and drinks and stayed there till about 4:12pm.. while i wrote cards for QTK. and AS USUAL... we just crapped, talked and laughed. but it was nice spending time with them all. so lijia and peter gave me this arty thing that looked like a photo frame with 2 ducks drawn on the front. yenping gave me this topshop undergarment. -.-" hAhAx. then pam gave me this purple bear which i named... "**" haha.. try to guess the name la.. haha.. jk...anyways, thanks guys.. spending time with you all was more than enough coz i don't know when we'll see each other again.. =)

then after that i met qian at JP control station at abt 4:24pm =) then we took the train with pam and yenping. qian gave me this butterfly necklace. thanks gal.. its beautiful. then we met kim and tracy at holland the nydc, while yenping was asking for a job there.. haha. anyways, kim looked so different. so cute.. coz she cut her fringe and partly because she was in her PJ uniform. tracy's hair decided to stay at that length coz she said she didn't cut her hair but it looked like she cut it or something, and she gave me this hillsong-hope CD. thanks gal...if you didn't know its my first christian CD.=) Then qian was in this white dress. she looked so feminine!! and she slimed down!! but anyways, i'm just so glad that you lot are there. so it was just the 4 of us again. kim was so hungry.... haha. we ordered this wiggrly piggy thingy, monster dunno wad mudpie, potatoe salad and a pasta or pizza. anyways.. the food is so nice... then we took pictures.. hEhEx. anyways, i'm never bored with you gals around. theres always things to talk about... things to laugh about.. things to suan about. i don't know when we'll meet again. coz we always say must meet soon, but we end up also never meet one. so tracy the bummer.. must plan another one next mth k. dun warm your butt on the sofa infront of the tv. k la. words can't express how i feel. i just feel so contented. its like after so long, after eons and eons.. we finally get to meet again. as in.. just the 4 of us again. like i wrote in the cards. i really treasure and cherish every minute spent with you all. =)

ok.... i'm so sleepy.. tml's my hatchday..haha.. k la. cyaz all!! love ya all! thank God for ya all! God Bless ya all! mUaCkS!!

.ruffles off.

6.4.04

today was so busy in MC. ate my lunch from 1 plus to 5 plus. can u imagine the interruptions?!?!!??!!? but nvm... gonna meet my friends soon!!! tomorrow!!! yay~!!!!! gonna meet lijia, andrew, yenping, peter in the at 12pm. then i'm meeting qian first before meeting kim and tracy. yay~! so excited. i wanna take this time to catch up with the 3 of you ok. its been so long. so much has happened. seriously, after meeting with you all tomorrow, i don't know when it'll be the next time we'll meet again. last year was also renuion day on my birthday. haha. anyways.. miss u all so much.

so i won't be working on wed, thurs and sat this week!! yay~!!! ok. i'm going crazy... 2 more days... (=>.<=) haha.. doens't that look like a cat? i'm high~!!! ok. i better log off before i scare off anyone else~!!! tata~!!!

.ruffles off.

5.4.04

yay~! 3 more days to my birthday!!! that tracy called me in the afternoon and the first thing she ask was what i want for my birthday... haha. where got pple so straight forward one!!!! gRrrrr... anyways... anyone wanna know about my birthday wish list?? haha. i'll write it down. bWhaha..

1) go chruch and cell
2) meet my friends
3) meet my cousin
4) watch gospel of john and passion
5) the lion king vcd!!!!!!!!!!!!! ( i love sinba!!!!!)
6) strawberry cake (bread talk one!!!)
7) new com

actually.. not much la. i'm a simple person ok! as long as my friends, my family, God, my dog is with me. theres not much i'm asking for.

mr cheah is gonna treat me, pam and angeline to dinner on the 9th to celebrate my birthday... haha. siGh. why is he so nice to us? tell me where to find such a caring boss. Of course my work in concerto is not exactly 100% relaxing. Sometimes have to put up with a lot of pple. i feel so tired. i'm sleeping at 12 plus every night. ok. its not exactly very late but still.... i'm TIRED!!!. haha.

i wanna burn another CD. oops. kim, i think i lost the CD you burnt for me you know. sob. its my favourite. anyways, i really can't wait to see you 3 again. its been like dunno when since i last saw kim?!?!?! sigh.

learnt how to play a new song on the guitar. but i still can't play bar chords. arg. i think i'm gonna buy a guitar soon. after my piano exam this year. =)
ok. i'm so tired. my eyes are closing soon. till then... cIaO~!

