.Dont start with Me.

.you wont win.

31.3.04

ok. i'm having such a bad day. first, today is so super hot. i'm so lazy and sleezy and picky and fuzzy and nutty. the stupid blog doesn't work.. or so it seem like only it doens't work FOR ME. haIx. lijia tried to do some changes to the code. after doing halfway he sent the code back telling me theres more to edit but he's stucked. Grrrrrrrr. haix. then when i met qian today, she told me some thing that realy bothered me. i don't understand guys nowadays, i think guys nowadays should take more initiative. haix. whY??????????? WhY issit like that?!?!?!??!!? ok.. am i talking too much??? sIgH........

sometimes i really want to talk to him. sometimes i don't. sometimes i don't know what to say. I don't know if i should test the waters or should i work on it. i don't know if HE feels the same way. QTMK. out of the 4 of us, i'm the one with less BGR problems coz i don't even commit myself into it. Not because i'm not ready to, but i just don't want to. coz i don't know if i do, will i be the one being scarred in the end? sIgHx.

.ruffles off.

30.3.04

went for work today at 12pm. its so cold in MC. bRrrr. can't open the back door, can't tell the sembawang to lower their vol. so we're stucked with a cold and noisy environment. anyways... came back at 10 plus coz angeline somehow arranged for a 9:30pm class which ended at 10pm for jason.

anyways, came online in the morning today. talked to kenny. anyways, this is for you kenny... Do you best and God will do the rest. So trust everything to God, be it school, job, sheryl, home, friends... leave it to God.. =)

anyways, just came online and asked blen to help me do the tagboard. BUT IT DOESN'T WORK THE PROPER WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ITS CUT INTO HALF!!!!!!!! and he left before he was done helping. Grrrrrr. Dunno if its working properly partly bcoz blogspot is lagging in updating its stuffs. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. dunno where he went. must be talking to tracy wan.

anyways, i'll be meeting qian tmr for lunch. Because she's borrowing a book from me. then sun bian eat lunch. gRRrrrrrrrrr. i so long never see you already. since that day i went back to school. anyways, we have a date on the 7th yeah!? haha..

the passion of christ in coming out in a couple of days time. i think i'm gonna watch it with my cousin. She's not a christian. but i do hope the movie will touch her - that is, if i can sneak in successfully. hehe.

anyways, i realised i'm starting most of my paragraphs with 'anyways'. haha. ok. this is lame. coz i'm absolutely bored.

ok. my dad is asking me to stop. i'd better log off now... till then.. cIaO~!

.ruffles off.

29.3.04

had piano at 11am today! luckily i woke up at 10:30 today. the lesson wasn't as bad as the last few weeks. he was in a good mood and he briefly showed me the syllbus for aural. i was knocked out! my goodness. theres so many things involved. got a feeling i'll fail aural. diE. =)

went for work at about 3pm. anyways, a teacher recommended a tuition agency. i think i'll teach primary school tuition. anyways, gave them my contact, partivulars and he said he'll give me bukit batok west students. wheres bukit batok west?! i'm a kluz at taking buses. anyway he said he'll call me if theres any student. =)

this song:
holy spirit come in power
change my life
that i may live for you my God
is
1) very nice
2)very meaningful

if you actually sing it with your heart and soul, it would really touch you and move you to tears. Angeline actually helped me save the poem i wrote for Jesus. I'll put it up someday. All i wanna say is, I LOVE YOU my Lord. Even tho so much has happened in my walk with You, I will NOT stray from you. I love you Jesus.

.ruffles off.

28.3.04

ok. so much has happened yesterday. well, not a alot of things, but definately a BIG thing. Sigh. i've finally told my dad about CHC. man, this is such a painful memory. This is the greatest obstable i've ever met in my walk with Christ. I don't want to go into details. I've never felt so desperate. Every minute felt so depressing. Thank God bee leng, wei wen, lydia and jeremiah was there. I really don't know what to do. I'm so sorry pam. Its really not your fault. I should actually thank you. Really. If it hadn't slip out of your mouth, i wouldn't have the courage to tell him myself. I can't hide forever. I still love you, ya noe? you've been a really great friend. =)

anyways, all that came has come to a pass. I really don't want to talk about it anymore. I'm not going to try to talk to him about it anymore. He is so admanant (sp?) about it. I'm so sick and tired of this issue. But it doens't mean that i'm giving up. I'll just be patient and think of another way.

alright. enuff of it. i just got over it. i don't want to get myself depressed all over again. >.<''. isn't that cute? angeline loves drawing that.

siGh. Haix. sorry. i can't stop sighing. Was thinking of what to write and i just kept sighing.

i wrote a poem for Jesus in MC today. Don't know if mr cheah saved it. Sigh. Hope he did. coz i didn't. anyway even if he didn't i still can write another one when i have the inspiration.

I can't sleep. I feel like taking a walk downstairs. I love the night. I can stay up all night when i'm not at home. The breeze... the coolness... the way the light lights up the streets... basically the atmosphere... just lightens up my load and its the perfect place for inspirations.

.ruffles off.

26.3.04

ok.. i've decided to retype today's blog. so much has happened...i wanna take a break! i wanna be out with my close pals, spend time with them.. i miss them loads. how i wish i can spend my birthday with every single one of my cherished pals like kim, tracy, qian, charm, 2e, 6d.. blahx..

i think i'm taking things for granted. can u imagine i wanna quit my job??!!? its like a dream job anyone can find. i hear my friends complaining about their jobs, how tiring and demanding it is. while i slack openly at my workplace coz its so disturbingly relaxing.

sigh. i'm feeling so blue today. i feel like going for a walk. i'm not sleepy. i feel like talking on the phone. its a long time since i chatted with a friend through the night. kim.. do you still remember.. during our pri 6 days, we used to talk every night till about 1 or 2 am? sigh.

sighx. i think boredom is getting to me. alright. its getting late.. till then.. ciAox~!

.ruffles off.

25.3.04

hai. supposed to have piano lessons tomorrow but its officially changed to mondays. hai. i really dread piano lessons. but what to do.. die die also have to pass this year's exam. hai. but i die also won't take diploma. I know i sound so childish, but i really dread piano exams. i hate playing the pieces, they're so boring. hai. but nvm.. i shall be of good cheer and get it done!!!!!

anyways, went for work at 1pm plus today, but signed it at 5pm. which means i gave 4 hrs of free labour today. haha. oh wells, it doesn't matter. i dont really work for the money. anyways, i really like the cellgroup i'm in now. firstly, all of them are growing so strong spiritually. strong in their faith too. secondly, they're all so friendly, cindy popped by in the afternoon today and weiwen tries his best to get to know the cellgroup members. I'm so glad God put me amongst them.

the passion of Christ is rated m-18. which means i'm not of age to watch it! but nvm, i'm gonna try to pass off tho. at most i'll have to ask someone who's 18 to go with me or buy the tickets or something else, if i can't go with the chc one.

i can't wait to get the appeal results. hai. hope i'll get in marketing. anyways, God will make a way even if i don't :P. i feel so ditzy with all the things going on right now. and i mean it literally too. i maybe sitting infront of my computer, but i feel like i'm swaying. i don't how to explain. i feel like i'm gonna fall.

the world is in chaos man. the taiwan election, terrorism, blahx blahx blahx. sigh, i pray that God will bless the poor, heal the hurt, walk with the lonely ones.

.ruffles off.

24.3.04

didnt have to work today, so i can take a break. really slacked at home today. blenheim helped me change the design of my blog. its nicer now isn't it? haha. thanks blen.

Just went for a walk in the park with my parents and the dog. its so nice and breezy there. i love the park at night. but i know my parents sure wun allow me to stroll alone.. not even with the dog. anyways, i had lots of thoughts tho.

anyways, just read andrew's first blog. woo.. i was hit real hard by his faith. Andrew. he has grown so much spiritually. Andrew.. this is for you: i'm really glad you've grown so much. Frankly speaking, you were the one who showed me the faith. you were the one who kept me going spiritually even tho i was backsliding so much. Thanks bro.

anyways, i'm very much smitten with someone. I've never felt this much for a long time. i miss him so much. ok. i shan't talk about it here.

hm... my bdae's coming~!!!!!!! haha.. 8th of April.. yanbing's one is on the 10th, so is david's. charm's one is on the 27th i think. can't remember. i've been spending my birthdays with tracy, kim, qian for a lot of years already.. as far as i can remember, i've known you guys for 6 yrs. haha. long eh. like i said. TIME FLIES..............