.ruffles off.

4.4.04

i've just found out blogspot is so problematic. it better not delete away my past blogs. i'll go crazy. hehe.

anyways, just read kim's blog. and i feel so.... sad. dunno why. the feeling is weird. i feel like one of my closest pal is feeling so down and stressed up but theres nothing that i can do. i can't be there for her in school. no more huggies during reccess. i miss those days we've spent kim. i miss those days in fairfield with the 3 of you. i miss those days where we just spend so much time together in sec 2. i miss those days of you and qian waiting for me and tracy during reccess at the ground level. i miss those letter exhanging days. i miss disturbing peter and andrew in class. i miss borrowing nail cliper from angeline. i miss laughing at peter's lameness. i miss those days of ms wong's pms english classes. i miss arugeing with tracy during english class. i miss playing tic-tac-toe and hangman during amaths with yenping. i miss sylvia's pink fantasy. i miss copying notes during mrs choe's class. i miss rachel's craziness. i miss talking to my friends. i miss those childish, carefree days in fairfield. basically i miss fairfield. theres so many things i can't forget. i've met so many people. so many friendships forged. so many memories.

i don't want to lose contact with my friends. esp kim, tracy and qian. we've been thru so much. since primary 5. i can't bear the thought of just putting our friendship at the back. we know each other inside out. our friendship is just so valuable. priceless. tho qian is the shortest friendship i have among the 3 of you. it is also the most dramatic, most tear-filled one. i miss you all. i miss kim, qian, tracy, peter, hwadianto, andrew, sylvia, sarah, oi wah, yenping, lijia, john, rachel, felicia, pamela, sandee, jeremy, daniel.... and many many many many more!!!! blEhx.

just wanna say... QTK.. we have a date on the 7th yea? so much to catch up. cyaz!

.ruffles off.

2.4.04

yay!! i've finally solved the blogspot problem.. =) went to work at 4pm. actually no matter how tired i feel, i'll always wake up to a brand new day that shines!!!! even tho my life is so routine, i don't feel like my life sucks. teehee. i think its the same for everyone. when you think you're life sucks. think twice. God didn't create you to spend such a sucky life. Theres so many things happening everyday. it just a matter of acknowledging it. even if you're not working, not studying, theres so much that you can do. go read the bible, talk to God- theres so much to learn!! spend some time with your loved ones-i'm sure that would brighten up your day.

anyways.. this is a super nice song... i think the lyrics goes like this..
i love to worship you my God
i love to worship you my God
and feel your breath of heaven
your all consuming love

holy spirit come in power
change my life
that i may live for you my God
let your spirit come in power
change my life
that i may live for you my Lord
fall on us Lord

.ruffles off.

1.4.04

siGh. blogspot's giving problem again. can't see the tagboard. can't see the messages. can't see the changes. haix. so irritating. and it seems like i'm the only one with the problem. so irritating. who can help me with html!????! arg.....

anyways, went to work at 12pm. sounds familiar eh? coz i always start with that sentence. so blahx.. went to work.. vacummed the place. its so tiring vacumming that place. the floor is carpeted and i always hit myself with the vacumm cleaner. it sounds so stupid but i dont know why it always happens. then i'll trip over the wire and knock against the door. COZ THE CARPET IS SO HARD TO VACUMM! and i think i've got 'vacumm' spelt wrongly.

anyway, had lunch with sylvia in the afternoon. angeline came at 4 plus and andrew came over at about 8pm. my finger hurts from playing the guitar. and i think my nails are so short that it feels funny playing the piano. coz when i cut it just before my piano teacher came on monday, so i was rushing through it hAix. my exam's in september. siGh. i dread it.

so tracy, yea. keep your 7th free for us yea? really want to spend some time out with the 3 of you again. kim... where are you? i don't see you online anymore.. and i don't see you blogging. don't really know whats happening to you. i heard abt you-know-what and who. i think just take it easy yea? i know you're sick and tired of waiting. but still time is forever. you have lotsa time. and just know one thing. he told me he still loves you.

sigh. its been so long since i fretted over such things. i don't know what to say. i'm just thankful for people like andrew, angeline, tracy, kim, lijia, qian.. and lots more..

.ruffles off.