.ruffles off.

23.3.04

went to work as usual today. blehx. angeline didn't come today. she was supposed to work today, but somehow she had something on. so i had to take over. but anyways, she'll work tomorrow. haha. time to take a bReAk!!!! mayb i'll see if bee leng can give me bible study tomorrow.

sylvia just added a testimonial. haha. thanks gal. it was fun knowing you, even though we were like almost 'enemies' in pri school. really. haha. i'm amazed by how things can turn 180 degrees around in a couple of years. from not talking to sitting beside each other in class. haha. this is one friendship which i'll never forget.

hai. time flies. i can still remember the day my parents enrolled me in fairfield primary. the day we graduated from fairfield pri. the day we were promoted to fairfield seconday. i still remember i was looking at the notice board, looking for my classlist. then we had sec 1 orientation. sec 3 level camp. GB regional camps. NDP with charmaine, kim, tracy, dellia and qian. from sec 2e to sec 4e. hai. and i definately can remember the days i spent with qian, tracy, kim and many more. From sec 1 friends to sec 4, to GB seniors, to BB guys to teachers.. blah.. so many memories. Fairfield, My 2nd home for 10 yrs. So many wonderful memories. Thinking back to those days spent in fairfield. i really thank God for every friendship that i've made, every friend that i've met. Every teacher who has taught me. Primary school teachers like Mrs Goh, Ms Lum, Ms Patricia Ho, Mrs Amy Yeo, Ms Karen something, Ms low and many more.. can't remember already. Secondary school teachers like Mdm Sun, Ms Wong, Mr wee, Mr chia, Ms lim, Ms tan pei ghee, Ms Goh.. blahx. Sigh. i miss fairfield.

.ruffles off.

22.3.04

haven't been blogging for the past couple of days. quite a lot of things happened too. got back posting results, wrote a poem, gotta know some of my friends better.. blah..

went to appeal for NYP-marketing today. the cut off point is 19, my aggregate is 19. Hm.. hope i can get in. anyways, seriously speaking. From the day posting results are released till today. I wasn't exactly terrified or anything. I think i'm nuts. i mean, those who know me well will know that i'll be scared out of my wits. anyways, like i said, i just left everything to God to handle. I'll do my best to get myself in some course, and God will do the rest!! even though so much has happened to the posting thingy and i feel rather stressed out, i still believe in that. =) what's more i'm given so much help from God, blessed with people like my cousinS, my parents, angeline, jonathan - who introduced me to hang cheong, and they really played a big part in my decisions. Thank you guys so much. =)

ok. enough of posting results! i'm gonna go crazy hearing that one more time. everyone's asking me where i'm going. haha. anyways, done quite a lot of things these few days. wrote a poem in music concerto about a friend. haha... shan't go into details till the time is rIpE. hehe.

feeling so tired now. my eyes gonna close soon. hm.. i really love the life i'm leading right now. i mean, i've got so many people whom i can count on, so many people who are so concerned about me. teehee. i feel so loved and cared for. Seriously!!! its no joke. i'm just so blessed to be feeling this way. =) ok.. i think i'll continue tomorrow. my handphone just went flat. right.. till then.. cIao!

.ruffles off.

17.3.04

woke up at 9:15 today. met angeline at the NP bus stop then we had to cross the stupid bridge. i really hateeeee crossing that bridge. Its so high and scary and so long. yikes.

anyways, we went NP for the early childhood written test. saw tracy, christopher, cheryl and gabriel outside the examination room. Think we were late, but there were people who were even later. So the whole thing was dragged. Anyway the test was rather easy. But since its so easy, everyone's gonna do so well, so hm.. dunno if i would be able to scrape thru this. but anyways, have to call back between the 25th to 27th of march to check if we're in for the interview. today's the 17th. posting results are gonna be released on the 20th. 2 more days. i'm not very worried. gave it to God to settle. I'll just have to wait and see where He decides to put me in. No matter what, i'm sure it'll be promising. :)

i think sometimes i need to control my anger. I get irritated too easily. Whenever i get angry at things, the words 'be slow to anger' will always come into my mind. I think God is telling me to be more patient, less quick to anger and have more tolerance. Ok. that will need a lot of self discipline and will power and lots of reminder. But i'll change. :)

.ruffles off.

16.3.04

spent the day with tracy, going shopping and watched a movie. its the first time i've shopped since chinese new year. was quite fulfilling. bought the things i've long wanted to buy. bought a pair of shoes, bag, nail polish, facial foam. watched the cat in the hat or something like that. caught up with tracy with a couple of stuffs too. its been a really long time since i last went out with her. called qian in the morning to ask her out, but she wanted to go swimming with keng. haha. and tracy was trying to convince her that it'll rain in the afternoon. didn't call kim coz we know she'll be at school. but dear kimmy, we've not forgotten you, maybe next week or something, on some fridays or something, we'll try to go out together to catch up... miss you all loads.

i realised can't leave the house without feeling weird if i don't bring my bible along with me. so i made sure that the bag i bought was actually big enough to put my bible in. actually i'm now at my dad's office, using his computer, surfing the net. haha. no one's in the office. everyone's outside at the restaurant, so i have the whole tiny office to myself. its cold in here. my hands are gonna freeze soon. downloading the msn messenger in my dad's office com. haha. i'll try to teach him how to use it, so i can chat with him next time when he's in shanghai.

talked to tracy about going to chc. everyone's telling me to let my dad know as soon as possible. i know, but i don't know how really.

.ruffles off.

14.3.04

i need to re-schedule my life, my time. I don't want to spend my time in music concerto everyday. Yes, i do love that place. but not to the extend of working there everyday. I do get tired of that place. Its the people and the ever limited memories there that's holding my decision to quite next month. My heart longs to leave, but my mind don't want to. Should i follow my heart or my mind? I want to spend more time with God, spend more time sharing about His word, spend more time praising Him, spend more time introducing non-christians to Him. Really, that's what i long to do. That's what i want to do. I long for Him, long to be with Him. Basically, i just thirst for Him. Nothing else matters.

.ruffles off.

13.3.04

hm.. its been a long time since someone made my heart skip a beat. Was quite surprised he managed to. but nah, i don't want to get involved in a relationship yet. not till the right one comes along. lolz. its been a real blessing to know so many great, caring, wonderful guys. Great friends.

anyways, haven't been catching up with QTK. I miss talking to you guys. tracy just called me the other day. Actually i can't wait to stop work in june, and go out with you guys. I feel like going on a bag and shoe shopping spree. haha. That's crazy i know. I wanna watch big fish, the eye 2, butterfly effect and passion of the christ. I know passion of the christ is not out yet, but i'm just so excited for the movie. Theres so many things that i wanna do. BUT- i'm not complaining. Just kinda hm.. a little sulky.

Went to work at 11:30am today. was a little late coz i just didn't want to wake up. The weather's beautiful- at least in my opinion. It was cool and refreshing after the rain yesterday night. Met mr and mrs cheah at the lift. they were about to leave already. Oops. Mrs cheah's leaving for beijing AGAIN tomorrow. Sigh. That means me and angeline would have to be there EVERYDAY. AGAIN. Gonna have piano lesson on monday. hai. better practice tomorrow.

So we were tending the shop till 9:30 then angeline went to buy her shoes coz her current ones were broken due to some unforeseen circumstances. HAHA. ok. i'm so mean, BUT she didn't have to pay it for herself. haha. I'm in a cranky mood today.

Going for service again tomorrow. My dad just TOLD me that i've not gone for service for a long time. BUT its not true. Just that i didn't go to his chruch. HOW?? how am i supposed to let him know??? sigh. Sometimes i just make up my mind to tell him that day. But i just buckle when i'm actually near to telling him. ARG. Its the only thing weighing my mind beside being anxious for my posting results. oh well, i'll have to tell him SOMEDAY right? sigh. Sometimes i just wish he'd open my bag and take a look inside, look at my notebook, so he'll know i'm still with God. And that way, i won't have to tell him directly. SIGH.

.ruffles off.

11.3.04

i realised my daily is routine is rather standardized. first, i'll wake up in the morning, go to the living room, sit on the sofa and stone there for 10 mins before i go and bathe. Then i'll get changed, eat my breakfast and go out. When i come back, i'll go to the living room, sit on the sofa and watch tv for 1/2 hr before i use my computer. BUT the things that happen in between this standardized routine are different everyday. That is why my life is so colourful. I'm meeting new people everyday. Learning more about God everyday!!! I'm just so excited. I wake up to a fresh morning everyday, wake up to a whole new exiciting, colourful, different day everyday~!!!!! Ok. I realised i'm overusing the word 'day'. coz the sentence sounds werid. I just love the feeling of having God in my heart! I don't have to worry about things, everything just turn out right in the end. Different aspects of my life are like puzzle pieces, they may be of different topic, different circumstance, but everything just pieces together PERFECTLY. and mind you, i used the word PERFECTLY, coz everything is just so PERFECT. God simply turned my upside down world upright~! Thank you Father~!!! Thank you Jesus~!! Everyday i just walk by FAITH and leave everything to God. I do my best and God will do the rest. All of us are just so blessed!!!! I'm sssssooooooooooo blessed!!! i just wanna share my blessings with others. i wanna share my blessings with Jia ru. Jia ru, i want you to know that, no matter how deep the pit you've fallen in is, God will pull you out of it! Jesus loves you so much. And so do we. Me, angeline, wai quen, we're all here right BESIDE you. I love Jesus. He loves me and He loves you too. He saved me and He's gonna save you too. I'm just so excited for a whole new day. Whatever problems and trials that may come my way. I know i'll pull thru, coz i will.

.ruffles off.

10.3.04

just came back from work. was supposed to be my off day. but received a call from mr cheah at 11am and asked if i could to go back at 2pm. how was i supposed to say NO? wanted to cut my hair in the afternoon. Probably i'll do that tomorrow after i've met bee leng. Gotta go back for work tomorrow at 4pm.

Found out the title of the book. Its 'Heaven, close encounters of the God kind' by 'Jesse Duplantis'.

Andrew read the book today. He loved it too. Recommended the book to almost everyone in MC. Here's a quote from the book, supposedly said by Paul in Heaven to Jesse "Our affliction is but for a moment. People have made it a lifetime. Change it back to a moment". This quote can be used in everyone's life. Sometimes we just bury ourselves in our afflictions, in our grieve, problems and we just stay stagnant there and make it a lifetime for themselves. But, it is but for a MOMENT. a MOMENT is a 'short while'. For it to be a MOMENT or 'short while', we have to stand up, get out of that trance and MOVE ON. So we can look back in the future and make it a moment in our lives. I don't know if i'm typing sense. Probably only i can understand what i'm saying.

.ruffles off.

9.3.04

just came back from work to find my uncle + aunty + 2 baby cousin + my darling dumped into a box yapping away. haha. you can imagine the noise generated from my home. the dog alone is enough to drive someone crazy. oh yeah, forgot to mention the tv set and the renovations coming from my next door neighbour. when i stepped out of the lift, i thought there was a celebration going on.

anyways, went to work as usual. angeline was supposed to work today, but i realised that if i don't work today, i'll only be working for 3 days this week. haha. so anyway angeline will be at work tomorrow. saw wei ming in MC today. haha. couldn't reconize him at all from the back view. everyone's looking so different, probably its because we've all grown up~! haha.

read a book in MC today. i can't really remember the title. Its something like Heavenly..encounters with God. I'll check out the title again and i'll add it in my blog tomorrow. anyway its not the point. the point is, the book is about this evangelist preacher, called Jesse's, encounters with God since young. How God never gave up on him, how God uses him to glorify His name and he actually writes out and describes his encounters with God. The main chapter in the book is actually about how he had an appointment with God, met God and Jesus, Paul, David, Abraham, angels and many more. Yes, he went to Heaven, Paradise!! It wasn't a dream, it was something that he was consious of, something that he was physically there. Time passed on earth when he was in heaven with God. And he wrote that Jesus wanted him to tell everybody that He is coming soon. Jesus simply loves us so much. He loves us more than words can describe, loves us more than our hearts can bear. And the glory of God is powerful. Jesse wrote that there are no shadows in Heaven because of the glory of God. There are no sun, no moon that shines, the place simply brightens up brightly because of the glory of God. Just the glory. There is no darkness. The flowers that are trampled on in Heaven doesn't wilt. They just keep blooming. There is no destruction, no death, no darkness. God created a mansion for Jesse in Heaven. Whatever that can be found on earth can be found in Heaven because God created them. I can't describe the contents well, but its a book highly recomended by me. I really like it. Very motivating, encouraging and the contents just came down on me like a huge realisation. I found many answers. I can't describe how i feel. It just so lovely.

.ruffles off.

8.3.04

haven't blogged for a couple of days. was quite lazy. went for service yesterday. don't know if i can go for the sunday service next week. sigh. coz mr cheah and mrs cheah would be going for the sun 1pm service. Probably i'll try to go for the sat one. wonder whos going for the sat one. i'll see how things go.

woke up to a cool rainy morning today. i just wanted to lie in bed and enjoy the cool weather, but had to go to work. Unwillingly i pulled myself of out bed, bathed and rushed for work. Left my handphone at home. So after i went to the bank, i went home to get my handphone. It was raining so heavily that the ends of my jeans were totally wet. When i got back to the shop, there was this major blackout on the fifth floor. Probably it was due to the some short circuit in the new sembawang music center shop. So i spent the whole day in the shop, doing the usuals and copied part of andrew's notes.

by the time i knocked off, the rest of the shops were closed already. And it was still raining so ever heavily. But i like it. hehe. i like rain. i like the breeze, i like the raindrops. i like the weather this way. I'm gonna sleep so sweetly and soundly.

Arg, i hate it when my dad probs into my business. So what if i'm talking to a guy online. He's my friend! And i really hate it when he starts probing and asking every little thing about me.. what i do, who i meet, what is it and into details! irritating. wish he would get off my back. give me some privacy. i'm not a little girl anymore. this is so irritating. infuritating. and as i'm typing this, i'm sure he's looking, reading the stuffs that i wrote. so irritating.

.ruffles off.

6.3.04

it was so busy in the shop today. made about 6000+. woOo-hoOo. q record broke, the last record was 2000+. Haha. But still, it was tiring. Think angeline's down with a slight fever. Take care gal.. don't fall sick. Everything just passed by so quickly today. Even my dinner was interrupted with people paying fees and such. Having backache, shoulderache, neckache, headache now.

Going for service tomorrow at 1pm. Andrew said the service was great and prophetic. Hm, wonder what's the message. Wha, can't take it anymore, my back really aching badly. So gonna end here! Till then.. tata~!

.ruffles off.

4.3.04

now there are 2 things weighing my mind. First is my piano, the other is about telling my dad abt going to city harvest. Gonna have piano lessons tomorrow. hadn't been practicing much. I really don't like to practice examination peices. i feel like postponing my lesson, but that's what i've been doing these few weeks -BUT they weren't intentional coz i was really busy those few weeks. My exam's in september. Sigh. Really want to get over and done with.

The other one about telling my dad about city harvest. Sigh. Seriously i don't understand the problem. All i can do is to keep praying that he'll understand. And i don't even know whether i should tell him or let him find out by himself. Arg....... how? This is so infuriating. I'm not doing something immoral. Why should i be feeling this way. Sigh.

.ruffles off.

3.3.04

today is the last day to register for poly or jc. Wonder what my friends chose. i chose NYP- Business Management as first choice. Fransca is in that course too in NYP. So i can ask her hows it like in that course. The postings are gonna be released on 20th march. And i have to call some number between 14th to 16th march to check if i'm shortlisted for the early childhood education in Ngee Ann. If i am, i'll have to go for this written test. And if i pass it, and they accept me, i'll have to choose between the JAE courses and early childhood. Heard from blenheim that tracy is choosing early childhood coz she wanna teach upper pri kids. Hope she has enough patience. Still remember GB used to have this Eduvac thingy where we had to tutor the primary school kids. haha.. and tracy was so irritated with them. Oh wells, everyone has their own interest.

it finally rained today. was hoping for some rain to come these few days. i really can't stand hot weathers. It makes me feel so sleepy. i could have hibernated those few days. I really like cold, rainy days, but not thunderstorms. that's why i prefer night to day. Night is cooler, and i actually feel more refreshed at night. I feel so sleepy under the sun especially in the afternoons. blehx. So November, december and the starting of jan are my favourite months. and of course, not to mention its also the festive season, Christmas, and chinese new year.. lolz... :)

.ruffles off.

2.3.04

1st story...

A young lady named Sally, relates an experience she had in a seminary class, given by her teacher, Dr. Smith. She says that Dr. Smithwas known for his elaborate object lessons.

One particular day, Sally walked into the seminary and knew they were in for a fun day.

On the wall was a big target and on a nearby table were many darts. Dr. Smithtold the students to draw a picture of someone that they disliked or someone who had made them angry, and he would allow them to throw darts at the person's picture.

Sally's friend drew a picture of who had stolen her boyfriend. Another friend drew a picture of his little brother. Sally drew a picture of a former friend, putting a great deal of detail into her drawing, even drawing pimples on the face. Sally was pleased with the overall effect she had achieved.

The class lined up and began throwing darts. Some of the students threw their darts with such force that their targets were ripping apart. Sally looked forward to her turn, and was filled with disappointment when Dr. Smith, because of time limits, asked the students to return to their seats. As Sally sat thinking about how angry she was because she didn't have a chance to throw any darts at her target. Dr. Smithbegan removing the target from the wall.

Underneath the target was a picture of Jesus. A hush fell over the room as each student viewed the mangled picture of Jesus; holes and jagged marks covered His face and His eyes were pierced.

Dr. Smith said only these words... "In as much as ye have done it unto the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto Me."
Matthew 25:40.

No other words were necessary; the tears filled eyes of the students focused only on the picture of Christ.

2nd story...

One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan had just come from the Garden of Eden, and he was gloating and boasting. "Yes, sir, I just caught the world full of people down there. Set me a trap used bait I knew they couldn't resist. Got 'em all!"

"What are you going to do with them?" Jesus asked.

Satan replied, "Oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna teach them how to marry and divorce each other, how to hate and abuse each other, how to drink and smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them how to invent guns and bombs and kill each other. I'm really gonna have fun!"

"And what will you do when you get done with them?" Jesus asked.

"Oh, I'll kill 'em," Satan glared proudly.

"How much do you want for them?" Jesus asked.

"Oh, you don't want those people. They ain't no good. Why, you'll take them and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you, curse you and kill you!! You don't want those people!!"

"How much?" He asked again.

Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, "All your tears, and all your blood."

Jesus said, "DONE!" Then He paid the price.

I got this 2 stories from an email. It makes me think about how sometimes we just hurt God without knowing it. Its so easy to hate and hurt somebody. But its so difficult to love and make somebody feel loved. Its so easy to say Thank you, but so difficult to say sorry. Its so easy to bear grudges against somebody, but its so difficult to forgive and forget.

.ruffles off.

1.3.04

sometimes when i return from work, i just wanna brush my teeth, wash my face and then go to sleep. but its becoming a habit for me to blog first before i go to sleep, if not i'll feel like theres something not done yet.

My cousin is really excited about my posting, even more anxious than me. She's already telling me stuffs that will happen in poly. haha. Probably its God's will that i choose NYP as my first choice. Coz, i have never ever thought of going to NYP before. But when i come to think of it, i'll have lots of guidance when i'm in NYP, which is great, coz my dad will be going to shanghai, i'll most probably need someone to give me advice every now and then. My cousin is a lecturer in NYP, another cousin just graduated from NYP and i also have another cousin who graduated from NYP years ago. So its like, at least i'm not alone there.

Its amazing how things just fit together like a puzzle. Every thing and every problem is just like a peice from a puzzle. But in the end, everything just fits perfectly. flawless. And i get a beautiful picture.

.ruffles off.